Y Friday, March 31, 2006Y
5:36 AM
Alright okay. Hahaz.. Had I&E day today, and i must say it's rather successful. The whole day is just full of fun, no lectures and no tutorials about boring stuffs, so basically for the whole day we just walked and slacked around, playing games related to sci, maths and humanities which were supposed to make us feel more interested in it. The first half of the day was rather boring though, but after that it was enjoyable. And to think of it, i actually became the queen when it comes to the netball shooting game. Hahaz.. all challengers failed in their attempt to challenge me. :)Then, mr alan smsed us, and told us that our tuition today will be cancelled. Do not know whether i should feel happy or otherwise, because this means that we have to do makeup tomorrow, which is on a saturday! Aww hate having tuitions on weekends.
After which, me fumin weijing krys dj and weejia rushed off to amk kbox. Sang our lungs out till 6 plus. And not to forget, we actually refill the tidbits for like so many times until the waiter said we were too fast in refilling our tidbits. hahahaaz.
Wednesday having napha. 2.4km. Gonna do my best. Bless me lord. Mum's having her bdae on wed too! Yippee!~ :)
Y Thursday, March 23, 2006Y
6:29 AM
Happy mood this whole week! :)I finally bought my ipod a few days ago, after months and months of consideration. Hahaz.. but somehow i feel a pinch inside me. Costs me like a few hundered bucks and it took me so long to save up the money, and now it's like gone in just one day. Aww..
Then we took back our chemistry common test paper on tuesday, and the results came as a shock to me. I was expecting to flunk in this paper because i absolutely had no confidence in it. But i did very well instead, and ms yeo actually congratulated me in class today :P Boosts my confidence even more. Shall work harder from now on!
Had tennis training yesterday. Met the j1s for the first time.. so many of them. And their skills are amazing. Imagine someone who is a first-timer in tennis, and yet is able to play even better then those who are not first timers, like us- the j2s. Found ourselves quite a shame. Hahaz. Yupps anyway, we were allowed to play the "king of the court game" yesterday, so the coach actually paired us up with the guys, and i got to pair up with this j1 chung cheung high guy whose seems to me a little ang moh.. and he is handsome. That's why i dont even dare to ask for his name. And he's pro. Hahaz.. sporty. wooo.
Climax is today. Very Very HapPy today.. best mood ever. Know what, there is this j1 guy whom ive known during the first 3 mths in tennis who looks really like the taiwanese actor cum singer zhang shan wei.. and i thought he looks really like the type of nice gentleman type, and he looks cute and sunny when he smile. So im rather obsessed with him. Though we were in tennis, but we do not talk at all, because girls and guys training are separated. So i always thought that he does not know me. But during break today, when i was going to return my plate, he walked past me. And because i thought he do not know me, i just looked up at him, then intending to tell fumin that he just walked past us. BUT, he actually said hello to me!! And being in a state of shock, i replied back the same thing with a kind of shocked expression on my face. HAHAHAZ.. so so so happy. He looked so cute and sunny in his red specs! Awwww.. so throughout the day, i just cant stop thinking about the situation just now, his face all that. I think im crazy.. hahahaaaz. Now i have finally found a motivation for me to attend school! HAHAHAAA. :) :) :)
Y Saturday, March 18, 2006Y
8:22 AM
The more i think of it, the more i feel so unhappy.. Sometimes i dont quite like my tuition teacher.. he does things which i hate most- that is to compare ppl, and condemn ppl. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Arrrrrh. The thought of it just makes me boil. You know what he said during phy tuition on fri.. Just because i was unable to do one qn, and he told me this, "You should try harder next time.. You know if you just wait for the answer you are copying, you are not learning. We value quality, not the speed. You know you are just copying, not learning..." And then feeling a little unhappy, i told him that it's nt because i did nt try, but because i misunderstood the terms.. and fortunately he did not say anything, if not i shall show him my black face. I was pissed, not because of what he said, but because i feel that he has been very bias, it's like at least i do bother to do my work lor.. unlike jiahui. (Jiahui, i do not mean to say you.. as in i want to say out my point..) But he did nt say jiahui, but say me instead. What is this. I dont like it. That's once. Another evidence that he was bias was that whenever i was unable to solve a problem, he would say that jiahui would definitely solve it, despite her not being to solve it either. And when she was unable to solve another qn, he did not say that i can definitely solve it.. bias or what? To me, i strongly felt so.. It really made me very angry and unhappy at that time.. because he wasn't like this last year.. it's all because of the phy promo results. Just because jiahui did better, he condemn me, and gave the conclusion that im the weaker one. And he kept using the promo results to compare us. COMPARE. I hate ppl comparing me with others. It's all rubbish. I do not feel that im the weaker one. It's just that whenever im in the examination hall, i tend to lose concentration easily. I put in so much effort for every exam, but what do i get in return? I strongly believe that i put in more effort than her, but in the end, it did not turn out to be the way i had expected. What is wrong? Till now, i still cant figure it out.
Everytime i go for tuition, the teacher and my partner made me feel so inferior. And i dont like it. I dont like the feeling of being looked down upon. I dont like the feeling of being the weaker one. Because i know in my heart IM NOT. I CAN DO AS WELL.
Because of this, i learnt to be strong. I promised myself that i shall not let ppl look down on me. I will do well. I will do as well. There is this target in me which i have set. And i will do it.
Y Thursday, March 16, 2006Y
7:41 AM
Mr Dj requested that i update my blog, cause he doesnt like the previous entry. Haha, anyway, March holidays now, but it's been so fast, it's going to be over soon.. and then i have to get myself back in school for all those lectures and tutorials which i dread most. And as usual there's always tons of work for us to do during the holidays. I shall list them out one by one- GP acjc compre, chemical periodicity tutorial, electrochemistry tutorial, chemistry NMR practice worksheet, special continuous r.v tutorial, data analysis notes, physics of fluids notes, alternating current tutorial, chinese lian bi, chinese guan yong yu test.. You see, holidays are just not holidays, they are hell-days..Went yanxi's house for the gp essay discussion yesterday.. and it's the first time i got so scared of taking bus. Imagine leaving my house at 8 in the morning, and reaching there only at 10.30, when im supposed to meet them at 9! And they actually told me the wrong stop, which means i actually went to somewhere else, and then going back to kovan interchange twice.. sooooo angry at that time. Then finally i reached the condo, only after hailing a taxi. But at least it doesnt makes me go round and round. Saw for the first time her dog, named angel. It's soooo cute. And the first time i actually touched a dog. Cute until i've gt nth to say.. Fumin, angel is cuter than u leh.. hahahaz.. And we just couldnt stop playing with angel the moment we saw her.. And i must say, our gp thing is nt really well done. hahaz.. but who cares, cause we have to redo it in the end. :)
The AQ for gp is so difficult. And practically no one knows how to do it. Think i really have to crap my way through!
Y Wednesday, March 08, 2006Y
5:50 AM
Read weejia's blog just now, and i kind of totally agree with what he said. That is, even if the class tee and price thing is
settled, some of em will still complain that it is too expensive,
too ugly or what so ever. There's always bound to be some ppl
like this, i dont understand why. I think our class is the most
pathetic of the whole aj cohort. I dont care what others think,
but i just feel it this way. There isnt any class gathering AT ALL.
Not bonded AT ALL. And most of the time the minority groups
dont get to voice out their opinions, and even if we do, it's of no
use at all. Cause we are minority.
Yes and as stated in para 1 line ** by weejia, that "I've nothing
for this class except for lumps of negativity." Here, i totally
agree with his viewpoint. Hahaaz..
Have been rather unhappy with some things recently. That
explains my bad attitude these few days. The kbox thing, and
many other things. It's the second time le ok. If there's gg to be
a third time, im gg to flare up really. I wish to clear something
here right now, cause i cant stand ppl accusing me. Weiting, i
dont think you mind right.. ok. I just want to say here that it's
not me who pull weiting's skirt up first when we were at kbox k.
So when this person told me not to bully her, i was very very
angry. Mood sank to the lowest. Dont always think that im the
bad person ok. IM NOT. THATS BECAUSE YOU PPL DO NOT
UNDERSTAND ME WELL ENOUGH.
Y Saturday, March 04, 2006Y
9:21 AM
im so unhappy right now. Due to some unhappy incident just now, my mood just slide down to the lowest.. and it leads me to thinking why are some ppl's attitude towards different people so
different? Why is it that ppl are so unfair towards me? Why is it that im always the bad one, and
others are always the good ones? Why is it that ppl treat her better than me? It's forever my
fault. Just because they thought i looked like an ahlian doesnt mean im one! Dont condemn me.
Im not what u ppl think i am. I dont like this kind of feeling.. because im a sensitive and
emotional person. Call me petty, but i just cant accept it. I try to, but i realise i cant.. As days
goes by, and you ppl thought i dont mind, but deep down inside, it's so hurting. No one knows.
No one sense the unhappiness in me. Im a human, a girl, with feelings. Sometimes what you ppl
say of me made me think if im really that ahlian. I seriously dont think so, no matter how many
good things i have done, no matter how much effort i put in, you ppl just keep saying that im
lian.
Stop all those nonsense. After that incident, i broke down. Im nt sure if it's because of too much
stress or over the incident, but im sure that im very very unhappy. :'(
Y Wednesday, March 01, 2006Y
1:27 AM
It's quite a meaningful day today, so i shall squeeze out time out of my busy schedule now to update my blog.. A level results release today! Though it isnt my concern, but somehow there's just this excited feeling in me.. hahaz. huangmu took her Ao chi results today.. A1, expected. haha.. huangmu, see, u can do it.. happy hor? hah.
Ms Daljit isnt very happy with the A level gp results today.. I can still rmb what she told our class.. this is how it goes, "You want to know how did your seniors do for their GP? I tell you, 96% pass, compared to 98% last year. The results are not good, 34 failed wheareas only 10 failed last year.. GP is the subject that if going to make a distinction, not your other content subjects. You got to do well in your GP! Anderson jc is going down you know, and your batch is going to go down as well, the other jcs are coming up.. everybody in singapore is working hard, so you should too.." And she goes on and on.. obviously not in the best of mood because of the not-so-good gp results.. and i could see selina and weejia's worried expression.
Kind of agree with what ms daljit said.. yes everyone in singapore is working hard.. true. And we should, work hard too. But the prob is, does working hard really gives you your desired grades?
Chem was the complete opposite of GP.. seniors did well.. 44% A and 79% As and Bs.. quite happy when we heard this.. now i tell meself, i want to be one of the 44% next yr! hahahaaaz..
The whole of this and next week will be very very busy.. there's this redo-ing of the SAJC aq qn.. studying for chi yan yu test.. gp test and chi test next mon.. go compo( which is so difficult to write) next wed.. one word to describe- dead.
:(