Y Saturday, February 25, 2006Y
6:14 AM
Finally im on the net now!! So happy.. in my airconned room, listening to soothing music coming from the stereo, and on my laptop blogging.. this is what i called relax. This whole week was super stressed up.. tutorials after tutorials.. and it wasnt easy. Couldnt catch what the teacher was teaching.. and all i had to do was spend time reading through all the tutorials again..such a waste of my precious time.. and it's all because im not really smart enough to understand the concepts in a short time. Ajcians are muggers, not smarties, get it? (Except for a few..)Chem test will be on wednesday.. ms yeo said it will not be easy, yet she expect us to aim for an A.. ironic. I guess i will aim for a B or C at most. The chem test is really driving me crazy.. all those reagents and conditions that i had to memorise.. i hate memorising stuffs. And it took my like the whole afternoon to familiarise myself with it, though im still rather slow, but at least i know which reaction requires which reagents.. and im happy with my achievements. hahaaz..
Know what? I woke up at 8.45am today.. and i started mugging at 9.30pm.. all the way till 10pm.. super? i broke my record really.. studying for like 10 hrs or so. But looking back, i think i didnt really study that much today.. arh.
Still have got loads of work to do.. it's never-ending. :(
Jiahui told me yesterday that she and weiting were afraid that i may hate them..which i thought was really funny.. cause do i really look that fierce? hmm, looks are deceiving. Take me for example, im not really fierce at all, im fun-loving, i can be lame at times.. and most of all, i laugh at the slightest things.. hahaz. I still remembered that there's once this girl in my sec sch who told her friend that she doesnt like me cause' i kept "dao-ing" her, and i was shocked. This girl was not someone to be trifled with, she's got a huge lot of friends.. in short, she has a lot of influence in sch.. so i felt a little uneasy at that point of time. But luckily my friend told her that i just looked fierce that's all. no offence. hahaz..
Had a very sweet dream the day before.. made me think for the whole day.. it was really sweet. hahaz.. :)
Y Monday, February 20, 2006Y
6:08 AM
真的我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰
天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活
闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开
我在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走
Got rather pissed with someone today.. and it's not really the first time this person has pissed me off.. it's just that i feel this person is such an insensitive person.. or should i say spoilt brat? Cant stand this person anymore.. really felt like telling into this person's face that he/she is so insensitive and oblivious to the people around him/her. I know of another person who isnt happy with him/her either.. shall not mention names here.
Many unhappy things happened recently.. but i can do nothing.. i cant control. All i can do is to feel unhappy about it. I think some ppl in my class are really selfish.. and straight. I hate people who are direct. and selfish.
Anyways back to today..Total Defence Day. Nothing to eat for the whole day.. except for some congee.. which is like totally tasteless.. had to add salt ourselves.. and some sweet potatoes.. so hungry for the whole day.. had pe somemore.. and i thought it was fun to have pe with the class.. hahaz. kind of enjoyed it though the sun was so scorching hot.
Shall end my post here.. think it will be another few days later before i update my blog again.. haaz.. :)
Y Wednesday, February 15, 2006Y
6:18 AM
It's been like more than one week since i ever updated my blog. Hmm, yesterday was Valentine's Day, and i must say i kind of enjoy it alot.. friends giving each other presents and cards, though it's just some sweets, but nevertheless it was sweet of them to do such things.. unlike some "heartless" people.. hahaz. Received lots of presents and cards..roses from sixuan and jiahui, and balloon from ms yeo.. cute. :) Initially, i had thought the present im giving out would be the worse of all.. but it wasnt. hahaaz.. all thanks to my mum who wrapped the presents nicely up for me..~After school went with fumin to watch i not stupid II.. very nice and touching show. Highly recommended! Took neoprints with her too.. and because of a moment of addiction, we took 3 times.. 15 bucks. hahaz.. and now im broke.
Had tennis training after school today.. very very bad. so sad. and tired.. imagine the mixture of sad and tired, not a good feeling really. Went home alone, cause sixuan and company all just too slow.. got quite a little surprise when i went into my room, saw a cd on my table.. with a note on it.. apparently it was my bro's valentine's day gift to me.. haha. :)
Really wanted to own my own mp3.. now im on my way to saving 1000 bucks.. hah!
Very stressed up this week.. just too much work to do.. teachers just push everything to us.. and expect us to do it well, and the deadline is too short. Kept on worrying about work.. kept on doing, and teachers kept on giving.. now i still have got to redo my AQ, study chem test and so on and so forth.
Got a shock of my life when i got back gp test few days ago.. i actually passed. And daljit actually said i certainly do well.. best encouragement ever.. that means i will be spared from the remedial lessons.. hahaz. And that means i do not have to go home late on thurs.. yeea.
Shall end here now.. i have too many worries over my sch work now.. it's really driving me to the edge.
Y Saturday, February 04, 2006Y
6:48 AM
Dont know why.. love this lyrics alot.. i know i blogged this lyrics before..but still want to blog. hahahz.. :)无论等待多久, 都无法再靠近你
像傻瓜般哭泣的你的身边
只能带给你伤痛的我
为何还要傻傻等待
痛恨我自己
想哭你跪着求我
能忘掉所有的一切
在记忆中曾经那么疯狂爱过你
当试着用记忆寻找
再也不想用爱来绑住你
明知道不能这样
就像生不如死的折磨
痛恨我自己
为了你好, 我只有选择离开
在记忆里曾经那么疯狂爱过你
当试着用记忆寻找
再也不想用爱来绑住你
明知道不能这样
就像生不如死的折磨
直到身处天堂才有办法遗忘...
Chat with fumin on the net just now.. settled upon something, that is to be demure from now on. hahaz.. i know it may sound crazy, but that's my latest target, im heading towards the route of being a demure girl. hahaz.. so no more big actions for me, no more crapping, no more talking loudly.. yes. demure. hahaz..
Y Friday, February 03, 2006Y
6:35 AM
Had cross country today.. didnt even realise that this shall be our last cross country until fumin wrote in her blog that this shall be the last cross country in our life.. and i remembered i have never been serious about it before.. only once in sec sch..dont know why so enthusiastic.. go run.. in the end dunno like 20 plus position. hahahaz.. ya.. so basically this year just walked. walked all the way.. did not even attempt to run.. me fumin and jiahui's clique were like last.. walking.. chatting with min.. laughing at ppl.. crapping.. then.. finally when we reached the end point.. we had expected to be in the 600th plus position.. but we got 763 position!! haaaz.. so funny.. jiahui got second last.. 771.. hhaz..Waste lots of money today.. took cab in the afternoon to macritchie.. then cab again to tuition place since we are like so late.. and sth very funny happened in the afternoon.. ya abt that fumin sms this guy in our class thing.. hahaz.. but i really do feel that you are fond of him eh, fumin. i use the word fond k.. not like. two different things k..
Very "happy".. cause sixuan suddenly told us she has decided to go NTU to study the tourism and integrated resort course.. and it's her latest target.. and i was "happy" because there is going to be one person less to fight for a place in NUS! hahaz.. crazy le.. And suddenly.. i found a new target in my life.. i think i want to be a financial consultant in future.. not those financial consultant as in savings type, but those business dealings type.. i like to command ppl.. i dont like ppl to teach me how to do certain things.. so i think this job not bad.. can consider.. :)
Had this trouble in my heart that i really feel like saying it out.. feel like sharing it with someone i can really trust.. but i just cant bring myself to say it out.. and the feeling of it being kept inside is so terrible.. haiz.
Me and jiahui were saying that we would never find any bfs or husband in the future cuz no one wants us.. but i think she will have.. yet she thinks i will have.. so we both were like talking bout our future.. then decided that if by 40yrs old we are still single.. then we shall live under one roof together.. any one wants to join us?? hahaz.. crazy thought ya..
Valentine's day coming.. sad right. Shall celebrate alone this year le.. not like last year.. haiz.. this year i think no presents also.. not like last yr.. at least sandy, shumin and junhan bothers to buy v'day's pressie for me.. hahaz.. sad ar sad.
Shall end here.. since there's nth to blog anymore.. hahaz.. =P