Im gonna persuade my mum to allow me to have physics tuition.. cause i deeply believe i cant do without tuition..
The timetable next year.. really makes me so stressed up. Not only me.. jiahui even gave me a call in the afternoon and she sort of discussed with me that she may be dropping CLA at the beginning of next year. I was kind of shocked when she told me such a sudden decision.. but after some thoughts, realised that what she said does make some sense.. without clA, we would have more time to concentrate on the other subs.. but on the other hand, we werent sure our phy can make it.. that's the prob. shang nao jing..
Miss tuition times.. haiz.
Have always loved new year.. jan 29th! Looking forward to it!! :)
Nothing much to blog about.. Just feel very troubled that's all..
And i just got to realise there is this 4grace blog.. which is a blog my sec sch peeps made.. haaa. and my name was being mentioned!!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
random
us: mr ramesh, what are we doing today?
ramesh: skydiving
yu ling: so mr ramesh, what to do with the key?ramesh: oh, lock the class and throw it inside
yu ling: oh ok
haha. bored la.
What's Your True Color?
Koh, your true color is Black!
Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.
So it's christmas day today! Thank lord. Went bugis for some shopping today with mum.. but just couldnt find my own suitable clothes.. cause 80% of the time was spent on finding my mum's instead of mine. ahh..
Now im going to comment on our new timetable next yr.. it was hell. work schedule very hectic!! all four periods.. how am i going to survive for the whole of next yr? It's like 2 periods we are already like wanting to fall asleep in the lecture hall le, how are we going to stand 4 periods! gosh.. hectic hectic hectic.. considering that we have to see salt more often now.. haaaiz. And i was telling min if we had dropped clA, then we would have so much free time.. but now its like.. dont even know how to describe. Just know that im not going to be on this earth for long. haaa.
hmm.. this year has been a rather bored one.. I only remembered myself mugging throughout the year. Lifeless isnt it. haaa.. i chose this path myself, so what to do? Ren ming ba..
School reopening soon. And time flies so fast.. before i knew it, we are going to be seniors. And then 8 months later, we have prelims, another 2 months later, there's Alevels. And then, we are gonna be college graduates. haha!
I hope lord bless me throughout the whole of next year, that shall be my biggest wish.. and im casting all things aside, what's most important to me now is my studies. :)
A rather touching one..
慢慢失忆 所有和你的事情 必须忘记
爱的盆地
深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想被你肯定
在这个时候说我
让你感动过
别握住我的手
说我一定会懂
作不成的爱人
变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手
想著别人脸孔
换个方式牵手
并不会更好过
可不可以不作你的朋友
慢慢心痛
没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中
看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我
在这个时候对我
比从前温柔
应该放晴的天气
还下雨别这样下去
我难过但是说不出口
一直逃避我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头
怎么走都走不到尽头
可不可以别回头
可不可以就放手
可不可以不作你的朋友
I think the words below suits min. haaa.
只要睁开眼睛
就有好风景
再不用苦苦等你
偶尔的好心情
这种简单的快乐
比玫瑰美丽
我相信伤心会慢慢痊愈
Finally get myself down to settle some work. Though it wasnt really efficient.. haaaz. Think im going to fail. Had this bad feeling in me..
Nice weather. Nice mood. Ryhmes pretty well. haaa.
So yesterday, met up with weiting, weejia, fumin, dj and zhou peng for a game of badminton at woodlands. Pretty rough game with the guys. Initially i was playing with weejia and ting while fumin had nt arrived yet. And this weejia displayed biasness lor. Kept asking weiting to hit the shuttlecock while i had no chance at all, and giving the lame excuse that i should let weiting hit more since she's beginner? my foot. SHOULD BE FAIR OK. WEEJIA GET IT?
So i "jumped" over to join zhoupeng and dj. Really rough game they were playing.. dj really has got lots of strength.. im kind of scared of his "smacking". zhoupeng is known for his slyness. haaa!
Towards the end, there's this two guys who came to have a friendly match with zhoupeng and dj.. i must say these two anonymous guys were pro. Seemed like they were in some school team..
Then weejia and dj played against me and zhoupeng, real nice game. But too bad weiting kept urging us to go off. No choice got to stop our game.
Weejia, organise more of such games ok.. so that the chemical equation can be balanced off nicely. hmmm. if you know what im getting at.. =P
While i was online yesterday, i got to know that weejia and weiting were gossiping things behind my back!!! Not compaitable at all lo.. i look left look right dont see in any way we are compaitable. The two of them must have stamps over their eyes.. hahaaz! :)
Alright.. tmr most probably im going town to buy sth.. aha. Regretting nt buying it the other time i saw it.. so i shall buy tmr! Unfortunately, min's nt free, so i shall go alone. ahh.
That should be all baz.. heee.
Met up with min at bugis to buy weejia's bdae prez first.. then choose ar choose, finally set upon this black tee.. i thought the pic in front looked cute. Then met up with weiting, dj, weejia, and xiuhua and seoul.. for a lunch. Made me feel so guilty, ohhhhh man.. i cant face the world anymore. Ate for like almost 3hrs.. shop around.. then took neoprints together.. funny. Went on to bugis street.. and bdae boy weejia kept complaining.. dont know complain what de.. just kept on urging us to go home.. then i told fumin that weejia cannot have a gf next time, if not that girl will surely voimit blood. weejia ar weejia.. ppl dj din even complain one word leh.. xun leh. =P
Stood all the way home in mrt.. legs breaking. Back aching. haaa..
Min bought this pair of shoes which i quite like.. fumin, listen. i hate u ok. hate u ok. haaa!!!
Tmr going woodlands play badminton.. hopefully with the usual ppl? hmm.. as weejia said, we gotta lose all the fats that we ate today at seoul tmr!!
Wanna watch tv le.. anyway, i agree shan hu hai is nice!!
Anyway weejia, i still insist that it's D I A M, not T I A M. HAHAHAAAA!!~
Went for chalet on fri and sat.. But first 10 of us met up at cityhall for kbox first. Initially, we had planned that min, sixuan and me will have one room by ourselves..but who knows, when we stepped inside the room, dj and zhoupeng followed us. haha! Spent a good 15mins arguing with zhou peng to join the other group next door.. failed eventually. haaaa. Cant be crazy with min they all and shout all we can.. but nonetheless it was still fun, except that it was rather stressful, cause zhou peng sang till real nice. Me and min listen until very shuang. haaaz. :) Then sang f.i.r "wu xian" with weejia.. our fav song.. hahaz.. screamed until siao.. sang two times ok.. hahaa.. then while we were leaving, sang this song with zhoupeng.. screamed and screamed and he tried to hit my pitch. haaa.. result- lost his voice the next day. haaaaa!
After that proceeded on to chalet, i must really call this journey to the west.. the chalet was located sooooo far away. And imagine we were carrying all those heavy bbq stuffs with our heavy bags, walking allllll the way to the chalet. Many of us really felt like dying at that point of time. Hahaa. And yes, i told fumin it was like walking around orchard and somerset two times.hahaz.
Reached there finally, and it was totally different from what i had expected.. i dont like the toilet. Gives me a dirty feeling. Had bbq at night.. eat a little only.. then watched rainbow connections with many of the peeps and had a fun time discussing about it while we watched it.. oh ya.. weejia, u better watch out! Adulterous pair. haaaaa..
Went for cycling in the night with sel, zhou, dj, ghim, min, ting, jiahui and weiqiang.. fumin very mah fan.. gt to settle for the four wheels bicycle.. and i thought it was rather funny. haaa. looked cute. And fumin, you cycle so slow looo.. hai me cannot chiong. and i have got to cycle the slowest and stay at the back to look after you. but love me more ok. haaas.
Went back for a rest.. played daidee.. hahaz.. just learnt it. Very fun game.. addicted to it.. But the highlight is the heart attack.. many of us gather on the bed and played heart attack.. very exciting and scary.. and they played it real fast.. it's a game of speed and brain i think.. i havent got a chance to look at the card and i've got to pass it to the next person already.. screamed till siao.. and fumin kept hitting her own hand. hahaaaa. funny.
Got tired, slept for like one hr.. in a very awkward position.. legs very xin ku.. cant stretch out.. and it was sooo cold.. and im like wearing only a aj shorts.. imagine how cold i am.. not as fortunate as zhoupeng, he got a whole space by himself. slept until i can hear his breathing. so loud.. fumin even worse, snore somemore. In the midst of sleeping, i still could hear the mahjong sound. haaaa. one day im learning mahjong!
Next day.. many of them left..left only the 6 of us.. 4 guys 2 girls.. played pool in the afternoon. And i rmb at mac while we were eating lunch, weejia suddenly told me i looked better with short hair. And you know what weejia, i was really embarrassed at that time. I thought you were being sarcastic, and you looked so serious when you told me that. Cant stand your serious face. haaaa.
Decided to go home after that.. leaving 3 guys and 1 girl. Too tired le.. so decided to take a taxi with weejia and min to bedok mrt station. Went home.. watch some tv.. then at 9pm.. went j8 for shopping with mum cause it's opened till midnight.. sale going on.. and it was sooo crowded. Cant stand it.. but the clothes were really cheap. Reached home at around midnight..
Slept till 12.30pm the next day. haaaaa.. power right.. cant believe it too.. broke my record. Did some work.. but just couldnt get into the right mind and studying mood.. im dead.. so scared.. dont wanna return back to school and lead the stressful life.. haiz.
Went shopping again just now.. haaa.
Tues they going to bugis seoul celebrate weejia's bdae.. dont know if im going.. haiz. haiz. WEEJIA IM BROKE! BROKE! 3 for $10 slippers ok! haaaaa!!!!!
oh ya.. fumin ar. On the way back home in the mrt, min told me zhou peng really very nice. haaaaa! Does that mean sth? hmmm.
Ok, so yes me and fumin had a really bad "quarrel" yesterday night over something.. and i decided to block her in msn, such that we wouldnt be able to talk in msn.. i know im so bad. But, i was in a really bad mood yesterday.. and then came mr DJ the nice man.. who spend almost 2hrs trying to be the middleman cum peacemaker. And that's when me and min finally got to know how we feel of each other. But im still rather unhappy yesterday.. Then this evening, she send me a sms asking me if i wanna talk over the phone and settle all the stuffs.. and i thought thrashing it all out on the phone would be kind of paiseh.. and i dont really know how to talk sweetly.. so i just said no.. then she sent me a very very long sms.. was quite touched. Right now, i guess we are fine le ba..
Ok, fumiN! wah i haven scold u ar.. u ordered me to write about the what lame 5 weird things about myself in my blog, and u choose dj me and weejia.. and the problem is who am i going to choose next! hahaa, i think i just ying chou ying chou a bit la hor.. just write about myself.. and nt choosing another 5 ppl. :)
ok.. so these are five weird and random facts about myself..
1) i dont like to sit in mrt trains.. haaaaz. Even if there are lots of seats on the train, i still would not choose to sit down.. and my favourite place to stand in the mrt is beside the door, against the glass pane.. yupps. Anybody who hangs out with me always would notice this ba. :)
2) Ok.. this is a secret of mine ok.. hahaaz.. you know ppl would normally sleep on the pillows right.. but im different ok, i sleep on the bolster instead.. cuz longer and more confortable.. hahaz.. and i will hug the pillow instead. It's the latest sleeping style i invented. haaaa.
3) Im very scared of hotness.. and if im outside and i feel very very hot, i will be very angry and impatient.. hahaz.. so ppl will have to tolerate with me cause i may start shooting many complains out.. ahaa. But dont be offended, cause im just feeling hot that's all!
4) I have this very bad habit of mine- i love to play with the collar tip of my uniform.. fumin also lor.. she likes to play with the button, such that the string loosened lo.. haaaa. i play until it has becomed black .. haaa. and fumin always likes to imitate my actions. This is a bad habit of mine since young.. when there's a collar, i will play with it de.
5) When you go out with me, i will always look at gothic and scary stuffs.. cause i find it interesting and fascinating.. i rmb whenever i went to parco bugis junction, there is this particular shop that sells the living dead dolls, and it's very scary.. the doll lying in the coffin, with her face all stiched up and blood all over.. and while others might find it scary, i find it very interesting and even thought of buying it, but in e end did not, cause it's quite expensive. Recently, got rather interested in this voodoo doll thingy.. it's actually a very small mummy.. all wrappe up in white, black or red bandage.. and then there's blood on it.. and some needles.. each type of doll have a special significance, if it's a love doll, at its chest, there will be a very small heartshaped cushion pinned down by a needle.. and it is believed that if what you had wished to the doll had come true, something on the doll would fall of.. for example if u wished for love.. and it was successful, the heart shaped cushion on the doll's chest would fall off.. and i heard of this story which is true.. haaaa be prepared.
There is this girl who likes this guy alot.. and so she bought this voodoo doll which i had just mentioned.. The type of doll she bought is the love voodoo doll, with the heart shaped cushion on its chest.. pinned down by a needle.. and after she bought it, she told the doll her wish- that is to be with the guy she likes. And that night, she met up with the guy and told him she likes him.. and it was successful. They were together.. and that night when she returned home, she saw that the heart-shaped cushion on the doll's heart had fallen off.. and what's scary is that before she left her house, the heart-shaped cushion was pinned down by the needle.. and it couldnt possibly fall off on its own..
Does it mean that this voodoo doll thing is actually... real?
Interesting right.. i love such stuffs. haaaz. mysterious. scorpio girls are like this. Mysterious. And this small little voodoo thing costs only between 9-15 bucks.. worth it. I want to buy eh.. but a little scared. haaa.
Fumin, i recommend this to u. haaaa.
Ok.. these are the 5 weird and random facts bout me..
That shall be all for today!
Anw, to dj.. thanks yesterday and today. Got a shock when i received your sms. :)
Now im going to vent it all out.
I really really feel regretful i do not cherish my sec sch friends. I really felt that no one understands me at all. I can only keep my troubles to myself.. the yuling in the day is not the yuling by night.. im completely different. I may seem a strong and cheerful girl in the day.. but by night, ive becomed a reserved and quiet girl who kept all her troubles to herself.. and would rather locked herself up in her room thinking of many stuffs..
I just dropped my tears. obviously very sad. I feel like standing by the sea and shout it all out. But, i doubt this day will come.
When will there be ever someone who has the same character as me, who shares the same thougths with me, who will always be there with me? When can i ever find such a friend like this?!
Afternoon time met up with weejia and dj for a game of badminton at yck court.. but unexpectedly, the court is closed for renovation! Imagine our feelings at that point of time.. so sao xing. But nevertheless we went to yck cc.. and then there's no court.. so we proceeded to kebun bahru cc.. hahaz.. yes finally can settle down for a game. Hsien meng joined us for a game too. So it's a game of 3 guys with a girl that's me. haaa. But it doesnt matter. Weejia seemed to have lost his standard huh.. kept missing the ball. And i think playing with the guys is like a game of strength rather than just a pure game.. they played real rough ok. Esp dj, he smacked the ball so real hard..
Played for 2hrs.. then went home looo. And then read fumin's blog, she blogged she went to bugis street walk walk.. buy clothes.. and im rather disappointed that she did not ask me along, she would rather shop herself then be with me. so sad.
But at least, she's more fortunate than me. She's got her sec sch friends. what about me? i have nothing. Absolutely nth. I think, i must have been the most lonely creature on earth.
Have got a feeling she would always avoid me when i asked her for shopping or what..
Even her replies in msn seemed sian too.
Utterly disappointed. :(
Afternoon time, received a sms by weejia- "hey tmr want to play badminton? i havent ask the others yet.." hahaz. was very very happy that i finally received a sms by someone else cause it's been such a long time since someone smsed me other than min.. aha. so i replied yea im ok.. So we be meeting at yck with dj and weejia for a game in the afternoon, joe may be joining us later.. this time must really sweat it all out and trash them all! wo gen ni men ping le!
Evening time went to the park for some running.. train myself for the 2.4km.. if not go back to school cant run. hahaaz.. luckily still maintain the same timing.. gotta train up more. :)
Realised time's been passing by real fast.. a few more weeks later and we got to return back to school! ohhh, is it good or bad? hah.. and we are going to be seniors! hahhhhhaaaa.. can bully ppl le.. hmmm. but of course, im nt that bad. but was just shocked by how time flies.. i still remembered so clearly when i first stepped in aj.. so scared, so inferior.. cause' everyone around me were from top schs.. but now, im becoming a senior! j2! hahaz..
Becoming older day by day..
Walked past my pri sch just now.. realised it's been soooo long since i ever stepped into that sch.. had really great memories over there. Used to be in the best class.. and i remembered my chinese teacher- yan lao shi.. yes.. same surname as salt.. hahaz.. she's very strict. And every evening in the assembly ground, she would always order us to stand in two very very very straight lines.. and no moving. not even moving the hands, we had to put our hands behind us.. and if we ever moved a little, she would look at us with her eyes, very scary. And the other teachers would always praise our class and asked the other classes to learn from us.. hahaz. But of course, they were being a little bias too.. and our class was always the first to leave the sch. So in conclusion, the best class always gets the best things. lol. =p
ok.. enough of the craps. hah.. that's the end for today!~
Anyway.. we had out SL today at woodlands childcare centre.. where we were supposed to take care of 9 kids and take them out to have fun. Hahaz.. i must say it's enjoyable, really fun and a good experience with the kids too! Initially, me, fumin and joe were kind of scared how we were going to handle the kids.. so scared they would find us boring. But, after knowing them and playing along with them, i find them so cute pure and innocent! Really cute, and at that point of time i really felt like having a child myself. hahaz.. nt those playful and hyper type, but i prefer the gentle type.
Initially when the kids stepped out of the carecentre, me and fumin had already set our eyes on this very very cute guy called jun hao.. his actions and looks very cute, and when the kids were allocated to different groups, me and fumin kept "praying" that he would be in our group, and when he really was being allocated to our group, the two of us shouted out yes! hahaz..
Our group's kids really very hyper.. played ice and water, catching, hide and seek for ice breaking.. too hyper le.. i run until so tired le they still wana play. But they made me think of my childhood memories. Somehow wished i had been them. Wouldnt it be so good?
The youngest kid is just 7 yrs old and he's such a small little boy. hahaz.. the oldest is 12 yrs old and even taller than me! oh my god. Nt bad la.. but i see him mingle around with the smaller kids a little ke lian. I like the sweet girl jia en.. the fuchun pri cute guy jun hao.. the bigger in size shi jie.. and the girl who wasnt very happy initially and a little soft spoken too- xuan yan..
That junhao, whom i loved most.. kept clinging on to joe lor.. made me so jealous, hahaz.. he rather hold hands with joe than me lor.. dunno why he like him so much, like him soooo much until he kept holding his hands. Some other guys like him too. i think they can call joe "papa" le la. and i think he looked rather like their father. hahaaaa! And one kid even got the audacity to say i be mother. what joke!
Kids are nice, cute.. and i changed my opinion on kids since my day with the kids today. Though they are too hard to control and handle.
I feel so old! We are like almost 10 yrs older than them.. by the time they reached 17, we are already 27 le! hahaaz.. young little peeps. will miss them. Luckily some pictures were taken.. :)
Mr loh told us a sad news today.. haiz.. that he would not follow up with us next yr... arhhh.. like him so much yet he's leaving us after he's been with us for only like 4-5 months.. haiz. Next yr pdg tutor will be miss yeo.. dunno whether i should be happy or not.
Weejia suggested having kbox before going to chalet on the 15th? or 16th? hahaaz.. good idea. :)
Gonna be sian again. Blaaah.
hmm, firstly went to far east plaza.. just the level 1 alone is enough to break my legs. So many shops, with nice clothings.. but all not my style and type de.. i think i should learn to put on some make-up and wear some even more revealing clothes and stop "packaging" myself in all those tops that will safely cover my broad shoulders.. i saw how some other people who are physically bigger wore tops that are really revealing, and i always seemed to wonder where they gathered all their courage from.. i mean, dont they feel uncomfortable? dont they feel paiseh? perhaps i think too much, like what my mum always say.. she kept urging me to wear more sleeveless tops and even halters! And i would always answer her this, "it's too revealing.. and my shoulder so broad, wear like this nt nice de..", and she would always say this, "you are not fat, it's just that your bones are bigger and shoulders broader, so you should just be brave enough to wear more revealing stuffs.." After much thought, i thought what she said made sense.. im seventeen.. going on eighteen ten months later.. and i should learn to doll myself up! yes, ive made up my mind. im gonna be a different me! hahaz..
Mum told me to find a boyfriend in university asap.. hahaz.. shen jing.. this kind of thing goes by feeling de. And somemore, those guys in uni are all ang-moh type de.. and i cant communicate well with other ppl in eng! hahaa. fumin, if ever one day you are becoming a nun, give me a call ok. i will go with you. set. :/ Dont even know if i can squeeze my way into uni. haiz..
I always rmb jiahui and me having this conversation on being an old virgin, and that we will nt get married cuz no one wants us.. hahaz.. if she cant find her soul mate, then i can forget it too. so fumin, dont worry. there's still me here. but seriously speaking, im kind of worried about my future.. i havent got the least idea what my future life would be like.. but somehow i've got this feeling that it wont go too smoothly. am i being too paranoid? maybe...
Time's passing by so fast, im getting older.. everything around me is ageing.. i wished there's this pill that can make me stay a baby forever, where i dont have to worry about things around me..
There's too much to worry. And i know i shouldnt worry.
Saw this thing just now.. and this is what it says of me.
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there! You are respected by others. You were however very naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model for everyone.
I think it's true, but not the part where i often got beaten up by parents and involved in fights and suffering lots of injuries ok.. the others are really true i think.
Another day gone. What have i done? Absolutely nothing.
Disappointed in myself. True disappointment.