Y Monday, November 21, 2005Y
11:14 PM
Feelin' rather bored right now.. had been rotting at home for the past few days.. wanted so badly to shop around but realised i havent got any friends who loves shopping.. most of them are either working or im not familiar with or dont even like shopping at all.. and a small grp could be muggin? oh gosh.. what has my life become? im like wasting my precious time away.. with no friends to hang out with.. wasting my precious seventeen.. arh! Right now im staring at my laptop now.. admiring the beautiful night scene outside my brother's room window.. thinking bout loads of things which i shouldnt be worrying at all.. oh wad crap am i talking bout.. wadeva.. im going to be crazy any moment.. so ppl pls get ready. reserve a place for me at the asylum.. grade A type. ok?
Have been worrying bout many things lately.. having endless sleepless nights.. perhaps i worry too much.. and it's weighing a ton in my heart. im worry at the slightest things.. worry at things tt people might find it trivial.. and it keeps me from being as cheerful as before.. i think somehow im not the girl as before.. many things have changed.. though i still laugh and smile at the slightest things.. but somehow it's all different.
I have this particular friend who is very optimistic about life.. she's forever this cheerful even if the whole world were to collapse onto her suddenly.. i once asked her how did she managed to be so cheerful despite all those stress and problems.. and she told me this, "Life is short, you have only one chance to live, and u are lucky.. so why not just cherish what u have and stop worrying about trivial stuffs? every problem has got a solution.. let it take its course.. one day, the problem will be solved. Time is precious, i will not allow myself to be saddened by things, in fact, i will be cheerful no matter what.. Do what u firmly believe is right.. and there will be no regrets. "
I heard what she said.. and i thought she made sense.. but, i just cant get myself to stop worrying bout little things. perhaps, i should learn to give things up and taking things not so seriously..
people, if u are free. jio me out. i need some space out dere.. i just want to get away from my house.
Perhaps gg to woodlands library tmr.. borrow some books.. read. and walk around ba. Poor me, that's how i lead my "beautiful" life..