Y Wednesday, November 30, 2005Y
6:39 AM
Not much of a day today.. but time really flies i realized. Met up with fumin at 1.10pm at causeway pt.. but who knows this girl here was late. yes L A T E. Late. And this girl here basically knows very well i hate late comers, and this girl here is obviously out to make me furious, cause' she is late for 15mins, and what's more, her reason for being late is because she's eating lunch.??? You could have eaten your lunch earlier!! Mad. But after that she accompanied me to espirit to try out that skirt i liked so much.. and thanks min for helping me to ask for the size. :) hahaz. cheers. i loved the skirt so much eh.. but too bad. ar just too bad... hah! The jeans also nt bad.
So after that we met up with the other peeps in our class and then proceed on to the woodlands park, where we got to familiarize with the surroundings.. so that everything would go out smoothly on monday.. i hope. i cant stand noisy kids.. hahaz.. so fumin, the kids are yours ok.. i cant handle them.
Was a hot yet windy day.. nt long after.. we were dismissed.. by our leader seok. hahaaaz.. I reached home, had a bath and sat down while i checked out my handphone.. it was only then i saw dj's msg- "hey want pool? haha". i looked at the time and realised it was like an hr ago.. hahaz.. i guess he msged me when i was walking to marsiling mrt.. but somehow i din noticed it at that time. aww paiseh.. hahhaaa. And ya dj, first time huh, without him. hahaaz..
Yups.. so watched tv.. watched tv.. heard weejia talked about his so-called "wonderful" holiday life.. can empathise with him.. cause' it applied to me too.. hahaaz.. hi-5!
Tml, helping my bro to deposit the money.. so troublesome. grrr..
Y Tuesday, November 29, 2005Y
6:25 AM
Im back in action now.. after one day or two days of "not blogging".. since im so free now might as well sit down in front of my com and start training my typing skills.. hahaz. Yeps.. quite a day today. Met up with seok weijing and min for harry potter movie.. actually i wasnt interested in any of harry potter's movies at all.. so is fumin.. but since i am so free, ya might as well go watch.. hahaz. And it was nice! But some people advise me not to watch cause' i heard it's nt really that nice.. well, at least to me, i thought it was nt bad, what's more.. many shuai ges (in the movie ok..) also. Nt bad. i would rate a 7.5/10 for this movie.
And fumin, we three decided to share the lover's popcorn together.. in the end???! u ate like almost half of it lor! And leaving barely the other half for me and weijing.. what is this?
Ok.. so obviously after we caught the movie me and fumin were hungry.. and got to find a place to settle our lunch.. we decided for yoshinoya at first.. after we eliminated jack's place.. butttttt............. because of fumin's cravings for sushi againnnn, we decided to settle at sakae. yes. again. awww fumin you are giving me trouble once again.. if any thing untowards were to happen to me you are dead ok.
After that feeling so tired, we went on our separate ways and went home.. was so tired i took a half hr nap.. and after this blogging.. im going in my room to read up on the storybook i've borrowed le.. this book is very interesting.. i love "crime" books.
Hmmm.. tomorrow going to causeway point again.. for the SL thing.. i think kids will be afraid of me baz.. hahas. dry run. oo?
Dont know why.. but i feel like going Genting.. i like the feeling in Genting.. so cold.. so beautiful.. so fun. i like the feeling of being so high up..!
Yeass tmr morning going to play badminton with kian.. hope it doesnt rain.. if not i cant play!! i want to get rid of what i had eaten today!!~
Y Friday, November 25, 2005Y
4:48 PM
I spent almost an hour trying to blog out everything yesterday and it was all ruined in just a minute by the stupid internet connection fault.. i couldnt save what i blogged and everything's just gone, made me so pissed off yesterday night.Tuesday.. Dad's new car arrived. However it was an unfortunate day.. why? Cause on that unfortunate day when my dad's new car arrived, he was obviously happy. And when he reached home, he told my mum happily that the new car was very nice to drive.. but, on that unfortunate day, my mum wasnt in the best of moods cause' she have just had a quarrel with my brother that morning.. so she replied back in a seemingly crude manner and tone that she wasnt interested. At that point of time, i really felt like shouting out at her cause i cant accept her kind of behaviour.. i mean, yes she can and have the right to be angry.. but not to extent of venting her anger on my dad.. that's basic manners.. right.. sometimes i just dont like her temper.
Wednesday.. sat on the new car for the very first time.. felt very happy.. and my brother drove me around.. cool!
Thursday.. that was yesterday.. went playing tennis with my bro.. hahaz.. imagine playing tennis at 12 noon when the sun was shining the brightest.. luckily i had my sun block on.. if not im going to join the people in africa or india soon.
And fumin.. i saw mei nan zi playing tennis at yck court eh! hahaz.. i told my bro he is ajc's mei nan zi.. and he said he looked more like a sissy to him!! He's so beautiful, dont you agree?
Friday.. that is today.. nth much. just another normal day.. read up on the storybook i had borrowed a few days ago.. and i thought this book was nice.. the way it kept me in suspense attracted me. hahaz..
Yesterday PSLE results were released.. that malay top scholar could speak in fluent english.. his english was great.. i thought it was even better than me when i was in p6..
Somehow i felt that i had just received my PSLE results only last yr.. the memories of me taking my PSLE result slips was still etched in my mind so cleary.. i remembered i was so nervous that day i couldnt even talk to my friends around me.. my mum wasnt there to see me take my results.. wheares the back of the hall was fully crowded with other anxious parents.. then when i suddenly turned my head over, i saw my mum.. she told me she had taken half a day off cause she's worried about me. And with that, i recieved my result slip.. though i may not do as well as my other classmates, but for a child like me at that time, i felt no more than happy.. i was very very happy.. i did not expect myself to do well(at least to me, i thougt i did well enough).. i had expected something worse after i did my psle exam..
I could still remember that time just after my maths psle exam paper.. i cried.. such that the principal had to bring me to his office while my mum rushed over.. and the principal told me mum that i thought the maths paper was very difficult and that i would not do well.. and he even told my mum that as an em1 student, i must be facing a lot of stress such that it made me cry.. but, i really thought the paper was soo difficult!!
After the exam, i couldnt stop brooding over it..i totally had no confidence in my sci and maths at all.. sci was my worse subject in pri sch.. hahaz.. and i thought i could be posted to some other lousy sch which i dont like since the cut off point for my last choice of school was quite high.. but nonetheless, i did well in the end..
However when i was posted to PHS, i wasnt happy. Instead i got really sad and angry at the same time.. simply because i thought this school was really lousy. hahaz.. and it proved me wrong.. it's good. A place that fond memories existed..
HAhaz.. end of my history. hahahaaz..
Anyway, thanks fumin for helping with my blogskin.. it's a pity u do not know how to put in the music!~
This year's white christmas.. i think im spending it all alone.. again. i guess in all my seventeen years.. i have never been out on a celebration during christmas day.. perhaps only on the eve.. but not during christmas day itself.. sad huh. hahaz.. What is supposed to be a happy and cheerful festival seems like a lonely occasion to me.
Miss my parents reaching home early.. mummy kept working out late these days.. due to the festives.. miss her cooking somehow.. im sick and tired of "da-baoing" outside food le.. and finally she's coming home to cook today!, dont need to da bao le!
Y Monday, November 21, 2005Y
11:14 PM
Feelin' rather bored right now.. had been rotting at home for the past few days.. wanted so badly to shop around but realised i havent got any friends who loves shopping.. most of them are either working or im not familiar with or dont even like shopping at all.. and a small grp could be muggin? oh gosh.. what has my life become? im like wasting my precious time away.. with no friends to hang out with.. wasting my precious seventeen.. arh! Right now im staring at my laptop now.. admiring the beautiful night scene outside my brother's room window.. thinking bout loads of things which i shouldnt be worrying at all.. oh wad crap am i talking bout.. wadeva.. im going to be crazy any moment.. so ppl pls get ready. reserve a place for me at the asylum.. grade A type. ok?
Have been worrying bout many things lately.. having endless sleepless nights.. perhaps i worry too much.. and it's weighing a ton in my heart. im worry at the slightest things.. worry at things tt people might find it trivial.. and it keeps me from being as cheerful as before.. i think somehow im not the girl as before.. many things have changed.. though i still laugh and smile at the slightest things.. but somehow it's all different.
I have this particular friend who is very optimistic about life.. she's forever this cheerful even if the whole world were to collapse onto her suddenly.. i once asked her how did she managed to be so cheerful despite all those stress and problems.. and she told me this, "Life is short, you have only one chance to live, and u are lucky.. so why not just cherish what u have and stop worrying about trivial stuffs? every problem has got a solution.. let it take its course.. one day, the problem will be solved. Time is precious, i will not allow myself to be saddened by things, in fact, i will be cheerful no matter what.. Do what u firmly believe is right.. and there will be no regrets. "
I heard what she said.. and i thought she made sense.. but, i just cant get myself to stop worrying bout little things. perhaps, i should learn to give things up and taking things not so seriously..
people, if u are free. jio me out. i need some space out dere.. i just want to get away from my house.
Perhaps gg to woodlands library tmr.. borrow some books.. read. and walk around ba. Poor me, that's how i lead my "beautiful" life..
Y Saturday, November 19, 2005Y
1:06 AM
Had a fun day out wid 4gracians.. proud of em all.. rather tired now.. but just cant get down to sleep.. so decided to blog the happenings today.. if not i will nt blog anymore.. hhaas..Yesterday whole night kept thinking of whether i should go for the bbq outing anots.. think for the whole night.. in the end decided to go.. since my mum and fumin kept bugging me to go.. then thought of the "socializing with more people, in the future will be good for me in terms of business or people relations" theory.. so decided to go lo..
Initially meeting up with despina and wanxuan at pasir ris mrt so that we could go together to pasir ris park de.. then they called me at 5.45 telling me that they will be very late.. and cuz it's because my dad send me there.. so wx asked me to go by myself first.. so i went myself.. found the bbq pit 1 (luckily.. cuz the park was so big..) and sat down at d bench.. and yanshuang told me that i looked better with short hair. After like 10mins or so, ervin came up to me and say, "eh u come already ar?" And i was like, "uh-huh.. it's like for rather long le.." then bryan asked the same qn too.. and i answered back with the same answer. hahas..
Noticed many ppl have changed.. nt in terms of characters.. but more in looks.. all have become shuai ges and mei nus le.. hahas.. really really. hahas.. it's only today tt i realised that my ex classmates are actually so handsome and pretty. wow, good catch! ahas..
Talk with huida for some time while des and wx hadnt arrived yet.. heard he tio gang fight with a grp of about 20 ppl..hahas.. saw his plaster at the side of his head.. and he told me he gt boxed by a gang after finishin eating cake.. and i didnt believe it initially.. till zhong yan they all say is real then i believe de.. the gang even asked them "hun na li de?" hahas.. then in e end they box huida they all lor.. so funny. after tt went to police station. hahahahaa cute. and heard zhong wei faked death. hahaha!!!! DAT was so funny.
Des and wx came only like when the sky's gg to be dark.. crap alot.. laughed alot.. stanley and jootat also came.. wah stan become like more n more handsome day by day. hahahas.. then wx told me she know i have gt this friend in aj called fumin.. and she says she thinks fumin is a very interesting person.. hahahahas.. fumin u are famous!!!
Then they began talking abt promos stuffs.. grades all tt.. and everyone was shooting at me like siao.. bev said this, "ar typical ajcian la.. A A A.. one B! can go die. haha" , and weixin said this, "how many As u gt?", alvin lim even more funny, said "wah everytime i walked past ur sch, i dont even dare to look up.." this is too "kua zhang" le la.. as in.. when u have stayed in aj long enough.. u would think that it's actually nth.. just another sch.. not much of a difference..
Many asked me how is Aj, and i said it was hell. hahs.. they asked me why.. and i said cuz there's alot of stress and nerdos mugging around.. i mean, it's true!
Throughout the talk, many somehow discriminate me by calling me a typical ajcian. hahas.. wonder how i gt this nickname..
Many of my exclassmates did well for their promos.. making me so stressed up now.. cuz im competing against them for Alevels..they said phy was easy.. i totally dont agree. it was hell difficult.. regret nt taking econs. haix..
And.. many thought they had seen a ghost when they saw me.. hahas.. cuz they thought i looked rather like sheryl. was it? how come i din notice tt? chah kept saying i should look up more.. cuz i really looked like sheryl . stan and tat also gt a shock when they saw me.. hahas.. i dont wanna be a sheryl-lookalike! hahahas..
had a fun time bbq-ing.. though i din eat much.. most of e time was just drinking.. paid 13 bucks for drinks.. sausages.. satays.. and chicken wings.. though it's a little ex.. but i dont mind. hahas.. bonding ma.. so im fine with it de..
Around ten plus decided to go home.. while waiting for the bus to go pasir ris interchange.. ian showed us some magic tricks.. it was really amazing! amazing till me wanxuan and des just looked at him. shocked. it was so reaaal! guess he used thesemagic tricks often to lure pretty girls/? hahas..
Reached interchange le.. dunno which bus to take.. wanted to take 39.. but i thought no one was taking it.. so was a little confused.. cuz left me alone with the guys.. and one or 2 girls.. think was jac and chah.. then realised shawn benny weixin and eugene are taking 39 also.. so go with them lo.. imagine one girl with 4 guys! hahaa.i felt rather paiseh and out of place actually..
Shawn benny weixin and eugene decided to go shawn's place play land or sth ba.. then moses that clique im nt so sure. On the way to the bus stop, eugene asked this silly qn, "eh u one girl with 4 guys.. nt scared that u tio gang-raped ar?" And i laughed at it and said no la! Benny said this, "wah lao eugene.. only u this type of person then think of such things lor.. we protect her hor!" ya eugene is really very pervert manz..
Benny asked me abt some jc stuffs.. we had very different views on the level of difficulty of physics.. he thought it was easy, while i tot otherwise. then on the bus, we 5 sat together and weixin shawn n eugenne began talking abt their lives in sp.. heard them say until so fun.. and me and benny was like, "huh.. whats tt?" felt to out of place. so talked a little bout jc stuffs.. heard poly was fun. but if i were given a chance to choose again, i will choose jc still. no reasons why. hahas.
Reached khatib finally.. walked all alone from the bus stop to my house in the dark.. first time so late went home.. or rather second time? the first time was sec 4 prom night tt day ba.. luckily dad waited for me at the void deck.. if nt i will nt dare to walk alone to the lift and take lift by myself. hahaas..
yupps.. so im here blogging now. with nth to do. im getting so bored during these hols.. come on someone jio me out ba.. be it kbox or pool or wad. i don mind! HaHaHaaa..
Overall, the outing was fun.. should organised more of such activities! great!
Y Thursday, November 17, 2005Y
9:39 PM
This is my favourite korean song.. the lyrics.. it's supposed to be in korean.. This is the lead song of tv serial Stairways to Heaven..想你 天国的阶梯
无论等待多久都无法再靠近你像傻瓜般哭泣的你的身边只能带给你伤痛的我为何还要傻傻等待想你想你痛恨我自己想哭你跪着求我能忘掉所有的一切在记忆中曾经那么疯狂爱过你当试着用记忆寻找再也不想用爱来绑住你明知道不能这样就像生不如死的折磨想你想你痛恨我自己想哭为了你好我只有选择离开在记忆里曾经那么疯狂爱过你当试着用记忆寻找再也不想用爱来绑住你明知道不能这样就像生不如死的折磨直到身处天堂才有办法遗忘
Y Wednesday, November 16, 2005Y
9:14 PM
Ever wondered what was the best gift you have ever received since the day you were born? Guess no one would ever be bothered in thinking about this right.. i gave it a thought, and decided that the best gift on earth would be my parents' love.. The love that our parents gave us since the day we were born could never be replaced by anything no matter what, even if we were to disobey them so often.. even if we were to ignore them at times.. or even retaliate back when they scold us for some minor stuffs.. the love they gave us.. is the most noble and true-est thing on earth.. no doubt. They will always be there for us whenever we need them, whenever we are down. They are the pillars of our life.. they are the reason why im here today.. they took good care of us.. making sure we had everything we wanted.. nurturing us into what we are today.. taking care of our daily needs.. yet, without even a word of regret..
But, why do we still find ourselves grumbling and complaining about our parents being ignorant to our needs.. and even to the extent of wishing that we have had no parents at all?
Life's too short to always grumble about our parents neglecting us.. and not giving us what we wanted. i mean, come on, lets be realistic and face up.. we all know that our parents have already live for perhaps more than half of their life.. how long can they still be with us? how long can they still provide for us? Perhaps this is cruel, sad, but that's what the real world is.. isnt it?
I used to always grumble about my parents being biased towards my bro.. and complaining about not getting what i desired.. but, little did i know that i am actually considered very blessed.. considering that there are many people out there who doesnt even have a home.. who still have to worry about their meals.. whose parents do not even care for them..
My mindset changed when i witnessed life and death at that point of time.. i saw how people died.. suddenly. without even a notice.. i realised that life is indeed fragile.. and that the person you loved the most who's just beside you today could be gone tomorrow.. or even a split seconds later.. forever. Forever, means not being able to see them for life..
This, made me set my mind on doing something that i would like to do now.. i want to cherish the people around me, and what i have now.. i want to spend more time with my parents, understand them more.. or else, i might regret.
I went for an interview for a job some days ago.. and i realised how the working life is.. full of competitions.. i saw how only the strongest will stay.. and i suddenly felt like i do not want to grow up.. i want to be always a small girl.. always there with my parents.. i do not want to face the real cruel world.. i want to remain what i am now..
So, why not just live everyday to the fullest, and stop worrying about trivial stuffs.. whenever there's a problem, there's bound to be a solution.. life's precious.. if you have always wanted to do something, do it right now.. or else there might not be a chance anymore..
A small gesture like treating our parents to lunch or dinner might make them happy.. even if it's nt in a posh restaurant.. im sure they will be very happy.. dont forget, they are the ones who slog hard to nurture into what you are today..
Y Friday, November 11, 2005Y
10:25 PM
Realised it's been a week since i ever blogged.. hhas. have been very lazy lately.. dont really feel like blogging though there are many happenings..hmms.. ive cut my hair short. yes this time short.. cant even tie le. sads. will miss all my nice n cute rubber bands n clips.. and ive dyed my hair too.. looked real obvious cuz many ppl noticed it. even mr loh noticed it. hahahas.. but no one really care ba. i mean it's normal right..
then.. had oral presentation examination yesterday.. oh my god.. made me soo nervous till im like shivering while giving my part of the speech lo.. i can even hear my voice trembling.. and some words werent pronounced clearly. and i think i went too fast. hahas.. somehow i feel i was very "dao" when i walked past to where i should stand to give my speech.. hahas.. act cool. act confident. act proud. but right in my heart im soooooo real nervous. and so many eyes were looking at me.. gosh. Q & A's also very scary.. and i made a very big mistake ok.. i said sth like "chicken flu", when it's supposed to be "bird flu".. and the whole class was laughing at me eh.. and the worst thing is i dont know what they were laughing at! hahahas.
fumin pang seh me yesterday. u get it?
had tennis training today.. sdl. coach din come.. very boring. play by ourselves. then went home after tt..
wanted to go causeway pt borrow some books for reading de.. but in e end gave up the idea cuz was too lazy.. and besides im all alone. hahaas.
bored at home. holidays all e way. yet so many hold assignments..
hmm.. think im gg to blog sth formal leta on.. write it down noe in case i forgot to. hahahas..!
having an og meeting on thurs.. gg to somerset play pool.. promised them i will be gg.. but. hais.. still considering..
Y Wednesday, November 02, 2005Y
10:45 PM
oh it's been a long time since i ever blogged.. back to mon.. having a holiday cuz the other ajcians hafta take AO chi A level exam.. while our class basically dun haf to.. ya as u all know la, higher chi last time. hah.
heard d paper was alrite.. think fumin shudnt worry too much given her capability.. an A shud be a chicken feet for her.
Have faith!~
so throughout d whole of monday, i just practically stayed at home and rot.. did maths tutorial numerical methods.. but i do d first qn already i want to puke.. dun even noe how to do finish the whole qn.. so i decided ti give up after one qn. but i managed to finish watching the vcd fumin lent me.. winter sonata. very touching.. and what's more.. bao yong jun is soooo shuai!@~
and then tuesday.. DEEVAPALI......! hahahahas.. stayed at home do nth.. did chem hol assignment.. almost done.. left with two more topics. hais. there's so much work to do even after promos.
late afternoon went out with family to buy laptop. bro kept pestering my mum.. in e end she decided to buy. then go sim lim bought one lo.. nt bad la. quite like it. but very nt used to using a laptop all of a sudden. haha. shall use back my old one instead..
then today.. back to sch for op rehearsal.. mr loh gave me exceeding expectation again. hahas. but seriously i think i did a bad job. whatever it is, just give in my best shot can le.. after sch.. gt pestered by weejia fumin weiting dj they all to go kbox.. wah pestered until in e end i finally relented. go with them lo.. on one condition.. me and fumin have to be in another separated room. and ya so in e end it's me and fumin in one room, then dj weiting weiqiang dj and joe in another room..
quite fun.. me n fumin sang till like ghosts. shout here scream dere.. and occasionally weejia and duojie will come in to ka chiao us.. then weiqiang will come in to dance some weird stuffs. hahas.. weird ppl they are.
and what makes a deep impression in me is my duet with weejia! we sang a duet on F.I.R- wu xian. wah we made the best duet on earth for that song.. mind u, for tt particular song only ok. hahas. best partner. rap and sing sooooo wel tt ppl were laughing like mad ok. hahas. and i think me n dj sang duet on S.H.E's song nt bad. hahahhaaaaa.
today i gt to noe how fumin sang.. with her "false voice". sounds like mickey mouse man. hahas.. and we both have gt a bad hbit while singing. fumin u shud noe rite.. the high voice suddenly turn low voice thing.. hahas..
fri set gg to play badminton after sch at yck court. hahas. i think im more keen on playing tennis instead. hahahas.
now im broke. i still owe mr dj 15 bucks for kbox. man. and one thing mr dj, ive gt no money ok. despite the 100 bucks. hahasss..
oh ya forgot to add.. today.. caused fumin to trip over at the escalator.. and her knee cap bled alot.. really alot.. left me feeling so guilty.. shudnt have asked u to run so tt we can board tt train.. shud haf waited for another train.. :)