Heaven

2007-04-14T08:31:00.000-07:00

Dj wanted me to update my blog to entertain him. See him ke lian, so update ba. Haha.

This whole week's been too sick to update my blog. First i had a running fever, then when i thought everything would be fine, my throat started to hurt. Sore. Very very sore. Then i started coughing non-stop. Lungs would have burst. And the worst thing is i couldnt even swallow anything, not even drinking a small mouthful of water. The pain is just so torturous. Till now, i still have not recovered. Must be that dj's fault. Passed all the virus to me during the kbox session. The virus must have been so strong to hit me, because i don't usually fall sick.

Despite being sick, i still managed to make out some time to have dinner with fumin yesterday. Lolz. Ya the same old "dinner" at cwp. Told her a lot a lot of things lo. And fumin you better keep it a secret. Meant for you only. Woman. And, Dont Do IT!

Haha. Anyway, my contract will be ending on the 4th of june, which is like less than 2 months away. Bu zhi bu jue yi jing na me jiu le. A little bu she de, cause' the people there are really nice.

That fumin blogged sth about school stuffs. Made me reminisce about the old stuffs. Many many. Like those physics tutorials, mr ng's "anyhow" and his unique way of asking us to present our answers to the class, AND not forgetting his favourite triangles whenever we did not do our tutorials or forgot to bring. Then came daljit's gp tutorials- which is by far the scariest i had attended so far. She will always ask us to check the dictionary, "dont assume!", "do an error list!", "read your newspapers!", "you got to practise, practise, practise!!" And i still remember the first gp tutorial we had, she walked into the classroom and then started asking us about some political questions. Then only hsienmeng, sx and peirong could answer her question. The rest of us were like in such a blur state. Next, chemistry tutorials.. nothing much. Haha. Just that ms yeo always does not know how to answer our questions, and she tends to contradict herself too often. Maths. Mdm ng will always asked us to present our answers on the board so she could point out our mistakes. And she commented that our class had the worst presentation skills. Lolz. I think we just wrote what we thought. Maths this kind of thing is like this de ma. Hahaa. Ok, Chinese tutorials. Another scary one also. Salt's very high pitched voice, and she loves to shout into the microphone. And she never fails to ask us questions one by one. Then my clique will whisper to each other for the answer, cause' we were not sure either. And her way of calling my name, weejia's and fumin.

Lectures were fun too. Because i think we slept most of the time, esp during maths lectures. I still remember weijing and seok hwee sleeping through the entire 4 lectures of complex numbers. Very diao. Then fumin will always provide me with sweets, and pinching each other so as not to fall asleep. Then in the front row there's dj's very diao sleeping posture, whole body will always slant one way. Weejia forever drawing on our lecture notes, and hsienmeng's zhao pai sitting posture. One more thing is, whenever we were having lectures halfway or after lectures, i will ask fumin, "eh, you know what the lecturer is talking bout' not?" Then she will shake her head. Lolz.

Best is PE lessons. The william chua really very funny. All i can remember about pe is all those runnings and laughings and having fun under the sun. And the jennifer toh. And of course chung ying's very unique way of panting during toh's lesson for first 3 mths. HAHA.

Miss school alot. It would be wonderful to study without exams. =p

2007-04-07T07:58:00.000-07:00

Just came back from kboxing session with clique, which includes the usual me, fumin, weejia, duojie, weijing and krystal. Had a fun day today basically, sang all our lungs out. But most importantly got to see weejia and duojie for the first time ever since they went army. Did not change very much, and of course not to mention that weejia is getting more handsome. Haha. Plus the nike cap he's wearing, and that typical jay-chou's voice, no doubt that he's getting more stylo. Duojie's still the same old him, just that he's seriously ill, judging from the fact that he couldnt even speak properly, much less sing. So basically, he's just paying money to hear us sing today, and of course, there's something even more important than just hearing us sing, to him. Haha.

Sang lots of act-cute S.H.E songs with weijing and krys. Weijing can really sing those angela zhang and S.H.E songs well. High-pitched until even i also cannot reach. But that weijing sure has her own ways. Since my duet partner's not feeling well today, so had weejia as my male partner today, gan jue huan ran yi xing. But the most unforgettable song that i sang with him was wu niang - that's MY SONG. And not to forget my dance too. Funny until everybody just roll on the floor and laugh. Weijing even told me that she knows i can really dance the wuniang's dancing steps. =P

After that, received a phone call from weiting. She asked me something which really shocked me. She actually asked me to go clubbing, at zouk! Hahaa. Not that i do not want to go, well, no guts you see. Plus, i do not have any proper wear to go to that kind of places. Lolz. Anyway, weijing told me that i have that "clubbing face". Duh.

Ok, enough of that. But i dont know why, somehow the people around me are so chi qing. Really admire them for that. Patience is all one needs.

2007-04-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

Actually have nothing to blog about. Just blogging for fun.

That smu is really driving me crazy. Im not sure if it's the Singapore post's fault or the school's low efficiency, but it's been a week since and the profiles are still not being updated. Pissed me off so i just made a trip down there personally to hand in the supporting documents and cash. Which means to say that i actually paid twice. I dont think the school's so nice as to mail me back the cheque i had sent earlier on.

Anyway, i think the school really produced students that are real confident and outspoken. I lost my way there so i just grabbed one student and asked her the way to the adminstrative building. Then i went on to ask her "will it be very far?" Then she gave me an answer which amazed me - about 150 metres away. I mean, most of us will surely say "not quite", "quite near", or simply a "no". But this student actually gave me an exact statistic.

Oh ya, almost everyday in the morning when i was waiting for the bus to my workplace at orchard, i will always saw this guy. Quite good-looking, looks like he's in his early twenties, and very stylish. Im not sure if he's a malay or a chinese, cause' his skin colour is somewhere in between. And the best thing is he took the same bus as me. Lolz. But he's always sitting in the upper deck, and since my workplace is just a few stops away, so prefer the lower deck instead. Avoid the hassle of having to climb up and down. Wah, not bad. Got potential. =p

Ok. This sat maybe chiong-ing kbox with clique. Hope so la. :)

2007-03-31T08:11:00.000-07:00

I know many told me my blog is dying, so im right here blogging now ok!!

First. Work. It's driving me crazy really. Got stuck to that pathetic little desk of mine, with 2 coms, and of which both are useless to me at all except for some lame data entry thingy(duh, no internet you see..). I think it's really a waste of my youth and my time. It's so so so terrible having to sit there doing nothing. Then when there's finally something for me to do, i got "accused" a little, once, by my manager. Pls, the documents is like just in front of her desk and she couldnt see it. Talk to me in such a loud manner. Feel like shouting back at that moment. Pissed.

Ah, cast that aside. Went shopping with fumin at bugis. Realised her dress sense has changed so much from what she used to be one yr ago. Weejia and I can already memorise what she usually wore last time - black shirt, blue shorts and pink slippers. Lolz. Typical. But now, she's wearing jeans! and even denim skirt and jacket! Woohoo. Sexy lehh. Told her, the last step is the make-up part, but she's against it. Fm, you will get influenced by me de. Trust me. Hahaaaa.

Went dental to do bleaching of teeth. Costs me $200 each for upper and lower set. Got to wear the tray for 2 weeks. Hahaa. Excited.

Anyway, miss kboxing with usual clique alot. Hope they will be able to make it next week, so we can sing our lungs out, and also to make use to this chance to take a good look at the weejia and dj. They survived first 2 wks in army.. Heard it was not really a pleasant experience. I can say nothing also, just take care ba.

Some things i cant say it out, because i dont even know how i should say it or who i should say it to. But after reading fm's blog, i can really understand and i totally agree with what she says. Human's thoughts are really that hard to understand. One moment you thought you understand, but the next moment you start to think otherwise. Are there really two sides to a person? It's terrible. You never know what the person next to you is thinking about.
Anway, im confused myself too.

hahaha

2007-03-30T11:52:00.001-07:00

oh well, this is Huangmu here LOL. got ordered by my nu ren to help her blog crap here cos she's lazy to blog but at the same time says that she's scared that her blog is rotting. what a contradicting statement she has given!
anyway this nu ren of mine damn li hai in acting blur. cos today went bugis with her, after that we were waiting for bus when going home. cos my bus came first, just when we were saying bye to each other, SHE HELD MY BEAUTIFUL WRISTS! hahaaha! and when i smsed her and told her about it she denied! eeeeeeeeeee yerr! lols. but yl ahh, U REALLY GOT HOLD MY WRISTS!
lols sounds like i'm giving her a testimonial here. anyway this nu ren of mine is getting super funnier nowadays. maybe cos of her tone and expression when she says those craps lahh. hahaha.
ok la blog till here. just want to let you guys know that her blog is still surviving and havent rot! haha and she's doing super fine la! good food, good sleep, good lodging. of cos mahh, with me around! =xxxxxxxxx
~CHEERIOS~

2007-02-25T01:00:00.000-08:00

Ppl im back! Hahaaa.

Basically i spent my new year overseas in bangkok, and it's really a fun trip. But the scariest thing was boarding the flight. I sat next by the window and the weather wasnt very fine that day. The captain was telling the passengers that the weather wasnt well and there could be some slight bumps. True enough, when we were about 12 thousand feet high, plane started shaking a little. Then everybody got to go back to their seats. I scared dao kept staring at the mini tv in front of me. But still, everything went smoothly la. Started to feel that being a pilot is so weida. Pilot also not bad, got to earn loads of money.

New bangkok airport not as nice as i thought it would be. Lolz. But the ppl there are really friendly la i must say. Hotel also very very very scary. We stayed at the end of the executive floor, and the whole floor was so dim, just like those you would see in a ghost movie. But the best is the hotel is near chinatown.

Went a lot of places. Esp night markets. Bargain until siao. From four thousand baht can bargain until one thousand baht. Then the weather also hot until can get baked. Especially for ppl like me who's afraid of hotness, this kind of weather really made me shou bu liao. Luckily i have a fan with me all the time. HAHA.

Last day really very bu she de. The tour guide for half day also very nice. But still got to go back to sg.

Ok la. Nothing liaoz.

2007-02-16T21:46:00.000-08:00

Had a kbox session with fm, weejia and duojie yesterday. Seriously i must admit that this is the best kbox session ever. Though it's really expensive, but i think it's all worth it, considering the fact that we do get to sing many many songs (esp fm- all her fei lun hai songs and no one knows how to sing, lolz). And even if we go offtune it's ok, since the four of us are used to it.

Anyway that dj was not himself yesterday. Normally he would just sit in a corner and when it's his turn to song, he would sing it alone. But yesterday was different. He was damn high, even stood on the sofa(don't know call wad la), and sang his lungs out. Then the next moment he would lie down and give a very sexy pose. HAHA. Then fumin called him "xin gan xiao ye mao"- sexy cat. Voice also can vary from husky to manly to sexy. LOLZ.

Fumin and weejia also very hot sia. Drank house tequila and house whisky. Luckily didnt get drunk, if not we die. Anyway the vodka does not taste nice at all..

Oh ya, should try BLOODY MARY the next time. Fumin, rmb. BLOODY MARY joke.

Going bangkok in a few hrs time. Hope everything will be ok, no bombs all that. I just want to make it back to singapore in one piece. But in case, i say in case, ppl, if anything really happened, burn me my alevel cert. That will be all. :)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

2007-01-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

Just came back from dinner with clique, plus jiahui and selina. Really had fun with them, but too bad tingwei, kailuen and dj couldnt join us at the very last minute. If not we could be even noiser, haha.

Anyway the food was nice, and i kind of like the soup, although some dont quite agree with me. Throughout we had some laming and crapping, and it's like so happy because we dont always gather around like this. But one thing that's sad is that it's raining. If not we could have sat outside where we could see the night scenery better..

Went bugis street for some shopping with fumin b4 that, and eventually i bought 2 tops. Lolz. Because i couldnt decide on which to buy, so best is buy all. Then fumin also damn rich today, bought like mp3, blah blah blah.

Jiahui said she dyed and cut her hair, but wo zuo kan you kan still cant see any difference. Hahaz. And sel, i know you like my hair colour alot, Haha, next time i use my hair do a wig for you. Free one. Good idea right. Hahaaaaa.

Have been having 5 yoga lessons since. Last week's and this week's lesson very very very ji lie. Whole body ache until bth, and the bones looks like it's gg to break. Today even more ji lie. We were supposed to do this position that involves bending down with the legs straight and your hands are supposed to touch your toes. And i could only reach my ankles, haha. Then the teacher actually push me down!! Omg, luckily i didnt scream out. But one thing good is i finally can touch the floor le. Lolz.

Next, there's this postion that's also very tiring. Something like a push-up position. We were supposed to be in that push up position with our arms bent, and my arms were trembling. Haha. Somehow as i was doing it, it reminds me of my netball training times. I still rmb the most tiring drill is this push up position thing. We were supposed to do push-ups in the carpark, where the ground is this rough-edged stone thing. Imagine your entire weight is on ur hands, and your hands is on such rough patch, and you are to do your push up not with your hands, but your fingers only. I hated it alot at that time. Then every afternoon after school have to go to the court and shoot 200 balls. But the shooting part was fun. :)

Miss school.

2007-01-16T04:40:00.000-08:00

To think i actually slept at 2am yesterday, but still cannot hit my man's record - 2.30pm. Woke up in the morning feeling very sleepy, feel like taking leave. Duh, in the end i still managed to crawl out of my bed. Felt so tired for the entire day, and i even had to drink 2 cups of coffee just to perk me up. Shouldnt have stayed up late yesterday night.

Nth much to blog about actually, just blog for the sake of blogging. Anyway i heard a very funny joke today, cant stop laughing after that.. My colleagues and i were on our way to the hawker for our lunch, and this lady was saying that she hate pants that has zips at the side, and that she prefer those that had the zips at the centre instead. And then the others started to argue which one is better - whether those at the sides or those at the centre is better, blah blah all sorts of stuff la.. After that another colleague said that there was once when her friend went to the washroom, and then suddenly her friend gave a loud cry. My colleague asked her friend what happened, and her friend said this, "wah, zip dao wo me mao ar!" (accidentally zip my hair). LOLZ. A little not suitable for kids. Hahaz.

Heard from sixuan this sat evening going to have clique outing again. Going to this place near esplanade? Makan sutra? hahaaa, eat liao will start to nian jing.

Anyway, it just isnt worth it. Came to a conclusion, realised what's past is past. Lolz. :))

2007-01-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

Had a really fun and fruitful day today. Just came back from the clique gathering, which was very fun and it really brightens up my day. :)

Duo jie's eyesight is getting poorer, simply because he couldnt see me when i was like just standing less than 2m in front of him. duh.

Had kbox session with clique, and we were shocked when we saw sixuan. Lolz. Her attire was really shocking, and i thought some jap girl came into the wrong room. Hahaz. But i thought the top was quite nice la, just tt maybe it doesnt tally with the skirt well ba. Too bad weejia only came to join us quite late, couldnt really sing many duets with him. But still i enjoyed the kbox session la, esp our very jin dian "shan hu hai" and "wu xian". Shout our lungs off. Hahaz.

After which went to S11 for our dinner. Had zhu cao, quite nice.. but i wasnt feeling very well after the dinner. Kept complaining my stomach very pain. Then when i was on my way home in the mrt, i started to feel very very uncomfortable. Rushed my way back home, had a cold bath, and realised i had some rashes, and ears got very red. Luckily after some time, the rashes disappeared. It's all sensitive skin's fault!

Next fri having another gathering again. Lolz. Looking forward to it!! Miss weejia and fumin most la. Weejia really became more shuai le, fashion also getting better. Haha. Weejia!! Handsome arr! I wan pak tor with u!! Hahahahahaz.

2007-01-12T05:32:00.000-08:00

2007-01-04T05:35:00.000-08:00

Pissed. Burning now.

Chew weejia asked me to update my blog, and it seems like im the laggest blogger in my clique. Or second to dj? Lolz.

Read weejia's blog some days ago.. and i agree to what he said- zhuan qian zhen de hen nan.. although my work is very easy and lax, but i can understand the pain of having to work. And it pains me to spend every little cent that i earned. Qian nan zhuan ar.....

When i was small, i used to admire the adults that they can work and not have to suffer the fate of studying. But after i started working, i began to miss school.. the uniforms, the national and school songs.. the lectures.. pe times.. practically everything in sch. It's ironical that when i was a student, i used to dislike going to school because i felt studying was boring.. but now, i miss going back. Believe it or not, i think being an ajcian brings me bak lots of memories. I have never had it like this before.

It's really a torture going to work everyday, because im basically just paid to slack. I really really really do wish i had more work to do, so that time could pass by faster, but no. no. no. I was so booorrreeeddd till i had the time to draw, do stupid mathematics calculations, calculate my monthly pay.. then total transport fares.. and then going to the pantry to make myself some coffee.. then laze around.. and hoping that 5.30 could come by faster. That's my working life. Ppl think im very very fortunate, but that's nt the case la.

I have been eating cup noodles these few days, for wad? SAVE Money lo.. like i said, qian nan zhuan arrrr. Neng shen zhe shen. Now "officially" adult le, transport fares all so ex.

Boredd arr. Esp fri nights.. ppl chill out after work, but i went straight home. Duhhh. If only ah toh works regular hours like mine then i can chill out with her on fri nights le. Fumin dun like chilling out, weejia working till 10, sixuan lehh.. not sure also. The others gen bu yong shuo. I tink the only person that's very free is dj liaox. Hahahaaaa.

2006-12-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

The first post ever since i started work. Hahahaaa. I have since begun work for 2 weeks, and my take on working life is different from others. Fumin and jiahui told me that they were darn busy with their stuffs when at work, but i beg to differ. Basically i think my job is to slack the whole day.. hahahaaa. I got paid to slack, because there's really nothing, or rather little for me to do. My daily routine is just stack papers, file things, strike off papers, shred papers, put necessary docs into envelopes. Ya, that's about it.. i think most of the time im just dreaming, and thinking about my own stuffs. Lolz. And i even spent like 1 hr at my desk reading my book, and no one bothers me at all. Should i consider myself lucky or what? I guess people working in such a big company are just too busy to bother about my existence.. Hahaaa. But i would wish to have more work to do, even to the extent of tiring me out, rather than sitting there with nothing on the desk and then worrying about being scolded by the manager..hah! And there are not really many guys over there eh.. so sad. Hahaa. Either they are married or sth else, think only one or two not bad.

So far, i must say im lucky enough to work in olympus. It really marks a good start for my working life. The people there are really nice, and there wasnt any politics or nasty stuffs going on. But somehow i feel that there is this one or two of them from the other department who looked fierce (or was it my imagination?), and i thought they diao me. Felt a little uneasy, but i think i will get used to it.. maybe i looked too dao. Hahahahaaa.

Anyway, i know my colleagues are nice people but i just cant seem to hold a conversation well with them.. arrr, i think im too used to crapping with fumin and weejia le laaa. I think if i crap with my colleagues they will think im mad, then send me to feng ren ta. HAHAHA. So im acting demure. (weejia and fumin i know you guys are gg to puke) .

Im scared of my manager. hahahaa. (ya.. and fumin and weejia are gonna say this, "huh?! you scared of ppl arrrr! i thought u nt scared of anybody one??!!!) -_-"

Btw, i heard this really funny thing today at work and i kept laughing to myself for almost half of the day, think ppl are really gg to say im mad. This lady is having a teleconversation with someone else, and this lady said, "eeeh u tell me what u want for christmas present leh, $15 dollars one.. then i buy for u la!" Then the person on the other line said, "aiya! chin chye la! (meaning 'anything' in chinese) . Then this lady gave this really hilarious answer, "huh chin chye ar? ok lor, then i buy $15 of vegetables for u."

Lalalalaaaa. I have always thought working instead of studying would be so great. But i was wrong. Now i really want to go back to study. I miss studying, miss mugging, miss listening to canon in d to relieve my stress.. life nowadays is like so dead. No friends to go out with after work, no friends to hang out on friday nights. Haiz. Either they are not interested in hanging out or their working time clashes with mine. hai hai hai. i miss kboxiiiinnnngggg.. pool.. I wan to go KBOX! Ppl, if free ask me out leiii. Hahahaaa.

K la, shall end here. :)

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PROM PICS! hahahas.. lots of mei nus here. Lolz.

2006-11-30T19:09:00.000-08:00

Had this very weird dream yesterday.. and now the scene is still very clear inside my mind.

Anyway, fumin must really thank me. She made me walked the whole far east for N times, and i had to help her ask this and that. And we saw liane and her friends too, LOLZ.

Went for an interview yesterday at river valley road, turned out to be quite a successful one. The assistant manager carole was very very nice and friendly. And that same day 40 mins later, the agancy called to inform me i was being offered the job. So went back to the agency to sign the contract. Anyway the agency wanted to offer me $5.50/hr, and i was damn pissed la. I am an Alevel holder leh, 5.50 is not even the rate for an Olevel holder lo. People Olevel already earning 6 or 6.50 liao, and now they want to offer me 5.50, siao. So i just told them i will only take up the job if it's $6. Ya so in the end settle for 6 lor. But i was still feel tt 6 is still too little for me, felt a little wei qu for me, and i felt so stupid not initiating 6.50 instead. arrr, but nvm la.. considering the fact that my job is actually quite easy, and had to work only from monday to fridays. Hahaaa.

Now, no more kboxing with friends le. arrr.

Believe it or not, i am still traumatised by Alevels. I still kept thinking of it now and then.

2006-11-23T19:34:00.000-08:00

Actually i don't really want to blog, but since weejia requested then i shall do so. Nth to talk about basically since i haven't stepped out of my house for the past 2 days..

Anyway, there's one day when me and jiahui were supposed to go for an interview at standard chartered bank on tuesday, but somehow we missed it. I was damn angry that day due to some reasons, but since it's over so i shall not say.. Anyway this isnt the first time it's happening. Then the agency helped us to change the interview time to wednesday instead.. But it was a wasted trip la really. Went there, got so nervous because we simply hate face-to-face interviews.. then wear until like office girl like that.. and i was the first to be interviewed, asked me stupid qns like "What do you expect to gain from this job?", then i gave a stupid reply "Experience." After that they told us they were looking for people who can sign a 1yr contract. Sian diaaaooo lo. Feel like shouting into their face not to waste our precious time. And the people there isnt really friendly. I think i have got to reconsider doing office work next time.

Sianz. Now im at home with no work to do. Sign up with some tuition agencies.. Hope they will have some new assignments soon.

Anyway i lost my chinese olevel cert arrr.. one A gone. haiiiz. got to reprint it.

I suddenly have this feeling that this person i know isnt as easy as i think he/she is. Haiiz.

Should be all for today ba. Really have to blog about.

WEEJIA, You still OWE me a LONG testimonial. I will FAN you until you got irritated by me. LOLZ.

2006-11-17T07:13:00.000-08:00

2 whole months didn't touch my blog! Almost forgot my username and password. Lolz.

FINALLY, the ordeal is over. Alevels over. NO more MUGGING. But, the feeling of "freedom" is just not there.. as in i don't feel the least happy at all. Like what jiahui and selina said, i think it's because we feel we would not do well and the thought of getting our results really scare us. Seriously speaking, i am not harbouring any great hopes to this Alevels.. i think i would not do really well. At best all Bs. And i really hope a miracle will happen.. like how it happen for my Olevels english. Haha. I have even started thinking about which path i should take if i do not do well. So i have decided to go SIM if i really can't get into uni.. if not worse come to worse, take up teaching.

Alevels is really very traumatising and tiring for me. Of all the subjects, i am most traumatised by mathematics. Felt so stupid.. because maths is supposed to be the easiest subject to score, yet i screwed everything up. My only A flew away just like tt. Chi i don't dare to think too much, if i can get a B i am very very very grateful already. As for phy and chem, shun qi zi ran ba.. but.. chances of doing well.. only 50-50. But i feel today's chem mcq not very stable, because a lot of them quite unsure. And my mcqs always 25-27 marks only. Lolz.

i aiming for rough score 58-59, which means i have to get like at least 1A, 2Bs gp C.. which is like.. quite tough.

haiiz. i really really really hope god will help me..

Right now, im so free. tmr gg msia, sun gg escape, mon start finding job, tues go kbox.. then still have to buy sth to wear for prom. MONEY MONEY MONEY! And im gg to put on braces most prob, lolz. more money.

Anyway, i must say sel and jiahui really make great friends. Dont be sad by "some" other friends who are not worth it. I know you guys are great!

K la, jiu ci ting bi. Zai zian la!

2006-09-21T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hyun Bin- says:
no la!

Hyun Bin- says:
go watch movie

fOoL-mIn says:
oooo i act one isit

Hyun Bin- says:
wad ya la

fOoL-mIn says:
ur blog is dead

fOoL-mIn says:
lol

Hyun Bin- says:
I KNIW

Hyun Bin- says:
*O

Hyun Bin- says:
i blogging later la

Hyun Bin- says:
dj's even more dead

fOoL-mIn says:
lol true

fOoL-mIn says:
anw must rmb to blog i very shuai

fOoL-mIn says:
i want to be recognised

Hyun Bin- says:
pi leh

Hyun Bin- says:
see first

This is my conversation with jay in msn. LoLz. Ya so jay you want to be recognised right? Now you are recognized. Anyway even if i dont blog about you you will still be so so so recognized, because you are almost everybody, what jay zhang, what sam soon, what hyun bin, what ou de yang. My foot!

Anyway, dj's blog is really really dead. Everytime i went into his blog, the first thing i would see is "First was urine test." Diaoooozzz.

Jay Zhang. Weird name, cause' the sirname just doesnt go well with the name. Hahahaaa. SHE's very thick-skinned cause' she will go around telling people she's acted in many movies and mtvs and whatsoever. Then she will go about making this really weird "aaaa" sound. When jay's playing badminton, one of her legs will tend to lift up at the back, which was really a hilarious act. Jay will often try her ballet dancing with her "huang mu niang niang xia fan" style.
All in all, jay zhang is really a very jin dian character. And i wonder why i had such a great friend. Hahaaz.

Anyway, ppl, i am leng xiang ling. "xiu ba tiu ba.......heeeeiiiii wuuuuu..."

Prelims just over today.. actually wasnt as happy as i had expected. I expect myself to be so happy and relieved today, but no, instead i feel rather ok..

Papers were not easy, yet not really that hard. But i had this feeling things will not go well. Really feeling so stressed up this whole month preparing for exams, and then taking the prelim exams. I think my mid year results is the main reason why im feeling so stressed. If i do not do as well, i will feel so bad. And im quite sure this prelims turns out to be quite a flop. Im still a little traumatised by the statistics.

Whatever it is, i hope god really do bless me. I believe he is there.

Going to mug starting from tmr. Actually i had already plan this beforehand. Lolz.

Reallllyyy and will definitely go put on invisible braces. And i know it costs a lot. Haaaii. I regret no putting on braces earlier..

Mummy went to genting highlands today.. sat and sun no one will be able to go shopping with me anymore.. And i miss her. It's only until now that i realised im v. dependent on her..

For now, my only hope is to do well for prelims- that simple. :)

LoLz. :)

2006-08-16T02:06:00.000-07:00

:) :) :P :P

Hahahahahaaa. Two exciting events today.

Firstly, first thing i thought of in the morning today is to pon school, but then i suddenly remembered that it's fumin's beau's aka chicken chop's birthday today, so i decided to "crawl" out of my bed.

At first during the first half of the day fumin wasnt feeling nervous at all, but after tt, as time passes by, i can see tt she's getting very nervous. And being her friend, i started to get nervous too, and my heart even started beating faster as time passes by. Maybe it's because i am too anxious. LOLZ.

Whole clique thought of a plan so tt fumin could give the prez to chicken chop. Then it all turned out to be a flop, quite awkward la i would say. Sixuan even treated chicken chop as if he were her long-time friend, when she did not know him at all. And chicken chop obviously looked so shock when sx wanted to sing him a birthday song. But i think the best thing is the expression on his face. If fumin were to see it, she would have fainted baz. Hahaa. But ANYHOW, fumin managed to take the first step and gave him the prez. Take pics with him somemore.

Second event, that is during the bridge lesson. That "You Nian Fu" and "Zi tong" kept on looking at iceman, and gave comments like how his "dao" face really resembles me. Well, i dont deny that la.. cuz i personally think so too. LOLZ. Then maybe because iceman has got this extraordinary six sense or what, he actually turned and looked at us( or rather in our direction) when nian fu and zitong were looking at him and analysing him. It happened twice already. And the three of us just looked down immediatedly. Hahaz.. I think iceman somehow knows we are looking at him le la. Die.

Recently our class got crazy about the show "jie da huan xi", and many of us were given a role to play, which was really funny.. Now i shall elaborate on the roles that each of us play. Hahaz.

Weejia- You Nian Fu, Shi Da Chuan
Fumin- Zitong, aka huang hou, Huang Shang(Emperor)
YuLing- Jiang Shi aka Zombie(You Nian Fu's wife), Shi Da Chuan's wife, Gao Ming Fu Ren
Weijing- Sha Sha princess
Ting Wei- princess
Jiahui, Peirong, Yanxi, Selina- Jin jia si duo hua

ANYHOW, i forgot who is the shou tao(wan guo jiu's wife) and wan guo jiu le. HAHAAAA.

2006-08-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

Realised i haven't been updating my blog since the flag day i did three weeks ago.. Lolx. That's because i haven't been on net for quite a long time already. =P

Lots of tests these days. And lots of work. I wonder how i am going to spend my days.. i havent really got into revision yet.. haiix.

Anyway, anyone out there who's a gentleman, fair built, kan de shun yan de face, nice character, humorous, and presentable hair pls kindly step out? Hahaz. When fumin see this, she's going to say she fits the bill liaoz.

Going shopping with someone tml. Haaa. Quite happy cause finally i can go on a shopping spree, even though i have not much money left..

2006-07-15T04:02:00.000-07:00

Im very very tired right now.. because of the flag day we

had volunteered to do today. Though it was a long 5 hrs.. and

we had to stand a lot, but nevertheless i thought the

experience was good.. it was fun, and i suddenly realised that

approaching people wasnt the least scary at all, once you got

used to ppl rejecting you. Lolz.

Started the day off with weejia's grumbling about the hot

weather.. and i think weejia's behaviour looked so much like

me.. as in he's always complaining of the hotness, and does

not have any motivation at all, so unlike him. Hhaa. Then we

walked all the way from somerset to dhoby ghaut, then to

marina square, then raffles place, and finally back to dhoby

ghaut again.. And one big thing happened when i was at dhoby

ghaut.. while i was asking ppl to donate money, there's this

guy who approached me, and this particular

guy asked me if i can take a photo with him, and presented

me with a blue rose. Then i gave that blur face, and he said

he's playing a game? Ya so i agreed lo. So took a photo with

him lo, then saw weejia and weijing looking at me and

gossiping.. lolzzz. After which, there's this auntie who kept

looking at my rose and finally she asked me if it's valentine's

day. HAHAZ.

Those acjc guys who did flag day with us were really

handsome. Shuai until dont know what to say. :)

Anyway, i was surprised that many ppl approached me and

talk to me eh. hahaz.. cuz given at my stern look, i dont think

anyone dare to talk to me. But those ppl who did flag day

from other schools dont seem to be scared of me. ahaaa.

2006-07-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

Quite happy today, because the last oral examiation of my life has finally come to an end! Ever since primary school, i have always dislike oral exam. I dont like the conversation part, because i can hardly hold a conversation well with the examinors.. and i always get the jitters when i faced the examinors. Today's was no exception.. nervous until siao. But luckily, the conversation question that came out was one that me and sel had spotted. So at least i was a little prepared for it.

Took back all our mid yr papers.. rather happy with my results. This is gonna be the best results i have ever gotten in ajc, although chemistry was a flop. Anyway, the chemistry results came as a shock to me.. well, i didnt prepare myself to get such lousy results.. so i really could not accept it when i got back the paper.. but after some time of self reflecting.. gradually got to accept it.

Missing kboxing le laaaa.. tmr early dismissal eh......... but dear fumin has got her oral.. so sad. And im left alone now. Got to buy bdae present alone tmr le. ayee.

Im still in a dilemna if i should pursue life sciences or business!

2006-06-29T07:54:00.001-07:00

So high today. Just because on one reason- MID YEAR EXAMS FINALLY OVER. I think i really spent this whole month so terribly. Fancy spending the whole of one month mugging. Can you imagine, it's just the same old routine everyday. Wake up, study, lunch, study, dinner, study. No life. And it's not as if we will finished studying at the end of the month.. and whatever we studied in the first few weeks, everything will be forgotten when the exam comes. So what's really the use of studying so hard? Duh.

Anyway the GP paper was really traumatising for me. The essay paper made me lose confidence in the beginning. Because i realised that global environmental and poverty did not come out. So i was really very worried when i got the question paper.. there isnt any question which i can do on. So in the end, i settle for a safe topic, but i talked crap, cuz i know nth about computer gaming except counterstrike and sims avenue? Lolx. And the compre paper was even worse. The questions are ok, but the stupid summary and AQ really made me want to cry after the paper. I wrote rubbish. And i couldnt believe i wrote such rubbish. And it shall be my first time in history that i did not complete an english paper. Bad Bad Bad. This was a really traumatising experience for me.. and i couldnt help but think of it when i went home.

The maths paper was not as difficult was what i had expected. But who knows, anything can happen. Chemistry paper was difficult. Physics ok ok.. but ya as what i have said, anything can happen. Just hope that the grades obtained are close to my target can le. :) Yesterday was the worse day ever, because today we had phy and chi paper.. in which we had so little time to study. Really felt so jue wang yesterday. Only managed to study finished phy at 10.30pm yesterday, then studied chi till 2.. but only managed to get to sleep at 3.. then 5.45am woke up for school. Really regret choosing chiA. So many things to study. !!!

So basically today after the exams, felt so happy. Felt so released. Linger around orchard. Not really linger la.. just walk around some shops, then took some neoprints. After which we went on our separate ways.. with me and fumin gg to causeway pt for our buffet dinner at sakae. It's the first time that me and min had buffet dinner at sakae today.. cuz most of the time we will chiong the lunch buffet. But today's experience was really happy. Laughed like nobody's business, and we had some heart-to-heart talk which i thought was really "gan chu liang duo". But the main focus is on this mixed-blood guy named Paul, who is a waiter on job-training in sakae. And he's the guy who served us.. so when i saw him, i quickly steal a look at his name tag. Well, this paul is really handsome- at least to me.. hahaz. That electrifying pair of eyes of his was really beautiful.. such that i dont even dare to look at him straight in his eyes. And fumin obviously was so shy also lo.. lolx. Then this paul guy smiled at me 3 times in total. Hahas.
Paul. This guy is really special. Will miss him. hahahahaaas.
Fa hua chi la..

There's no school tmr.. no school on mon.. half day on wednesday due to the carreer guidance thing, no school on thurs, and most prob fri too.. cuz it's being rumoured that the teachers are on course. :)

Not sure if i want to buy the topshop skirt notz eh. Haix.

2006-06-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

2006-06-13T07:37:00.000-07:00

Scorpio
Feel like you're banging your head against a wall with someone? Give up, move on.

This is what the horoscope today says about me. Quite true..

Im really very stressed up this week. YES, especially this week. Because i realised that i couldnt finish studying for the mid years in time! GOSH, this is gonna be the first time in my whole life that im rushing through all my lec notes, tut and tys practice qns. I feel like dying really. It's like im not studying everything thoroughly enough, and worst of all, i forgot everything i have studied in a few days time. Everything that goes in will come out eventually. So what's really the point of studying? I regret for not starting like a few mths before the mid yr. Regrets regrets. And now i will have to live with the consequences- that is not doing well enough. Duh.

I wished i had taken 3 Alevel subs instead of 4. :( It's my own decision right from the start. I can blame no one.

Now im left like a whole lot to study. I must finish organic chem by tomorrow, and maths latest by this sat. Then phy by mon. Chi left last week. Then im done. Hopefully hopefully. Im so jue wang now. Heeeeeellllllpppppp mmmmmeeeeeee.

There's this stupid banding system in school which groups students according to their grades in their various subjects. It's like it's so stupid, they are just giving the students more stress. No one would wish to be in the band 3 group de lo.. Must complain to school.

Alevel chi oral coming le. Oral- I Hate Most. I cant hold a good conversation with the examinors. uhhhh. Will always stutter my way through.

Im afraid of getting to sleep. Cuz my mind will be full of images of all those topics which i have not studied finish. :((((((

VERY SAD AR.

2006-05-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to support tingwei for the band concert at Victoria Concert Hall. We sat at the circle seats at the second floor.. and behind us were the teachers and most importantly, the principal. Hahaz.. That means we couldnt shout and scream as freely as we like. But nonetheless, we still shout for tingwei like nobody's business. Ahaaa. And i must say even w/o the presence of weejia the known to be loud guy, we still managed to shout out loud. That's because selina is with us, and i think her voice is really loud. ahaaa.

Then after the concert on the way to raffles mrt, saw chung ying and sandy.. Teased me like hell. Kept on insisting i had a bf. Hahaaz. hmmm

Saw li nan xing, liu zhi xuan and christopher lee there acting some scenes.. but did not really catch a glimpse of christopher, and selina insisted that christopher actually looked at her. Funny. Li nan xing looked so young and that liu zhi xuan is really pretty :)

Now, i have finally found one place in singapore that is really pretty, that is still "alive" at night.. that is raffles place. It's really pretty.. if u were to just sit there and watch the sky. =P

On the train, sitting just in front of us were the wan tan mee auntie and chicken rice auntie.. and that wan tan mee auntie actually waved at me!~! hahahaz.

I really think the mid year will be a flop. It's like it's really impossible to study finish. Esp the chinese, memorise here, forget there. Haiz. Plus the gp work.. what 4 essays 3 compre. I HATE COMPRES. huh!

Dying soon.

Pls call 995 for me.

2006-05-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

A bad day today really. Somehow i just felt so vexed up inside.. to the point i told weijing i felt like killing someone. If singapore had not had the death penalty for murder, i would really find someone to kill.

Sth unhappy happened at home. And i really do understand how being parents is such a difficult task. And i have really tried to help them out the best i can.. Here, i want to say sorry to my mum. I didnt know that incident would have such a great impact on her. Im really pissed at someone in my family. It's like the whole family is compromising him. Yet he doesnt appreciate it. He doesnt know the difficulty that my mum and dad is going through, and he just takes it for granted. Being my elder brother, he doesnt set a good role model, at least this is how i feel. At times, he can be good, but most of the time, he is more of a devil than an angel. He wants to study, my parents agreed, despite the really huge money they have to spent. From young, he will always get the best of things, and i always have to take the things he doesnt want anymore. But i never did grumbled. I grew up, buying most of the things with my own money, not asking for money from my parents, because i dont want to add on to their burden. I knew they had to pay for the expensive fees of my bro's studies, so i took the initiative to cut down on my pocket money. But does he really appreciate the efforts that the whole family has put in for him? Some times i really do wonder, if he ever felt sorry.

Very sad now.

These few days, got the feeling again. Sweet. Yet a tinge of sadness...

Suddenly, i thought of sth..

-X looking at me when im studying.

-X telling me to smile.

-X putting his arms around my neck and asking me if i want money or life.

-X talking to me on the phone.

-X waiting for me always after my tuition.

-X lending me his tie and then got punished himself.

-X always preparing tissues for me.

-X always pressing my nose whenever we walked past a garage.

-X playing at the arcade.

-playing basketball with X.

-X giving me roses.

-X holding my hands.

-X always sending me a goodnight msg.

-X always pretending to be angry when i put the devil handsign on his head.

-admiring the sea and merlion together.

-Laughing like nobody's business together.

-Talking bad about others.

I dont know why, but somehow i just have this feeling, the person unknown. Is it....? Ah, crap.

2006-05-19T09:05:00.000-07:00

It's been such an exciting week this week.. where there's this volleyball finals on wed and basketball finals today.

Went for the volleyball finals on wednesday after having succeeded in persuading weijing and fumin to go.. hahaz. And i must say we did not regret it. It was fun though we had to shout and scream lots. After hours of screaming and clapping, the guys did us proud.. as they emerged as champion after a tough fight against TJC. AHAHAA. The match was so fun, so many eye candies to see. There's this particular guy got lots of potential, but too bad ppl gt girlfriend. SAD.

Then today went for the basketball finals. A very close fight.. cuz the pts are so close. Hong zhan rocks. hahaaaz. But i think the bball boys all seem to want to do one-man show? Whatever it is, the atmosphere today was really different from the volley match. I think ppl seem to be more high today. However we still lost to HCI. Nevertheless the match was exciting. But SAdly, there will not be anymore of such matches to watch le... haixxx.

I finally can see the AJ spirit building up. :)

Ahhhh. I think im getting more and more obsessed with this guy. And i think he's the type of guy which i like. hahas.

Fumin, now i can understand ur feeling, and why u are so obsessed with "patricia".

2006-05-06T06:18:00.000-07:00

There's this mock general election in ajc.. and the whole of my clique voted for WP. Interesting, hahaz.. and fumin had actually wanted to vote PAP de, but changed her mind in the end. :)

Sth interesting happened this week, that is the asking of phone number of lin jie lun by tingwei kl and wj .. Till now, i still cant believe they actually approach lin jie lin for his number. hahahaz.

Really not in the mood for study this whole week. Dont know why, but my mind just cant seem to concentrate!

Somehow i kind of miss the special feeling. Jiahui asked me abt my past relationship, and she told me it was a pity to blow this relationship, just because of my stubborness. I knew that, but that was in the past, now to think of it, i felt so stupid. It's always after we had lost sth precious that we learnt how to cherish. This special feeling- i doubt i will ever have it in the near future..

Kind of admire this particular guy in aj, let's call him the gentleman guy.. he looks gentleman on the outside. hahaz.. But after that got to know that he's actually nt a very good guy. Why are goodlooking guys not good in character? Such a pity.

2006-04-26T00:33:00.002-07:00

Well, i know i have been missing in action for such a long time, so that's why i decided to update my blog now.

Ok.. so back to a few weeks ago, got back our pw results which takes up 10% of our Alevel.. and my group did terribly badly even though we were quite confident during our oral presentation. But whatever it is, the first thought that came to my mind was not the effort i had put in, but the thought of losing. I really felt i had lost such a big battle at that time, that i can give up taking Alevels because i had lost. The others have an advantage over me, and i just cant accept it. Tears just flowed when the results were out. It really sucks. This PW has sealed my fate forever.

Then came the AJ family day. Pretty fun i must say. Our class was doing on the flea market... And i was surprised that fumin's bears could actually be sold out. Hahaz. I think throughout the day, most of our class ppl were in LT5 for the karaoke session. Not to forget the dunking thing, well, so sad we miss the dunking of mr lim kim thye. HAHAZ.

After which, the big event of the year- AJ Idol. Idolized or be idolized. Went for the semi-finals on monday.. very fun. Shout and scream like hell. And i think our class was really noisy, but nevertheless, it was fun. And i bet fumin must have been so happy because her "beloved" is on stage! Hahaz.. And there's this guy changtai who looks very cute when he's singing.. and he's got lots of supporters man.

OK. Now im gonna vent my anger. Yesterday, my father's car was knocked by someone else's car in the middle of the night i supposed.. cause' it was only discovered when my father was halfway on his way to work. It was really a big and bad dent on the door, and it costs like 400 bucks just to repair that one part of the metal. The car is new and it's got a dent now . So shucky. Whoever who knocked on my father's car must have been so pj, no skills at all. AND I WISH THIS PERSON WHO KNOCKED ON MY FATHER'S CAR WILL NOT "HAGD". THIS PERSON WILL "DATD".

I know it's a lil' extreme. but i cant stand ppl doing bad things onto my family members. Because i love my family. I once told myself this, that i would rather sacrifice myself than allowing anything untoward to happen to my family members, esp my father.

2006-04-26T00:33:00.001-07:00

2006-04-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

Well, i know i have been missing in action for such a long time, so that's why i decided to update my blog now.

Ok.. so back to a few weeks ago, got back our pw results which takes up 10% of our Alevel.. and my group did terribly badly even though we were quite confident during our oral presentation. But whatever it is, the first thought that came to my mind was not the effort i had put in, but the thought of losing. I really felt i had lost such a big battle at that time, that i can give up taking Alevels because i had lost. The others have an advantage over me, and i just cant accept it. Tears just flowed when the results were out. It really sucks. This PW has sealed my fate forever.

Then came the AJ family day. Pretty fun i must say. Our class was doing on the flea market... And i was surprised that fumin's bears could actually be sold out. Hahaz. I think throughout the day, most of our class ppl were in LT5 for the karaoke session. Not to forget the dunking thing, well, so sad we miss the dunking of mr lim kim thye. HAHAZ.

After which, the big event of the year- AJ Idol. Idolized or be idolized. Went for the semi-finals on monday.. very fun. Shout and scream like hell. And i think our class was really noisy, but nevertheless, it was fun. And i bet fumin must have been so happy because her "beloved" is on stage! Hahaz.. And there's this guy changtai who looks very cute when he's singing.. and he's got lots of supporters man.

OK. Now im gonna vent my anger. Yesterday, my father's car was knocked by someone else's car in the middle of the night i supposed.. cause' it was only discovered when my father was halfway on his way to work. It was really a big and bad dent on the door, and it costs like 400 bucks just to repair that one part of the metal. The car is new and it's got a dent now . So shucky. Whoever who knocked on my father's car must have been so pj, no skills at all. AND I WISH THIS PERSON WHO KNOCKED ON MY FATHER'S CAR WILL NOT HAVE A GOOD ENDING. THIS PERSON WILL "DATD".

I know it's a lil' extreme. but i cant stand ppl doing bad things onto my family members. Because i love my family. I once told myself this, that i would rather sacrifice myself than allowing anything untoward to happen to my family members, esp my father.

Netball is my life!

2006-04-12T00:19:00.002-07:00

I seriously miss netball.. i miss being part of a team..

girls' power that's what we call.. i miss running

around, doing all those tiring yet fun drills,

encouraging each other when we were really tired, lying

in the middle of the court after trainings and laugh

about stupid stuffs in school with the coach, and then

thinking of where to eat after trainings.

Before training, our grp of girls will rush all the way to

causeway pt or northpoint to have our lunch, even if

there's only like 2 hrs interval.. and we know we will get

stiches when we ran with a full stomach..

I miss running around in courts, i miss the competitions

where we will always hold hands in a circle and start

praying to god to bless us.. although we still lost in e

end.. i miss being a goal shooter, a goal attacker, and

having to be always in eye contact with longna because

both of us have the responsibility to shoot. I miss the

feeling of satisfaction whenever i shot the ball inside..

it's a feeling so undescribable. But most of all, i miss the

laughter we used to have.

Those were the days. But now, all of us are in different

paths now. We never did meet up anymore. Not even

chat in the net. Once, we were such good girlfriends,

but now.. sad.

I wish i could play a real netball game just once more.

Because i really do miss it. :(

Had our 5 stations today.. not bad overall.. just that i feel so bad cuz for the inclined pull up, i did like 6.. and i gave up when i had only one more to go to get a silver.. but whatever it is, i told myself it's ok.. cuz at least i do pass.. cuz my initial target was 0 for inclined pull-up, but in e end i actually did 6.. so i should feel happy instead. :)

And i dont like arthur lim. @##$@!@@!

Netball is my life!

2006-04-12T00:19:00.001-07:00

I seriously miss netball.. i miss being part of a team..

girls' power that's what we call.. i miss running

around, doing all those tiring yet fun drills,

encouraging each other when we were really tired, lying

in the middle of the court after trainings and laugh

about stupid stuffs in school with the coach, and then

thinking of where to eat after trainings.

Before training, our grp of girls will rush all the way to

causeway pt or northpoint to have our lunch, even if

there's only like 2 hrs interval..

I miss running around in courts, i miss the competitions

where we will always hold hands in a circle and start

praying to god to bless us.. although we still lost in e

end.. i miss being a goal shooter, a goal attacker, and

having to be always in eye contact with longna because

both of us have the responsibility to shoot. I miss the

feeling of satisfaction whenever i shot the ball inside..

it's a feeling so undescribable. But most of all, i miss the

laughter we used to have.

Those were the days. But now, all of us are in different

paths now. We never did meet up anymore. Not even

chat in the net. Once, we were such good girlfriends,

but now.. sad.

I wish i could play a real netball game just once more.

Because i really do miss it. :(

Netball is my life!

2006-04-12T00:19:00.000-07:00

I seriously miss netball.. i miss being part of a team.. girls' power that's what we called.. i miss running around, doing all those tiring yet fun drills, encouraging each other when we were really tired, lying in the middle of the court after trainings and laugh about stupid stuffs in school with the coach, and then thinking of where to eat after trainings.

Before training, our grp of girls will rush all the way to causeway pt or northpoint to have our lunch, even if there's only like 2 hrs interval..

I miss running around in courts, i miss the competitions where we will always hold hands in a circle and start praying to god to bless us.. although we still lost in e end.. i miss being a goal shooter, a goal attacker, and having to be always in eye contact with longna because both of us have the responsibility to shoot. I miss the feeling of satisfaction whenever i shot the ball inside.. it's a feeling so undescribable. But most of all, i miss the laughter we used to have.

Those were the days. But now, all of us are in different paths now. We never did meet up anymore. Not even chat in the net. Once, we were such good girlfriends, but now.. sad.

I wish i could play a real netball game just once more. Because i really do miss it. :(

2006-03-31T05:36:00.000-08:00

Alright okay. Hahaz.. Had I&E day today, and i must say it's rather successful. The whole day is just full of fun, no lectures and no tutorials about boring stuffs, so basically for the whole day we just walked and slacked around, playing games related to sci, maths and humanities which were supposed to make us feel more interested in it. The first half of the day was rather boring though, but after that it was enjoyable. And to think of it, i actually became the queen when it comes to the netball shooting game. Hahaz.. all challengers failed in their attempt to challenge me. :)

Then, mr alan smsed us, and told us that our tuition today will be cancelled. Do not know whether i should feel happy or otherwise, because this means that we have to do makeup tomorrow, which is on a saturday! Aww hate having tuitions on weekends.

After which, me fumin weijing krys dj and weejia rushed off to amk kbox. Sang our lungs out till 6 plus. And not to forget, we actually refill the tidbits for like so many times until the waiter said we were too fast in refilling our tidbits. hahahaaz.

Wednesday having napha. 2.4km. Gonna do my best. Bless me lord. Mum's having her bdae on wed too! Yippee!~ :)

2006-03-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

Happy mood this whole week! :)

I finally bought my ipod a few days ago, after months and months of consideration. Hahaz.. but somehow i feel a pinch inside me. Costs me like a few hundered bucks and it took me so long to save up the money, and now it's like gone in just one day. Aww..

Then we took back our chemistry common test paper on tuesday, and the results came as a shock to me. I was expecting to flunk in this paper because i absolutely had no confidence in it. But i did very well instead, and ms yeo actually congratulated me in class today :P Boosts my confidence even more. Shall work harder from now on!

Had tennis training yesterday. Met the j1s for the first time.. so many of them. And their skills are amazing. Imagine someone who is a first-timer in tennis, and yet is able to play even better then those who are not first timers, like us- the j2s. Found ourselves quite a shame. Hahaz. Yupps anyway, we were allowed to play the "king of the court game" yesterday, so the coach actually paired us up with the guys, and i got to pair up with this j1 chung cheung high guy whose seems to me a little ang moh.. and he is handsome. That's why i dont even dare to ask for his name. And he's pro. Hahaz.. sporty. wooo.

Climax is today. Very Very HapPy today.. best mood ever. Know what, there is this j1 guy whom ive known during the first 3 mths in tennis who looks really like the taiwanese actor cum singer zhang shan wei.. and i thought he looks really like the type of nice gentleman type, and he looks cute and sunny when he smile. So im rather obsessed with him. Though we were in tennis, but we do not talk at all, because girls and guys training are separated. So i always thought that he does not know me. But during break today, when i was going to return my plate, he walked past me. And because i thought he do not know me, i just looked up at him, then intending to tell fumin that he just walked past us. BUT, he actually said hello to me!! And being in a state of shock, i replied back the same thing with a kind of shocked expression on my face. HAHAHAZ.. so so so happy. He looked so cute and sunny in his red specs! Awwww.. so throughout the day, i just cant stop thinking about the situation just now, his face all that. I think im crazy.. hahahaaaz. Now i have finally found a motivation for me to attend school! HAHAHAAA. :) :) :)

2006-03-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

The more i think of it, the more i feel so unhappy.. Sometimes i dont quite like my tuition teacher.. he does things which i hate most- that is to compare ppl, and condemn ppl. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Arrrrrh. The thought of it just makes me boil. You know what he said during phy tuition on fri.. Just because i was unable to do one qn, and he told me this, "You should try harder next time.. You know if you just wait for the answer you are copying, you are not learning. We value quality, not the speed. You know you are just copying, not learning..." And then feeling a little unhappy, i told him that it's nt because i did nt try, but because i misunderstood the terms.. and fortunately he did not say anything, if not i shall show him my black face. I was pissed, not because of what he said, but because i feel that he has been very bias, it's like at least i do bother to do my work lor.. unlike jiahui. (Jiahui, i do not mean to say you.. as in i want to say out my point..) But he did nt say jiahui, but say me instead. What is this. I dont like it.

That's once. Another evidence that he was bias was that whenever i was unable to solve a problem, he would say that jiahui would definitely solve it, despite her not being to solve it either. And when she was unable to solve another qn, he did not say that i can definitely solve it.. bias or what? To me, i strongly felt so.. It really made me very angry and unhappy at that time.. because he wasn't like this last year.. it's all because of the phy promo results. Just because jiahui did better, he condemn me, and gave the conclusion that im the weaker one. And he kept using the promo results to compare us. COMPARE. I hate ppl comparing me with others. It's all rubbish. I do not feel that im the weaker one. It's just that whenever im in the examination hall, i tend to lose concentration easily. I put in so much effort for every exam, but what do i get in return? I strongly believe that i put in more effort than her, but in the end, it did not turn out to be the way i had expected. What is wrong? Till now, i still cant figure it out.

Everytime i go for tuition, the teacher and my partner made me feel so inferior. And i dont like it. I dont like the feeling of being looked down upon. I dont like the feeling of being the weaker one. Because i know in my heart IM NOT. I CAN DO AS WELL.

Because of this, i learnt to be strong. I promised myself that i shall not let ppl look down on me. I will do well. I will do as well. There is this target in me which i have set. And i will do it.

2006-03-16T07:41:00.000-08:00

Mr Dj requested that i update my blog, cause he doesnt like the previous entry. Haha, anyway, March holidays now, but it's been so fast, it's going to be over soon.. and then i have to get myself back in school for all those lectures and tutorials which i dread most. And as usual there's always tons of work for us to do during the holidays. I shall list them out one by one- GP acjc compre, chemical periodicity tutorial, electrochemistry tutorial, chemistry NMR practice worksheet, special continuous r.v tutorial, data analysis notes, physics of fluids notes, alternating current tutorial, chinese lian bi, chinese guan yong yu test.. You see, holidays are just not holidays, they are hell-days..

Went yanxi's house for the gp essay discussion yesterday.. and it's the first time i got so scared of taking bus. Imagine leaving my house at 8 in the morning, and reaching there only at 10.30, when im supposed to meet them at 9! And they actually told me the wrong stop, which means i actually went to somewhere else, and then going back to kovan interchange twice.. sooooo angry at that time. Then finally i reached the condo, only after hailing a taxi. But at least it doesnt makes me go round and round. Saw for the first time her dog, named angel. It's soooo cute. And the first time i actually touched a dog. Cute until i've gt nth to say.. Fumin, angel is cuter than u leh.. hahahaz.. And we just couldnt stop playing with angel the moment we saw her.. And i must say, our gp thing is nt really well done. hahaz.. but who cares, cause we have to redo it in the end. :)

The AQ for gp is so difficult. And practically no one knows how to do it. Think i really have to crap my way through!

2006-03-08T05:50:00.000-08:00

Read weejia's blog just now, and i kind of totally agree with

what he said. That is, even if the class tee and price thing is

settled, some of em will still complain that it is too expensive,

too ugly or what so ever. There's always bound to be some ppl

like this, i dont understand why. I think our class is the most

pathetic of the whole aj cohort. I dont care what others think,

but i just feel it this way. There isnt any class gathering AT ALL.

Not bonded AT ALL. And most of the time the minority groups

dont get to voice out their opinions, and even if we do, it's of no

use at all. Cause we are minority.

Yes and as stated in para 1 line ** by weejia, that "I've nothing

for this class except for lumps of negativity." Here, i totally

agree with his viewpoint. Hahaaz..

Have been rather unhappy with some things recently. That

explains my bad attitude these few days. The kbox thing, and

many other things. It's the second time le ok. If there's gg to be

a third time, im gg to flare up really. I wish to clear something

here right now, cause i cant stand ppl accusing me. Weiting, i

dont think you mind right.. ok. I just want to say here that it's

not me who pull weiting's skirt up first when we were at kbox k.

So when this person told me not to bully her, i was very very

angry. Mood sank to the lowest. Dont always think that im the

bad person ok. IM NOT. THATS BECAUSE YOU PPL DO NOT

UNDERSTAND ME WELL ENOUGH.

2006-03-04T09:21:00.000-08:00

im so unhappy right now. Due to some unhappy incident just now, my mood just slide down to

the lowest.. and it leads me to thinking why are some ppl's attitude towards different people so

different? Why is it that ppl are so unfair towards me? Why is it that im always the bad one, and

others are always the good ones? Why is it that ppl treat her better than me? It's forever my

fault. Just because they thought i looked like an ahlian doesnt mean im one! Dont condemn me.

Im not what u ppl think i am. I dont like this kind of feeling.. because im a sensitive and

emotional person. Call me petty, but i just cant accept it. I try to, but i realise i cant.. As days

goes by, and you ppl thought i dont mind, but deep down inside, it's so hurting. No one knows.

No one sense the unhappiness in me. Im a human, a girl, with feelings. Sometimes what you ppl

say of me made me think if im really that ahlian. I seriously dont think so, no matter how many

good things i have done, no matter how much effort i put in, you ppl just keep saying that im

lian.

Stop all those nonsense. After that incident, i broke down. Im nt sure if it's because of too much

stress or over the incident, but im sure that im very very unhappy. :'(

2006-03-01T01:27:00.000-08:00

It's quite a meaningful day today, so i shall squeeze out time out of my busy schedule now to update my blog..

A level results release today! Though it isnt my concern, but somehow there's just this excited feeling in me.. hahaz. huangmu took her Ao chi results today.. A1, expected. haha.. huangmu, see, u can do it.. happy hor? hah.

Ms Daljit isnt very happy with the A level gp results today.. I can still rmb what she told our class.. this is how it goes, "You want to know how did your seniors do for their GP? I tell you, 96% pass, compared to 98% last year. The results are not good, 34 failed wheareas only 10 failed last year.. GP is the subject that if going to make a distinction, not your other content subjects. You got to do well in your GP! Anderson jc is going down you know, and your batch is going to go down as well, the other jcs are coming up.. everybody in singapore is working hard, so you should too.." And she goes on and on.. obviously not in the best of mood because of the not-so-good gp results.. and i could see selina and weejia's worried expression.

Kind of agree with what ms daljit said.. yes everyone in singapore is working hard.. true. And we should, work hard too. But the prob is, does working hard really gives you your desired grades?

Chem was the complete opposite of GP.. seniors did well.. 44% A and 79% As and Bs.. quite happy when we heard this.. now i tell meself, i want to be one of the 44% next yr! hahahaaaz..

The whole of this and next week will be very very busy.. there's this redo-ing of the SAJC aq qn.. studying for chi yan yu test.. gp test and chi test next mon.. go compo( which is so difficult to write) next wed.. one word to describe- dead.

:(

2006-02-25T06:14:00.000-08:00

Finally im on the net now!! So happy.. in my airconned room, listening to soothing music coming from the stereo, and on my laptop blogging.. this is what i called relax. This whole week was super stressed up.. tutorials after tutorials.. and it wasnt easy. Couldnt catch what the teacher was teaching.. and all i had to do was spend time reading through all the tutorials again..such a waste of my precious time.. and it's all because im not really smart enough to understand the concepts in a short time. Ajcians are muggers, not smarties, get it? (Except for a few..)

Chem test will be on wednesday.. ms yeo said it will not be easy, yet she expect us to aim for an A.. ironic. I guess i will aim for a B or C at most. The chem test is really driving me crazy.. all those reagents and conditions that i had to memorise.. i hate memorising stuffs. And it took my like the whole afternoon to familiarise myself with it, though im still rather slow, but at least i know which reaction requires which reagents.. and im happy with my achievements. hahaaz..

Know what? I woke up at 8.45am today.. and i started mugging at 9.30pm.. all the way till 10pm.. super? i broke my record really.. studying for like 10 hrs or so. But looking back, i think i didnt really study that much today.. arh.

Still have got loads of work to do.. it's never-ending. :(

Jiahui told me yesterday that she and weiting were afraid that i may hate them..which i thought was really funny.. cause do i really look that fierce? hmm, looks are deceiving. Take me for example, im not really fierce at all, im fun-loving, i can be lame at times.. and most of all, i laugh at the slightest things.. hahaz. I still remembered that there's once this girl in my sec sch who told her friend that she doesnt like me cause' i kept "dao-ing" her, and i was shocked. This girl was not someone to be trifled with, she's got a huge lot of friends.. in short, she has a lot of influence in sch.. so i felt a little uneasy at that point of time. But luckily my friend told her that i just looked fierce that's all. no offence. hahaz..

Had a very sweet dream the day before.. made me think for the whole day.. it was really sweet. hahaz.. :)

2006-02-20T06:08:00.000-08:00

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔

试着眼泪不往下流

别往下流

不安的感觉到什么

在我生活中不再相同

很不相同

想要说却还沉默

伸出手

无法触碰

天空突然一片辽阔

原来你是真的已经离开我

在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活

闭上眼让泪水滑落

此刻你已真的永远离开

我在另外一个没有我的世界

自由的走

Got rather pissed with someone today.. and it's not really the first time this person has pissed me off.. it's just that i feel this person is such an insensitive person.. or should i say spoilt brat? Cant stand this person anymore.. really felt like telling into this person's face that he/she is so insensitive and oblivious to the people around him/her. I know of another person who isnt happy with him/her either.. shall not mention names here.

Many unhappy things happened recently.. but i can do nothing.. i cant control. All i can do is to feel unhappy about it. I think some ppl in my class are really selfish.. and straight. I hate people who are direct. and selfish.

Anyways back to today..Total Defence Day. Nothing to eat for the whole day.. except for some congee.. which is like totally tasteless.. had to add salt ourselves.. and some sweet potatoes.. so hungry for the whole day.. had pe somemore.. and i thought it was fun to have pe with the class.. hahaz. kind of enjoyed it though the sun was so scorching hot.

Shall end my post here.. think it will be another few days later before i update my blog again.. haaz.. :)

2006-02-15T06:18:00.000-08:00

It's been like more than one week since i ever updated my blog. Hmm, yesterday was Valentine's Day, and i must say i kind of enjoy it alot.. friends giving each other presents and cards, though it's just some sweets, but nevertheless it was sweet of them to do such things.. unlike some "heartless" people.. hahaz. Received lots of presents and cards..roses from sixuan and jiahui, and balloon from ms yeo.. cute. :) Initially, i had thought the present im giving out would be the worse of all.. but it wasnt. hahaaz.. all thanks to my mum who wrapped the presents nicely up for me..~

After school went with fumin to watch i not stupid II.. very nice and touching show. Highly recommended! Took neoprints with her too.. and because of a moment of addiction, we took 3 times.. 15 bucks. hahaz.. and now im broke.

Had tennis training after school today.. very very bad. so sad. and tired.. imagine the mixture of sad and tired, not a good feeling really. Went home alone, cause sixuan and company all just too slow.. got quite a little surprise when i went into my room, saw a cd on my table.. with a note on it.. apparently it was my bro's valentine's day gift to me.. haha. :)

Really wanted to own my own mp3.. now im on my way to saving 1000 bucks.. hah!

Very stressed up this week.. just too much work to do.. teachers just push everything to us.. and expect us to do it well, and the deadline is too short. Kept on worrying about work.. kept on doing, and teachers kept on giving.. now i still have got to redo my AQ, study chem test and so on and so forth.

Got a shock of my life when i got back gp test few days ago.. i actually passed. And daljit actually said i certainly do well.. best encouragement ever.. that means i will be spared from the remedial lessons.. hahaz. And that means i do not have to go home late on thurs.. yeea.

Shall end here now.. i have too many worries over my sch work now.. it's really driving me to the edge.

2006-02-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

Dont know why.. love this lyrics alot.. i know i blogged this lyrics before..but still want to blog. hahahz.. :)

无论等待多久, 都无法再靠近你

像傻瓜般哭泣的你的身边

只能带给你伤痛的我

为何还要傻傻等待

痛恨我自己

想哭你跪着求我

能忘掉所有的一切

在记忆中曾经那么疯狂爱过你

当试着用记忆寻找

再也不想用爱来绑住你

明知道不能这样

就像生不如死的折磨

痛恨我自己

为了你好, 我只有选择离开

在记忆里曾经那么疯狂爱过你

当试着用记忆寻找

再也不想用爱来绑住你

明知道不能这样

就像生不如死的折磨

直到身处天堂才有办法遗忘...

Chat with fumin on the net just now.. settled upon something, that is to be demure from now on. hahaz.. i know it may sound crazy, but that's my latest target, im heading towards the route of being a demure girl. hahaz.. so no more big actions for me, no more crapping, no more talking loudly.. yes. demure. hahaz..

2006-02-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

Had cross country today.. didnt even realise that this shall be our last cross country until fumin wrote in her blog that this shall be the last cross country in our life.. and i remembered i have never been serious about it before.. only once in sec sch..dont know why so enthusiastic.. go run.. in the end dunno like 20 plus position. hahahaz.. ya.. so basically this year just walked. walked all the way.. did not even attempt to run.. me fumin and jiahui's clique were like last.. walking.. chatting with min.. laughing at ppl.. crapping.. then.. finally when we reached the end point.. we had expected to be in the 600th plus position.. but we got 763 position!! haaaz.. so funny.. jiahui got second last.. 771.. hhaz..

Waste lots of money today.. took cab in the afternoon to macritchie.. then cab again to tuition place since we are like so late.. and sth very funny happened in the afternoon.. ya abt that fumin sms this guy in our class thing.. hahaz.. but i really do feel that you are fond of him eh, fumin. i use the word fond k.. not like. two different things k..

Very "happy".. cause sixuan suddenly told us she has decided to go NTU to study the tourism and integrated resort course.. and it's her latest target.. and i was "happy" because there is going to be one person less to fight for a place in NUS! hahaz.. crazy le.. And suddenly.. i found a new target in my life.. i think i want to be a financial consultant in future.. not those financial consultant as in savings type, but those business dealings type.. i like to command ppl.. i dont like ppl to teach me how to do certain things.. so i think this job not bad.. can consider.. :)

Had this trouble in my heart that i really feel like saying it out.. feel like sharing it with someone i can really trust.. but i just cant bring myself to say it out.. and the feeling of it being kept inside is so terrible.. haiz.

Me and jiahui were saying that we would never find any bfs or husband in the future cuz no one wants us.. but i think she will have.. yet she thinks i will have.. so we both were like talking bout our future.. then decided that if by 40yrs old we are still single.. then we shall live under one roof together.. any one wants to join us?? hahaz.. crazy thought ya..

Valentine's day coming.. sad right. Shall celebrate alone this year le.. not like last year.. haiz.. this year i think no presents also.. not like last yr.. at least sandy, shumin and junhan bothers to buy v'day's pressie for me.. hahaz.. sad ar sad.

Shall end here.. since there's nth to blog anymore.. hahaz.. =P

2006-01-31T06:05:00.000-08:00

Well, this new year doesnt turn out to be as nice as what i had expected.. Few weeks ago, im so excited that the new year is coming soon, yet when it really comes, im not that happy at all.. somehow feel that there seemed to be sth missing.. yet i cant really figure out what. Guess depression coming le.. im now declaring myself as the assistant vice president of the depression club, since weejia is the president and fumin the vice..

Went msia two days ago to visit some of my relatives.. and as usual, watched tv from afternoon till night.. very boring. Though there are like around 15-20 ppl there, but still rather boring. Then played cards with my aunties, mother, bro, cousin and niece.. use 2 dollars and play in the end won only like 10 bucks.. haaa. After that went back home, on the way home there's a very very very very bad jam from msia to spore.. bad until my whole family really very pissed. got stucked in the jam from 11 plus till 2 plus.

Went kbox with half of the class on fri after cny celebration.. initially was kind of looking forward to it.. but in the end turned out to be a really bad experience.. seriously so bad that i wasnt really feeling very happy about it.. and even complained everything to jiahui.. not really convenient to write down in my blog.. Just unhappy about certain things ba.. fumin also.. can see she is rather pissed about sth at kbox.. even vowed nt to go there anymore.

hmm..read weiting's blog.. and she "requested" that i wrote about this 7 things thing..

Seven things that make me smile:

1) reminiscing about all those sweet memories..

2) a bouquet of flowers.. or a sweet sms by some special person!

3) crapping with friends..

4) the feeling of being loved.. awww :)

5) good grades!

6) able to see that special someone :)

7) a blessed family..~

Seven things to win my heart:

1) be really courteous..

2) a nice character and kind heart..

3) Taller than 170.. haa. :)

4) sweet and romantic!

5) cares alot for me..

6) able to stand my xiao jie character..

7) knows what i really like.. and able to give me surprises! i love surprises!~ :)

Seven things i believe in:

1) Jesus! :) i think he really do exist!!

2) sel and weiting are muggers..

3) i cry easily.. (weak point of mine..)

4) im actually kind-hearted.. ( really.. im kind inside de.. that's why i always give in too easily.. and will not be angry for long..)

5) fAtE brings two person together..

6) each one of us will meet our special half one day.. so be patient..

7) that guys should take the initiative to make the first step!

Seven things im afraid of:

1) dark..

2) cockroaches..

3) ghosts!

4) loneliness..

5) exams..

6) being scolded by teacher..

7) heart broken.. (*it's really sad. this i know..)

Seven things i do everyday:

1) laugh and smile!!

2) mug? hahahaaaz..

3) read newspapers..

4) dream about something.. :)

5) talk.. sleep.. eat.. (lame.. haaaz..)

6) crack lame jokes with fumin, weejia and co..

7) i cant think of any!!

2006-01-24T05:33:00.000-08:00

I actually had the time to blog now.. and that means only one thing, that im slacking right now at this moment. Look weejia, dj and whoever who calls me a mugger, im slacking alrite. Hahaaa.. just managed to finish memorizing the gu wen.. such a torture really.. hate memorizing stuffs cuz my memory isnt really that good, not like others who are able to spend like only 1hr looking through and in the end scored really high marks..

Went with kailuen, krystal, weejia, min, jing and dj to town.. buy bdae prez for ting wei.. before that went nyp for lunch at macs.. got shoot by that man weejia and that woman fumin.. kept imagining and planning me and someone's future. Dont know how they managed to imagine such things when nth has happened at all.. dotz. And say until i very bad like tt.. sad ar. But i still think the sweeping thing very funny.. (if u know what i am implying at.)

And ya, mr dj is a very nice man. This time must praise u. Thanks for helping me carry my bag ar.. haaa. too heavy le, cant stand it. :)

Then took the train with dj home, heartless weejia dont wanna accompany us.. heartless. weejia is heartless. heartless is weejia. luckily me and dj got sth to talk about on the train ar.. if not the situation would be so awkward.. haaa. Then dj was like talking so loudly to me, and obviously he did not realise it cuz he just kept on replying me so loudly.. and i felt so paiseh at tt pt of time.. but dont dare to tell him he's too loud also.. haaa. now the thought of it is so funny.. hahaz..

Heard weejia is trying to woo selina huh(obviously it's just crap..).. haaz.. and it's funny because it's weejia. imagine weejia! haaaaaaa.. overheard him saying this, "wo yao zui selina." haa.. then fumin and me were feeling a little mo ming qi miao.. then weejia continued by saying, "wah that selina demanded $100,000 from me before i can woo her ar!" haaaz, very funny..

Should be about all le lo.. bed time le. haaa.. nights~!

2006-01-20T06:22:00.000-08:00

It's friday! And im in an especially good mood. Haaa.. perhaps it's because new yr's coming.. my fav. time of the year..

Have been very very busy and tired these few days, simply just mugging, reading straits times and furiously trying to understand what is being taught in tutorials and lectures.. piled up with endless tons of work.. which seemed to be never ending, and hardly any time left to rest.. we just cant afford to slow down. hectic isnt it.. that's the way of our life.. no choice! Hahaz..

Initially had wanted to blog lotsa of stuffs, but somehow forget about everything le.. i think my memory is getting worse.. bad bad bad. oh ya.. wednesday.. the "exercise-crazy" day.. morning we had our pe training.. and it's 7 rounds round the track.. then in the afternoon i had my tennis training.. fortunate or not, it was drizzling.. and we had to do PT.. horrible.. sprint like 20times and do 100 push ups. And some of the interact members in my class were like watching us.. and jiahui actually said she thought it was fun!!! FUN!! Makes my whole body aches like it's going to tear me apart.. after training, i actually had the energy to go yck court play a game of tennis with my supposed bf, for like 1 hr plus.. haaaaz.. saw jiahan. and ya she saw me. haaaa.. very very very tired after that.. and the next day, my whole body just ached so much i cant even stand up properly..

Nth much happened yesterday.. today also.. just another normal day lo.. lots of work to do for this weekend!! haiz.. but cny's coming, and my mood is especially good. hahaz.. fumin, u promised us le ok.. dont go back on your worD! And ya, zhou peng really sang so much like jay chou.. esp yi lu xiang bei.. haaaaa. your fav. idol ya? ")

2006-01-16T06:21:00.000-08:00

Havent got the time to start blogging.. and im like squeezing out some time now to blog.. and it should be my bedtime now. im sick!! Having a bad flu since yesterday..but condition worsened today afternoon at gp lesson.. used up fumin's and sixuan's tissues.. so paiseh. flu is soooo bad that i cant really concentrate in class. There's this incident in gp lesson tt is very funny.. as i was having a bad flu.. i wanted to sneeze out suddenly, then dont know why let out a weird sound.. and weijing told me it was loud. haaaa.. so paiseh. Then did not attend PE, cause i simply cant breathe at all..

Very hectic schedule these few days.. cant wait for new year to come!! Love new year so muchhh!

Hmm.. read fumin's blog.. very touched by how much she loves tt guy.. if i had loved a guy so much, i wouldnt have mustered up all the courage to confess my love for him. And i would probably have given up in the end.. hahaaz.

Some things happened lately.. sth related to relationships.. saw couples together and then separated in the end.. and it's always the guys' fault.. guys forever will not understand how we girls feel. They can forget all abt everything in just a split of a second, and we girls will never forget, even for the rest of our lives. They are never thoughtful. Heartless lot.

Going woodlands tmr.. buying the shoes i loved so much! haaa.. alone. yet again.fumin meeting up her mum.. sad.

Haiz.. sad. im sick sick sick. feels so terrible. :(

2006-01-09T04:54:00.000-08:00

Saw many j1s in school nowadays.. reminded me of the good old times for first 3mths in aj.. there's my lovely og, my cute 34/05, and of course not forgetting lovable fumin and chungying.. will always skip lectures and chose to sleep for 2hrs in the library cause we just aint interested in geo.. haaaa.

Really miss those times.. so slack.. now??? Dont wanna survive anymore. STRESSED UP!!

Seriously thought it's a waste of time reading straits times and doing mindmapping.. half a day gone. And so many tests and work.. chuan bu guo qi lai.

Nth much to blog ar.. very tired. sian these few days..

Sth's troubling me these few days.. yet i cant say. awww!!

2006-01-05T01:00:00.000-08:00

It's time for me to blog after being away for so long.. haha.. shall blog a short entry.. cuz im busyyy!!

First few days of school.. tired.. so stressed up.. Alevels here Alevels there.. Ms yeo even worse.. kept emphasizing 158 days left.

Loads of work uncomplete.. so many blanks here and there.. wonder how are we going to take the big exam months later. The gp teacher even worse.. i have this fearful feeling in me whenever i see her.. see her face will think of straits times.. hahaaa!

But nonetheless, me fumin weejia zhoupeng and duojie went kbox yesterday.. fumin it was a wise decision of yours to decide to go there.. i thought it was fun. And yes i agree with weejia i just cant seem to be in the right mood to sing "wu xian".. haaaa.. and we sang "shan hu hai" for like more than 5 times lo.. sing until im addicted to it.. even when im sleeping, the song just cant get off my head. weejia it's ur fault la..

Then being stupid, weejia began calling himself director.. and me fumin and zhoupeng became his actors.. took pics outside the kbox room.. kissing scene, kidnapping scene and so on.. and when me and fumin were trying to do a kissing scene, i spit out saliva into her eyes.. cuz it was so funny. sorry min, didnt mean to do it de.. haaa..

And i know weejia you are very proud of your latest masterpiece- the pic of me and zhoupeng.. me being the supposed model..and i had to put my hand on his shoulder and pose. I looked like a fool! i think that pic's just normal ba.. failed attempt director!

Got to start mugging le.. if not, bad consequences.. think im going to join selina's "mug till death" team. haaaa!!!

2005-12-27T06:06:00.000-08:00

School's reopening.. very very very troubled. Supposed to be the start of a brand new year, but to me, it's the start of all troubles..

Im gonna persuade my mum to allow me to have physics tuition.. cause i deeply believe i cant do without tuition..

The timetable next year.. really makes me so stressed up. Not only me.. jiahui even gave me a call in the afternoon and she sort of discussed with me that she may be dropping CLA at the beginning of next year. I was kind of shocked when she told me such a sudden decision.. but after some thoughts, realised that what she said does make some sense.. without clA, we would have more time to concentrate on the other subs.. but on the other hand, we werent sure our phy can make it.. that's the prob. shang nao jing..

Miss tuition times.. haiz.

Have always loved new year.. jan 29th! Looking forward to it!! :)

Nothing much to blog about.. Just feel very troubled that's all..

And i just got to realise there is this 4grace blog.. which is a blog my sec sch peeps made.. haaa. and my name was being mentioned!!

Sunday, December 04, 2005

random
us: mr ramesh, what are we doing today?
ramesh: skydiving
yu ling: so mr ramesh, what to do with the key?ramesh: oh, lock the class and throw it inside
yu ling: oh ok

haha. bored la.

2005-12-26T06:22:00.000-08:00

Took a colour test few minutes ago.. and this is what it says of me.. thought it's quite true.. :)

What's Your True Color?
Koh, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

2005-12-25T06:53:00.000-08:00

Merry merry X'mas!! An occasion meant to be happy, but i always cant seem to feel it. haaa.. did not went for the countdown yesterday.. instead went to my mum's fren's house for a christmas party.. wow the house was soooo big, three stories and i loved it! The bedroom is soo big, the furnishings are so nice and cosy, and what's more, the house is big. hahaz.. and i told myself i must earn enough money next time so that i can buy such big house. im going to let my parents lead a good life~

So it's christmas day today! Thank lord. Went bugis for some shopping today with mum.. but just couldnt find my own suitable clothes.. cause 80% of the time was spent on finding my mum's instead of mine. ahh..

Now im going to comment on our new timetable next yr.. it was hell. work schedule very hectic!! all four periods.. how am i going to survive for the whole of next yr? It's like 2 periods we are already like wanting to fall asleep in the lecture hall le, how are we going to stand 4 periods! gosh.. hectic hectic hectic.. considering that we have to see salt more often now.. haaaiz. And i was telling min if we had dropped clA, then we would have so much free time.. but now its like.. dont even know how to describe. Just know that im not going to be on this earth for long. haaa.

hmm.. this year has been a rather bored one.. I only remembered myself mugging throughout the year. Lifeless isnt it. haaa.. i chose this path myself, so what to do? Ren ming ba..

School reopening soon. And time flies so fast.. before i knew it, we are going to be seniors. And then 8 months later, we have prelims, another 2 months later, there's Alevels. And then, we are gonna be college graduates. haha!

I hope lord bless me throughout the whole of next year, that shall be my biggest wish.. and im casting all things aside, what's most important to me now is my studies. :)

A rather touching one..

慢慢失忆所有和你的事情必须忘记

爱的盆地

深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤

我也不想被你肯定

在这个时候说我

让你感动过

别握住我的手

说我一定会懂

作不成的爱人

变成最好朋友

别牵著我的手

想著别人脸孔

换个方式牵手

并不会更好过

可不可以不作你的朋友

慢慢心痛

没有人发现我和从前不同

你的眼中

看得见另一个人给的感动

我也不要你心疼我

在这个时候对我

比从前温柔

应该放晴的天气

还下雨别这样下去

我难过但是说不出口

一直逃避我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记

我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三

慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头

怎么走都走不到尽头

可不可以别回头

可不可以就放手

可不可以不作你的朋友

I think the words below suits min. haaa.

只要睁开眼睛

就有好风景

再不用苦苦等你

偶尔的好心情

这种简单的快乐

比玫瑰美丽

我相信伤心会慢慢痊愈

2005-12-22T06:17:00.000-08:00

Hmmm. Have been slacking around for practically like the whole day.. kian looked for me in the afternoon asked me go town.. but unfortunately, tian bu zuo mei.. raining. In the end, stayed at home.

Finally get myself down to settle some work. Though it wasnt really efficient.. haaaz. Think im going to fail. Had this bad feeling in me..

Nice weather. Nice mood. Ryhmes pretty well. haaa.

So yesterday, met up with weiting, weejia, fumin, dj and zhou peng for a game of badminton at woodlands. Pretty rough game with the guys. Initially i was playing with weejia and ting while fumin had nt arrived yet. And this weejia displayed biasness lor. Kept asking weiting to hit the shuttlecock while i had no chance at all, and giving the lame excuse that i should let weiting hit more since she's beginner? my foot. SHOULD BE FAIR OK. WEEJIA GET IT?

So i "jumped" over to join zhoupeng and dj. Really rough game they were playing.. dj really has got lots of strength.. im kind of scared of his "smacking". zhoupeng is known for his slyness. haaa!

Towards the end, there's this two guys who came to have a friendly match with zhoupeng and dj.. i must say these two anonymous guys were pro. Seemed like they were in some school team..

Then weejia and dj played against me and zhoupeng, real nice game. But too bad weiting kept urging us to go off. No choice got to stop our game.

Weejia, organise more of such games ok.. so that the chemical equation can be balanced off nicely. hmmm. if you know what im getting at.. =P

While i was online yesterday, i got to know that weejia and weiting were gossiping things behind my back!!! Not compaitable at all lo.. i look left look right dont see in any way we are compaitable. The two of them must have stamps over their eyes.. hahaaz! :)

Alright.. tmr most probably im going town to buy sth.. aha. Regretting nt buying it the other time i saw it.. so i shall buy tmr! Unfortunately, min's nt free, so i shall go alone. ahh.

That should be all baz.. heee.

2005-12-20T07:17:00.000-08:00

Reached home few hours ago.. and i think i must have aged.. my bones are killing me. Should go for a spine check up some day, kept on having backaches.. perhaps it's my standing posture bahz..

Met up with min at bugis to buy weejia's bdae prez first.. then choose ar choose, finally set upon this black tee.. i thought the pic in front looked cute. Then met up with weiting, dj, weejia, and xiuhua and seoul.. for a lunch. Made me feel so guilty, ohhhhh man.. i cant face the world anymore. Ate for like almost 3hrs.. shop around.. then took neoprints together.. funny. Went on to bugis street.. and bdae boy weejia kept complaining.. dont know complain what de.. just kept on urging us to go home.. then i told fumin that weejia cannot have a gf next time, if not that girl will surely voimit blood. weejia ar weejia.. ppl dj din even complain one word leh.. xun leh. =P

Stood all the way home in mrt.. legs breaking. Back aching. haaa..

Min bought this pair of shoes which i quite like.. fumin, listen. i hate u ok. hate u ok. haaa!!!

Tmr going woodlands play badminton.. hopefully with the usual ppl? hmm.. as weejia said, we gotta lose all the fats that we ate today at seoul tmr!!

Wanna watch tv le.. anyway, i agree shan hu hai is nice!!

Anyway weejia, i still insist that it's D I A M, not T I A M. HAHAHAAAA!!~

2005-12-18T06:54:00.000-08:00

Disappear for so many days.. so am blogging now cause' ive got the mood to do so. haaa.

Went for chalet on fri and sat.. But first 10 of us met up at cityhall for kbox first. Initially, we had planned that min, sixuan and me will have one room by ourselves..but who knows, when we stepped inside the room, dj and zhoupeng followed us. haha! Spent a good 15mins arguing with zhou peng to join the other group next door.. failed eventually. haaaa. Cant be crazy with min they all and shout all we can.. but nonetheless it was still fun, except that it was rather stressful, cause zhou peng sang till real nice. Me and min listen until very shuang. haaaz. :) Then sang f.i.r "wu xian" with weejia.. our fav song.. hahaz.. screamed until siao.. sang two times ok.. hahaa.. then while we were leaving, sang this song with zhoupeng.. screamed and screamed and he tried to hit my pitch. haaa.. result- lost his voice the next day. haaaaa!

After that proceeded on to chalet, i must really call this journey to the west.. the chalet was located sooooo far away. And imagine we were carrying all those heavy bbq stuffs with our heavy bags, walking allllll the way to the chalet. Many of us really felt like dying at that point of time. Hahaa. And yes, i told fumin it was like walking around orchard and somerset two times.hahaz.

Reached there finally, and it was totally different from what i had expected.. i dont like the toilet. Gives me a dirty feeling. Had bbq at night.. eat a little only.. then watched rainbow connections with many of the peeps and had a fun time discussing about it while we watched it.. oh ya.. weejia, u better watch out! Adulterous pair. haaaaa..

Went for cycling in the night with sel, zhou, dj, ghim, min, ting, jiahui and weiqiang.. fumin very mah fan.. gt to settle for the four wheels bicycle.. and i thought it was rather funny. haaa. looked cute. And fumin, you cycle so slow looo.. hai me cannot chiong. and i have got to cycle the slowest and stay at the back to look after you. but love me more ok. haaas.

Went back for a rest.. played daidee.. hahaz.. just learnt it. Very fun game.. addicted to it.. But the highlight is the heart attack.. many of us gather on the bed and played heart attack.. very exciting and scary.. and they played it real fast.. it's a game of speed and brain i think.. i havent got a chance to look at the card and i've got to pass it to the next person already.. screamed till siao.. and fumin kept hitting her own hand. hahaaaa. funny.

Got tired, slept for like one hr.. in a very awkward position.. legs very xin ku.. cant stretch out.. and it was sooo cold.. and im like wearing only a aj shorts.. imagine how cold i am.. not as fortunate as zhoupeng, he got a whole space by himself. slept until i can hear his breathing. so loud.. fumin even worse, snore somemore. In the midst of sleeping, i still could hear the mahjong sound. haaaa. one day im learning mahjong!

Next day.. many of them left..left only the 6 of us.. 4 guys 2 girls.. played pool in the afternoon. And i rmb at mac while we were eating lunch, weejia suddenly told me i looked better with short hair. And you know what weejia, i was really embarrassed at that time. I thought you were being sarcastic, and you looked so serious when you told me that. Cant stand your serious face. haaaa.

Decided to go home after that.. leaving 3 guys and 1 girl. Too tired le.. so decided to take a taxi with weejia and min to bedok mrt station. Went home.. watch some tv.. then at 9pm.. went j8 for shopping with mum cause it's opened till midnight.. sale going on.. and it was sooo crowded. Cant stand it.. but the clothes were really cheap. Reached home at around midnight..

Slept till 12.30pm the next day. haaaaa.. power right.. cant believe it too.. broke my record. Did some work.. but just couldnt get into the right mind and studying mood.. im dead.. so scared.. dont wanna return back to school and lead the stressful life.. haiz.

Went shopping again just now.. haaa.

Tues they going to bugis seoul celebrate weejia's bdae.. dont know if im going.. haiz. haiz. WEEJIA IM BROKE! BROKE! 3 for $10 slippers ok! haaaaa!!!!!

oh ya.. fumin ar. On the way back home in the mrt, min told me zhou peng really very nice. haaaaa! Does that mean sth? hmmm.

2005-12-09T06:21:00.000-08:00

Just read fumin's blog.. before i settle some stuffs with fumin, let me say something first.

Ok, so yes me and fumin had a really bad "quarrel" yesterday night over something.. and i decided to block her in msn, such that we wouldnt be able to talk in msn.. i know im so bad. But, i was in a really bad mood yesterday.. and then came mr DJ the nice man.. who spend almost 2hrs trying to be the middleman cum peacemaker. And that's when me and min finally got to know how we feel of each other. But im still rather unhappy yesterday.. Then this evening, she send me a sms asking me if i wanna talk over the phone and settle all the stuffs.. and i thought thrashing it all out on the phone would be kind of paiseh.. and i dont really know how to talk sweetly.. so i just said no.. then she sent me a very very long sms.. was quite touched. Right now, i guess we are fine le ba..

Ok, fumiN! wah i haven scold u ar.. u ordered me to write about the what lame 5 weird things about myself in my blog, and u choose dj me and weejia.. and the problem is who am i going to choose next! hahaa, i think i just ying chou ying chou a bit la hor.. just write about myself.. and nt choosing another 5 ppl. :)

ok.. so these are five weird and random facts about myself..

1) i dont like to sit in mrt trains.. haaaaz. Even if there are lots of seats on the train, i still would not choose to sit down.. and my favourite place to stand in the mrt is beside the door, against the glass pane.. yupps. Anybody who hangs out with me always would notice this ba. :)

2) Ok.. this is a secret of mine ok.. hahaaz.. you know ppl would normally sleep on the pillows right.. but im different ok, i sleep on the bolster instead.. cuz longer and more confortable.. hahaz.. and i will hug the pillow instead. It's the latest sleeping style i invented. haaaa.

3) Im very scared of hotness.. and if im outside and i feel very very hot, i will be very angry and impatient.. hahaz.. so ppl will have to tolerate with me cause i may start shooting many complains out.. ahaa. But dont be offended, cause im just feeling hot that's all!

4) I have this very bad habit of mine- i love to play with the collar tip of my uniform.. fumin also lor.. she likes to play with the button, such that the string loosened lo.. haaaa. i play until it has becomed black .. haaa. and fumin always likes to imitate my actions. This is a bad habit of mine since young.. when there's a collar, i will play with it de.

5) When you go out with me, i will always look at gothic and scary stuffs.. cause i find it interesting and fascinating.. i rmb whenever i went to parco bugis junction, there is this particular shop that sells the living dead dolls, and it's very scary.. the doll lying in the coffin, with her face all stiched up and blood all over.. and while others might find it scary, i find it very interesting and even thought of buying it, but in e end did not, cause it's quite expensive. Recently, got rather interested in this voodoo doll thingy.. it's actually a very small mummy.. all wrappe up in white, black or red bandage.. and then there's blood on it.. and some needles.. each type of doll have a special significance, if it's a love doll, at its chest, there will be a very small heartshaped cushion pinned down by a needle.. and it is believed that if what you had wished to the doll had come true, something on the doll would fall of.. for example if u wished for love.. and it was successful, the heart shaped cushion on the doll's chest would fall off.. and i heard of this story which is true.. haaaa be prepared.

There is this girl who likes this guy alot.. and so she bought this voodoo doll which i had just mentioned.. The type of doll she bought is the love voodoo doll, with the heart shaped cushion on its chest.. pinned down by a needle.. and after she bought it, she told the doll her wish- that is to be with the guy she likes. And that night, she met up with the guy and told him she likes him.. and it was successful. They were together.. and that night when she returned home, she saw that the heart-shaped cushion on the doll's heart had fallen off.. and what's scary is that before she left her house, the heart-shaped cushion was pinned down by the needle.. and it couldnt possibly fall off on its own..

Does it mean that this voodoo doll thing is actually... real?

Interesting right.. i love such stuffs. haaaz. mysterious. scorpio girls are like this. Mysterious. And this small little voodoo thing costs only between 9-15 bucks.. worth it. I want to buy eh.. but a little scared. haaa.

Fumin, i recommend this to u. haaaa.

Ok.. these are the 5 weird and random facts bout me..

That shall be all for today!

Anw, to dj.. thanks yesterday and today. Got a shock when i received your sms. :)

2005-12-08T07:21:00.000-08:00

Im in a very bad mood now.. somewhere in between sad and angry.

Now im going to vent it all out.

I really really feel regretful i do not cherish my sec sch friends. I really felt that no one understands me at all. I can only keep my troubles to myself.. the yuling in the day is not the yuling by night.. im completely different. I may seem a strong and cheerful girl in the day.. but by night, ive becomed a reserved and quiet girl who kept all her troubles to herself.. and would rather locked herself up in her room thinking of many stuffs..

I just dropped my tears. obviously very sad. I feel like standing by the sea and shout it all out. But, i doubt this day will come.

When will there be ever someone who has the same character as me, who shares the same thougths with me, who will always be there with me? When can i ever find such a friend like this?!

2005-12-08T06:14:00.000-08:00

HahAhhhaaaa.. wah im veryyyy tired.

Afternoon time met up with weejia and dj for a game of badminton at yck court.. but unexpectedly, the court is closed for renovation! Imagine our feelings at that point of time.. so sao xing. But nevertheless we went to yck cc.. and then there's no court.. so we proceeded to kebun bahru cc.. hahaz.. yes finally can settle down for a game. Hsien meng joined us for a game too. So it's a game of 3 guys with a girl that's me. haaa. But it doesnt matter. Weejia seemed to have lost his standard huh.. kept missing the ball. And i think playing with the guys is like a game of strength rather than just a pure game.. they played real rough ok. Esp dj, he smacked the ball so real hard..

Played for 2hrs.. then went home looo. And then read fumin's blog, she blogged she went to bugis street walk walk.. buy clothes.. and im rather disappointed that she did not ask me along, she would rather shop herself then be with me. so sad.

But at least, she's more fortunate than me. She's got her sec sch friends. what about me? i have nothing. Absolutely nth. I think, i must have been the most lonely creature on earth.

Have got a feeling she would always avoid me when i asked her for shopping or what..

Even her replies in msn seemed sian too.

Utterly disappointed. :(

2005-12-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

These few days am bored again. Cause im stuck at home, have been listening to music.. read up some notes.. read newsweek.. watch tv.. basically- rot. hahaz.

Afternoon time, received a sms by weejia- "hey tmr want to play badminton? i havent ask the others yet.." hahaz. was very very happy that i finally received a sms by someone else cause it's been such a long time since someone smsed me other than min.. aha. so i replied yea im ok.. So we be meeting at yck with dj and weejia for a game in the afternoon, joe may be joining us later.. this time must really sweat it all out and trash them all! wo gen ni men ping le!

Evening time went to the park for some running.. train myself for the 2.4km.. if not go back to school cant run. hahaaz.. luckily still maintain the same timing.. gotta train up more. :)

Realised time's been passing by real fast.. a few more weeks later and we got to return back to school! ohhh, is it good or bad? hah.. and we are going to be seniors! hahhhhhaaaa.. can bully ppl le.. hmmm. but of course, im nt that bad. but was just shocked by how time flies.. i still remembered so clearly when i first stepped in aj.. so scared, so inferior.. cause' everyone around me were from top schs.. but now, im becoming a senior! j2! hahaz..

Becoming older day by day..

Walked past my pri sch just now.. realised it's been soooo long since i ever stepped into that sch.. had really great memories over there. Used to be in the best class.. and i remembered my chinese teacher- yan lao shi.. yes.. same surname as salt.. hahaz.. she's very strict. And every evening in the assembly ground, she would always order us to stand in two very very very straight lines.. and no moving. not even moving the hands, we had to put our hands behind us.. and if we ever moved a little, she would look at us with her eyes, very scary. And the other teachers would always praise our class and asked the other classes to learn from us.. hahaz. But of course, they were being a little bias too.. and our class was always the first to leave the sch. So in conclusion, the best class always gets the best things. lol. =p

ok.. enough of the craps. hah.. that's the end for today!~

2005-12-05T04:23:00.000-08:00

My legs are so tired right now.. and i feel like dropping dead now. Feel like dashing into my room and have a good night sleep, but cant! Cuz im waiting for the 9pm show. hahaz..

Anyway.. we had out SL today at woodlands childcare centre.. where we were supposed to take care of 9 kids and take them out to have fun. Hahaz.. i must say it's enjoyable, really fun and a good experience with the kids too! Initially, me, fumin and joe were kind of scared how we were going to handle the kids.. so scared they would find us boring. But, after knowing them and playing along with them, i find them so cute pure and innocent! Really cute, and at that point of time i really felt like having a child myself. hahaz.. nt those playful and hyper type, but i prefer the gentle type.

Initially when the kids stepped out of the carecentre, me and fumin had already set our eyes on this very very cute guy called jun hao.. his actions and looks very cute, and when the kids were allocated to different groups, me and fumin kept "praying" that he would be in our group, and when he really was being allocated to our group, the two of us shouted out yes! hahaz..

Our group's kids really very hyper.. played ice and water, catching, hide and seek for ice breaking.. too hyper le.. i run until so tired le they still wana play. But they made me think of my childhood memories. Somehow wished i had been them. Wouldnt it be so good?

The youngest kid is just 7 yrs old and he's such a small little boy. hahaz.. the oldest is 12 yrs old and even taller than me! oh my god. Nt bad la.. but i see him mingle around with the smaller kids a little ke lian. I like the sweet girl jia en.. the fuchun pri cute guy jun hao.. the bigger in size shi jie.. and the girl who wasnt very happy initially and a little soft spoken too- xuan yan..

That junhao, whom i loved most.. kept clinging on to joe lor.. made me so jealous, hahaz.. he rather hold hands with joe than me lor.. dunno why he like him so much, like him soooo much until he kept holding his hands. Some other guys like him too. i think they can call joe "papa" le la. and i think he looked rather like their father. hahaaaa! And one kid even got the audacity to say i be mother. what joke!

Kids are nice, cute.. and i changed my opinion on kids since my day with the kids today. Though they are too hard to control and handle.

I feel so old! We are like almost 10 yrs older than them.. by the time they reached 17, we are already 27 le! hahaaz.. young little peeps. will miss them. Luckily some pictures were taken.. :)

Mr loh told us a sad news today.. haiz.. that he would not follow up with us next yr... arhhh.. like him so much yet he's leaving us after he's been with us for only like 4-5 months.. haiz. Next yr pdg tutor will be miss yeo.. dunno whether i should be happy or not.

Weejia suggested having kbox before going to chalet on the 15th? or 16th? hahaaz.. good idea. :)

Gonna be sian again. Blaaah.

2005-12-03T07:14:00.000-08:00

Hi! Hahaz.. just came back from orchard with my mum.. lots of sale going on over there, and the clothes there are relatively cheap, within budget i should say.

hmm, firstly went to far east plaza.. just the level 1 alone is enough to break my legs. So many shops, with nice clothings.. but all not my style and type de.. i think i should learn to put on some make-up and wear some even more revealing clothes and stop "packaging" myself in all those tops that will safely cover my broad shoulders.. i saw how some other people who are physically bigger wore tops that are really revealing, and i always seemed to wonder where they gathered all their courage from.. i mean, dont they feel uncomfortable? dont they feel paiseh? perhaps i think too much, like what my mum always say.. she kept urging me to wear more sleeveless tops and even halters! And i would always answer her this, "it's too revealing.. and my shoulder so broad, wear like this nt nice de..", and she would always say this, "you are not fat, it's just that your bones are bigger and shoulders broader, so you should just be brave enough to wear more revealing stuffs.." After much thought, i thought what she said made sense.. im seventeen.. going on eighteen ten months later.. and i should learn to doll myself up! yes, ive made up my mind. im gonna be a different me! hahaz..

Mum told me to find a boyfriend in university asap.. hahaz.. shen jing.. this kind of thing goes by feeling de. And somemore, those guys in uni are all ang-moh type de.. and i cant communicate well with other ppl in eng! hahaa. fumin, if ever one day you are becoming a nun, give me a call ok. i will go with you. set. :/ Dont even know if i can squeeze my way into uni. haiz..

I always rmb jiahui and me having this conversation on being an old virgin, and that we will nt get married cuz no one wants us.. hahaz.. if she cant find her soul mate, then i can forget it too. so fumin, dont worry. there's still me here. but seriously speaking, im kind of worried about my future.. i havent got the least idea what my future life would be like.. but somehow i've got this feeling that it wont go too smoothly. am i being too paranoid? maybe...

Time's passing by so fast, im getting older.. everything around me is ageing.. i wished there's this pill that can make me stay a baby forever, where i dont have to worry about things around me..

There's too much to worry. And i know i shouldnt worry.

Saw this thing just now.. and this is what it says of me.

You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there! You are respected by others. You were however very naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model for everyone.

I think it's true, but not the part where i often got beaten up by parents and involved in fights and suffering lots of injuries ok.. the others are really true i think.

Another day gone. What have i done? Absolutely nothing.

Disappointed in myself. True disappointment.

2005-11-30T06:39:00.000-08:00

Not much of a day today.. but time really flies i realized. Met up with fumin at 1.10pm at causeway pt.. but who knows this girl here was late. yes L A T E. Late. And this girl here basically knows very well i hate late comers, and this girl here is obviously out to make me furious, cause' she is late for 15mins, and what's more, her reason for being late is because she's eating lunch.??? You could have eaten your lunch earlier!! Mad.

But after that she accompanied me to espirit to try out that skirt i liked so much.. and thanks min for helping me to ask for the size. :) hahaz. cheers. i loved the skirt so much eh.. but too bad. ar just too bad... hah! The jeans also nt bad.

So after that we met up with the other peeps in our class and then proceed on to the woodlands park, where we got to familiarize with the surroundings.. so that everything would go out smoothly on monday.. i hope. i cant stand noisy kids.. hahaz.. so fumin, the kids are yours ok.. i cant handle them.

Was a hot yet windy day.. nt long after.. we were dismissed.. by our leader seok. hahaaaz.. I reached home, had a bath and sat down while i checked out my handphone.. it was only then i saw dj's msg- "hey want pool? haha". i looked at the time and realised it was like an hr ago.. hahaz.. i guess he msged me when i was walking to marsiling mrt.. but somehow i din noticed it at that time. aww paiseh.. hahhaaa. And ya dj, first time huh, without him. hahaaz..

Yups.. so watched tv.. watched tv.. heard weejia talked about his so-called "wonderful" holiday life.. can empathise with him.. cause' it applied to me too.. hahaaz.. hi-5!

Tml, helping my bro to deposit the money.. so troublesome. grrr..

2005-11-29T06:25:00.000-08:00

Im back in action now.. after one day or two days of "not blogging".. since im so free now might as well sit down in front of my com and start training my typing skills.. hahaz.

Yeps.. quite a day today. Met up with seok weijing and min for harry potter movie.. actually i wasnt interested in any of harry potter's movies at all.. so is fumin.. but since i am so free, ya might as well go watch.. hahaz. And it was nice! But some people advise me not to watch cause' i heard it's nt really that nice.. well, at least to me, i thought it was nt bad, what's more.. many shuai ges (in the movie ok..) also. Nt bad. i would rate a 7.5/10 for this movie.

And fumin, we three decided to share the lover's popcorn together.. in the end???! u ate like almost half of it lor! And leaving barely the other half for me and weijing.. what is this?

Ok.. so obviously after we caught the movie me and fumin were hungry.. and got to find a place to settle our lunch.. we decided for yoshinoya at first.. after we eliminated jack's place.. butttttt............. because of fumin's cravings for sushi againnnn, we decided to settle at sakae. yes. again. awww fumin you are giving me trouble once again.. if any thing untowards were to happen to me you are dead ok.

After that feeling so tired, we went on our separate ways and went home.. was so tired i took a half hr nap.. and after this blogging.. im going in my room to read up on the storybook i've borrowed le.. this book is very interesting.. i love "crime" books.

Hmmm.. tomorrow going to causeway point again.. for the SL thing.. i think kids will be afraid of me baz.. hahas. dry run. oo?

Dont know why.. but i feel like going Genting.. i like the feeling in Genting.. so cold.. so beautiful.. so fun. i like the feeling of being so high up..!

Yeass tmr morning going to play badminton with kian.. hope it doesnt rain.. if not i cant play!! i want to get rid of what i had eaten today!!~

2005-11-25T16:48:00.000-08:00

I spent almost an hour trying to blog out everything yesterday and it was all ruined in just a minute by the stupid internet connection fault.. i couldnt save what i blogged and everything's just gone, made me so pissed off yesterday night.

Tuesday.. Dad's new car arrived. However it was an unfortunate day.. why? Cause on that unfortunate day when my dad's new car arrived, he was obviously happy. And when he reached home, he told my mum happily that the new car was very nice to drive.. but, on that unfortunate day, my mum wasnt in the best of moods cause' she have just had a quarrel with my brother that morning.. so she replied back in a seemingly crude manner and tone that she wasnt interested. At that point of time, i really felt like shouting out at her cause i cant accept her kind of behaviour.. i mean, yes she can and have the right to be angry.. but not to extent of venting her anger on my dad.. that's basic manners.. right.. sometimes i just dont like her temper.

Wednesday.. sat on the new car for the very first time.. felt very happy.. and my brother drove me around.. cool!

Thursday.. that was yesterday.. went playing tennis with my bro.. hahaz.. imagine playing tennis at 12 noon when the sun was shining the brightest.. luckily i had my sun block on.. if not im going to join the people in africa or india soon.

And fumin.. i saw mei nan zi playing tennis at yck court eh! hahaz.. i told my bro he is ajc's mei nan zi.. and he said he looked more like a sissy to him!! He's so beautiful, dont you agree?

Friday.. that is today.. nth much. just another normal day.. read up on the storybook i had borrowed a few days ago.. and i thought this book was nice.. the way it kept me in suspense attracted me. hahaz..

Yesterday PSLE results were released.. that malay top scholar could speak in fluent english.. his english was great.. i thought it was even better than me when i was in p6..

Somehow i felt that i had just received my PSLE results only last yr.. the memories of me taking my PSLE result slips was still etched in my mind so cleary.. i remembered i was so nervous that day i couldnt even talk to my friends around me.. my mum wasnt there to see me take my results.. wheares the back of the hall was fully crowded with other anxious parents.. then when i suddenly turned my head over, i saw my mum.. she told me she had taken half a day off cause she's worried about me. And with that, i recieved my result slip.. though i may not do as well as my other classmates, but for a child like me at that time, i felt no more than happy.. i was very very happy.. i did not expect myself to do well(at least to me, i thougt i did well enough).. i had expected something worse after i did my psle exam..

I could still remember that time just after my maths psle exam paper.. i cried.. such that the principal had to bring me to his office while my mum rushed over.. and the principal told me mum that i thought the maths paper was very difficult and that i would not do well.. and he even told my mum that as an em1 student, i must be facing a lot of stress such that it made me cry.. but, i really thought the paper was soo difficult!!

After the exam, i couldnt stop brooding over it..i totally had no confidence in my sci and maths at all.. sci was my worse subject in pri sch.. hahaz.. and i thought i could be posted to some other lousy sch which i dont like since the cut off point for my last choice of school was quite high.. but nonetheless, i did well in the end..

However when i was posted to PHS, i wasnt happy. Instead i got really sad and angry at the same time.. simply because i thought this school was really lousy. hahaz.. and it proved me wrong.. it's good. A place that fond memories existed..

HAhaz.. end of my history. hahahaaz..

Anyway, thanks fumin for helping with my blogskin.. it's a pity u do not know how to put in the music!~

This year's white christmas.. i think im spending it all alone.. again. i guess in all my seventeen years.. i have never been out on a celebration during christmas day.. perhaps only on the eve.. but not during christmas day itself.. sad huh. hahaz.. What is supposed to be a happy and cheerful festival seems like a lonely occasion to me.

Miss my parents reaching home early.. mummy kept working out late these days.. due to the festives.. miss her cooking somehow.. im sick and tired of "da-baoing" outside food le.. and finally she's coming home to cook today!, dont need to da bao le!

2005-11-21T23:14:00.000-08:00

Feelin' rather bored right now.. had been rotting at home for the past few days.. wanted so badly to shop around but realised i havent got any friends who loves shopping.. most of them are either working or im not familiar with or dont even like shopping at all.. and a small grp could be muggin? oh gosh.. what has my life become? im like wasting my precious time away.. with no friends to hang out with.. wasting my precious seventeen.. arh!

Right now im staring at my laptop now.. admiring the beautiful night scene outside my brother's room window.. thinking bout loads of things which i shouldnt be worrying at all.. oh wad crap am i talking bout.. wadeva.. im going to be crazy any moment.. so ppl pls get ready. reserve a place for me at the asylum.. grade A type. ok?

Have been worrying bout many things lately.. having endless sleepless nights.. perhaps i worry too much.. and it's weighing a ton in my heart. im worry at the slightest things.. worry at things tt people might find it trivial.. and it keeps me from being as cheerful as before.. i think somehow im not the girl as before.. many things have changed.. though i still laugh and smile at the slightest things.. but somehow it's all different.

I have this particular friend who is very optimistic about life.. she's forever this cheerful even if the whole world were to collapse onto her suddenly.. i once asked her how did she managed to be so cheerful despite all those stress and problems.. and she told me this, "Life is short, you have only one chance to live, and u are lucky.. so why not just cherish what u have and stop worrying about trivial stuffs? every problem has got a solution.. let it take its course.. one day, the problem will be solved. Time is precious, i will not allow myself to be saddened by things, in fact, i will be cheerful no matter what.. Do what u firmly believe is right.. and there will be no regrets. "

I heard what she said.. and i thought she made sense.. but, i just cant get myself to stop worrying bout little things. perhaps, i should learn to give things up and taking things not so seriously..

people, if u are free. jio me out. i need some space out dere.. i just want to get away from my house.

Perhaps gg to woodlands library tmr.. borrow some books.. read. and walk around ba. Poor me, that's how i lead my "beautiful" life..

2005-11-19T01:06:00.000-08:00

Had a fun day out wid 4gracians.. proud of em all.. rather tired now.. but just cant get down to sleep.. so decided to blog the happenings today.. if not i will nt blog anymore.. hhaas..

Yesterday whole night kept thinking of whether i should go for the bbq outing anots.. think for the whole night.. in the end decided to go.. since my mum and fumin kept bugging me to go.. then thought of the "socializing with more people, in the future will be good for me in terms of business or people relations" theory.. so decided to go lo..

Initially meeting up with despina and wanxuan at pasir ris mrt so that we could go together to pasir ris park de.. then they called me at 5.45 telling me that they will be very late.. and cuz it's because my dad send me there.. so wx asked me to go by myself first.. so i went myself.. found the bbq pit 1 (luckily.. cuz the park was so big..) and sat down at d bench.. and yanshuang told me that i looked better with short hair. After like 10mins or so, ervin came up to me and say, "eh u come already ar?" And i was like, "uh-huh.. it's like for rather long le.." then bryan asked the same qn too.. and i answered back with the same answer. hahas..

Noticed many ppl have changed.. nt in terms of characters.. but more in looks.. all have become shuai ges and mei nus le.. hahas.. really really. hahas.. it's only today tt i realised that my ex classmates are actually so handsome and pretty. wow, good catch! ahas..

Talk with huida for some time while des and wx hadnt arrived yet.. heard he tio gang fight with a grp of about 20 ppl..hahas.. saw his plaster at the side of his head.. and he told me he gt boxed by a gang after finishin eating cake.. and i didnt believe it initially.. till zhong yan they all say is real then i believe de.. the gang even asked them "hun na li de?" hahas.. then in e end they box huida they all lor.. so funny. after tt went to police station. hahahahaa cute. and heard zhong wei faked death. hahaha!!!! DAT was so funny.

Des and wx came only like when the sky's gg to be dark.. crap alot.. laughed alot.. stanley and jootat also came.. wah stan become like more n more handsome day by day. hahahas.. then wx told me she know i have gt this friend in aj called fumin.. and she says she thinks fumin is a very interesting person.. hahahahas.. fumin u are famous!!!

Then they began talking abt promos stuffs.. grades all tt.. and everyone was shooting at me like siao.. bev said this, "ar typical ajcian la.. A A A.. one B! can go die. haha" , and weixin said this, "how many As u gt?", alvin lim even more funny, said "wah everytime i walked past ur sch, i dont even dare to look up.." this is too "kua zhang" le la.. as in.. when u have stayed in aj long enough.. u would think that it's actually nth.. just another sch.. not much of a difference..

Many asked me how is Aj, and i said it was hell. hahs.. they asked me why.. and i said cuz there's alot of stress and nerdos mugging around.. i mean, it's true!

Throughout the talk, many somehow discriminate me by calling me a typical ajcian. hahas.. wonder how i gt this nickname..

Many of my exclassmates did well for their promos.. making me so stressed up now.. cuz im competing against them for Alevels..they said phy was easy.. i totally dont agree. it was hell difficult.. regret nt taking econs. haix..

And.. many thought they had seen a ghost when they saw me.. hahas.. cuz they thought i looked rather like sheryl. was it? how come i din notice tt? chah kept saying i should look up more.. cuz i really looked like sheryl . stan and tat also gt a shock when they saw me.. hahas.. i dont wanna be a sheryl-lookalike! hahahas..

had a fun time bbq-ing.. though i din eat much.. most of e time was just drinking.. paid 13 bucks for drinks.. sausages.. satays.. and chicken wings.. though it's a little ex.. but i dont mind. hahas.. bonding ma.. so im fine with it de..

Around ten plus decided to go home.. while waiting for the bus to go pasir ris interchange.. ian showed us some magic tricks.. it was really amazing! amazing till me wanxuan and des just looked at him. shocked. it was so reaaal! guess he used thesemagic tricks often to lure pretty girls/? hahas..

Reached interchange le.. dunno which bus to take.. wanted to take 39.. but i thought no one was taking it.. so was a little confused.. cuz left me alone with the guys.. and one or 2 girls.. think was jac and chah.. then realised shawn benny weixin and eugene are taking 39 also.. so go with them lo.. imagine one girl with 4 guys! hahaa.i felt rather paiseh and out of place actually..

Shawn benny weixin and eugene decided to go shawn's place play land or sth ba.. then moses that clique im nt so sure. On the way to the bus stop, eugene asked this silly qn, "eh u one girl with 4 guys.. nt scared that u tio gang-raped ar?" And i laughed at it and said no la! Benny said this, "wah lao eugene.. only u this type of person then think of such things lor.. we protect her hor!" ya eugene is really very pervert manz..

Benny asked me abt some jc stuffs.. we had very different views on the level of difficulty of physics.. he thought it was easy, while i tot otherwise. then on the bus, we 5 sat together and weixin shawn n eugenne began talking abt their lives in sp.. heard them say until so fun.. and me and benny was like, "huh.. whats tt?" felt to out of place. so talked a little bout jc stuffs.. heard poly was fun. but if i were given a chance to choose again, i will choose jc still. no reasons why. hahas.

Reached khatib finally.. walked all alone from the bus stop to my house in the dark.. first time so late went home.. or rather second time? the first time was sec 4 prom night tt day ba.. luckily dad waited for me at the void deck.. if nt i will nt dare to walk alone to the lift and take lift by myself. hahaas..

yupps.. so im here blogging now. with nth to do. im getting so bored during these hols.. come on someone jio me out ba.. be it kbox or pool or wad. i don mind! HaHaHaaa..

Overall, the outing was fun.. should organised more of such activities! great!

想你天国的阶梯

2005-11-17T21:39:00.000-08:00

This is my favourite korean song.. the lyrics.. it's supposed to be in korean.. This is the lead song of tv serial Stairways to Heaven..

想你天国的阶梯
无论等待多久都无法再靠近你像傻瓜般哭泣的你的身边只能带给你伤痛的我为何还要傻傻等待想你想你痛恨我自己想哭你跪着求我能忘掉所有的一切在记忆中曾经那么疯狂爱过你当试着用记忆寻找再也不想用爱来绑住你明知道不能这样就像生不如死的折磨想你想你痛恨我自己想哭为了你好我只有选择离开在记忆里曾经那么疯狂爱过你当试着用记忆寻找再也不想用爱来绑住你明知道不能这样就像生不如死的折磨直到身处天堂才有办法遗忘

The best gift on earth..

2005-11-16T21:14:00.000-08:00

Ever wondered what was the best gift you have ever received since the day you were born? Guess no one would ever be bothered in thinking about this right.. i gave it a thought, and decided that the best gift on earth would be my parents' love.. The love that our parents gave us since the day we were born could never be replaced by anything no matter what, even if we were to disobey them so often.. even if we were to ignore them at times.. or even retaliate back when they scold us for some minor stuffs.. the love they gave us.. is the most noble and true-est thing on earth.. no doubt.

They will always be there for us whenever we need them, whenever we are down. They are the pillars of our life.. they are the reason why im here today.. they took good care of us.. making sure we had everything we wanted.. nurturing us into what we are today.. taking care of our daily needs.. yet, without even a word of regret..

But, why do we still find ourselves grumbling and complaining about our parents being ignorant to our needs.. and even to the extent of wishing that we have had no parents at all?

Life's too short to always grumble about our parents neglecting us.. and not giving us what we wanted. i mean, come on, lets be realistic and face up.. we all know that our parents have already live for perhaps more than half of their life.. how long can they still be with us? how long can they still provide for us? Perhaps this is cruel, sad, but that's what the real world is.. isnt it?

I used to always grumble about my parents being biased towards my bro.. and complaining about not getting what i desired.. but, little did i know that i am actually considered very blessed.. considering that there are many people out there who doesnt even have a home.. who still have to worry about their meals.. whose parents do not even care for them..

My mindset changed when i witnessed life and death at that point of time.. i saw how people died.. suddenly. without even a notice.. i realised that life is indeed fragile.. and that the person you loved the most who's just beside you today could be gone tomorrow.. or even a split seconds later.. forever. Forever, means not being able to see them for life..

This, made me set my mind on doing something that i would like to do now.. i want to cherish the people around me, and what i have now.. i want to spend more time with my parents, understand them more.. or else, i might regret.

I went for an interview for a job some days ago.. and i realised how the working life is.. full of competitions.. i saw how only the strongest will stay.. and i suddenly felt like i do not want to grow up.. i want to be always a small girl.. always there with my parents.. i do not want to face the real cruel world.. i want to remain what i am now..

So, why not just live everyday to the fullest, and stop worrying about trivial stuffs.. whenever there's a problem, there's bound to be a solution.. life's precious.. if you have always wanted to do something, do it right now.. or else there might not be a chance anymore..

A small gesture like treating our parents to lunch or dinner might make them happy.. even if it's nt in a posh restaurant.. im sure they will be very happy.. dont forget, they are the ones who slog hard to nurture into what you are today..

2005-11-11T22:25:00.000-08:00

Realised it's been a week since i ever blogged.. hhas. have been very lazy lately.. dont really feel like blogging though there are many happenings..

hmms.. ive cut my hair short. yes this time short.. cant even tie le. sads. will miss all my nice n cute rubber bands n clips.. and ive dyed my hair too.. looked real obvious cuz many ppl noticed it. even mr loh noticed it. hahahas.. but no one really care ba. i mean it's normal right..

then.. had oral presentation examination yesterday.. oh my god.. made me soo nervous till im like shivering while giving my part of the speech lo.. i can even hear my voice trembling.. and some words werent pronounced clearly. and i think i went too fast. hahas.. somehow i feel i was very "dao" when i walked past to where i should stand to give my speech.. hahas.. act cool. act confident. act proud. but right in my heart im soooooo real nervous. and so many eyes were looking at me.. gosh. Q & A's also very scary.. and i made a very big mistake ok.. i said sth like "chicken flu", when it's supposed to be "bird flu".. and the whole class was laughing at me eh.. and the worst thing is i dont know what they were laughing at! hahahas.

fumin pang seh me yesterday. u get it?

had tennis training today.. sdl. coach din come.. very boring. play by ourselves. then went home after tt..

wanted to go causeway pt borrow some books for reading de.. but in e end gave up the idea cuz was too lazy.. and besides im all alone. hahaas.

bored at home. holidays all e way. yet so many hold assignments..

hmm.. think im gg to blog sth formal leta on.. write it down noe in case i forgot to. hahahas..!

having an og meeting on thurs.. gg to somerset play pool.. promised them i will be gg.. but. hais.. still considering..

2005-11-02T22:45:00.000-08:00

oh it's been a long time since i ever blogged..

back to mon.. having a holiday cuz the other ajcians hafta take AO chi A level exam.. while our class basically dun haf to.. ya as u all know la, higher chi last time. hah.
heard d paper was alrite.. think fumin shudnt worry too much given her capability.. an A shud be a chicken feet for her.

Have faith!~

so throughout d whole of monday, i just practically stayed at home and rot.. did maths tutorial numerical methods.. but i do d first qn already i want to puke.. dun even noe how to do finish the whole qn.. so i decided ti give up after one qn. but i managed to finish watching the vcd fumin lent me.. winter sonata. very touching.. and what's more.. bao yong jun is soooo shuai!@~

and then tuesday.. DEEVAPALI......! hahahahas.. stayed at home do nth.. did chem hol assignment.. almost done.. left with two more topics. hais. there's so much work to do even after promos.

late afternoon went out with family to buy laptop. bro kept pestering my mum.. in e end she decided to buy. then go sim lim bought one lo.. nt bad la. quite like it. but very nt used to using a laptop all of a sudden. haha. shall use back my old one instead..

then today.. back to sch for op rehearsal.. mr loh gave me exceeding expectation again. hahas. but seriously i think i did a bad job. whatever it is, just give in my best shot can le.. after sch.. gt pestered by weejia fumin weiting dj they all to go kbox.. wah pestered until in e end i finally relented. go with them lo.. on one condition.. me and fumin have to be in another separated room. and ya so in e end it's me and fumin in one room, then dj weiting weiqiang dj and joe in another room..

quite fun.. me n fumin sang till like ghosts. shout here scream dere.. and occasionally weejia and duojie will come in to ka chiao us.. then weiqiang will come in to dance some weird stuffs. hahas.. weird ppl they are.

and what makes a deep impression in me is my duet with weejia! we sang a duet on F.I.R- wu xian. wah we made the best duet on earth for that song.. mind u, for tt particular song only ok. hahas. best partner. rap and sing sooooo wel tt ppl were laughing like mad ok. hahas. and i think me n dj sang duet on S.H.E's song nt bad. hahahhaaaaa.

today i gt to noe how fumin sang.. with her "false voice". sounds like mickey mouse man. hahas.. and we both have gt a bad hbit while singing. fumin u shud noe rite.. the high voice suddenly turn low voice thing.. hahas..

fri set gg to play badminton after sch at yck court. hahas. i think im more keen on playing tennis instead. hahahas.

now im broke. i still owe mr dj 15 bucks for kbox. man. and one thing mr dj, ive gt no money ok. despite the 100 bucks. hahasss..

oh ya forgot to add.. today.. caused fumin to trip over at the escalator.. and her knee cap bled alot.. really alot.. left me feeling so guilty.. shudnt have asked u to run so tt we can board tt train.. shud haf waited for another train.. :)

2005-10-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. what should i blog today? start with thursday baz..

basically thursday is my bdae lo. nth big. hahas. but at least better than i was in secondary sch baz.. cuz there's this two particular crazy girls- that is weiting and jiahui, who kept shaking my hands and telling me happy bdae. weiting even more crazy, bdae already over le she still tell me happy bdae. hahas. siao le la. study AO chi study till crazy.

i think havng bdae on a weekend in sch is very paiseh. hahas.. dunno why, just felt paiseh lo.. sixuan drew me a card, very nice, looked really like a real card.. then she asked ppl to sign. then my clique gave me my prez. fumin said there's this very "jing bao" prez in the bag.. and i thought they were out to trick me. so i was very very careful when taking out the very "jing bao" prez.. and i was very shocked when i saw it. shocked until i laughed n laughed till i can die at the spot man. damn funny. AND THANKS FUMIN ANYWAY FOR UR WONDERFUL PIC!!! hahaz.. it's a candle. and on d cover, was fumin's face, making a "kissing" expression.. yeeks! hahaz.

had op training in d late afternoon.. very very very nervous. mr loh said i was very unnatural, shud smile more. and a lil stiff.. haiz.. if u wan me to smile all the way throughout d presentation, then i think i will be much more fake ar! hahas.

after that had tennis training.. fun and fun. cuz PT was very easy. coach decided to go easy on us. man coach very bias. threw the two balls so far apart so that i had to run faster. i shouted out "wah!" and he told me he knew i culd run. hahaha. then continued by saying he's a runner himself too.

anyway.. i was very surprised that the first person to wish me happy bdae was actually kian. hahax. nt that kian in aj la. it's my neighbour instead. hahs.. thanks anyway. second was jiahui. best tuition mate. hahas.

fri.. very happy day.. had op presentation again.. hahas.. this time better. but i thought this time was actually worse than thurs.. but nevertheless, i tried to smile sometimes and act confident.. in e end mr low actually gave me an exceeding expection.. saying i was somewhat confident and looked pleasent when i smiled. hahas.. flattered. was actually so scared inside.
dunno how i am gg to die for Q&A that actual day. haix.

after sch.. met up with mum and bro to dine out.. mum treating us since it's my bdae.. actually decided to meet up at somerset mrt de.. cuz wanna go eat at "ba li shui jing hai sian"- paris crystal buffet.. then bro suggested gg to kublai khan mongolian restaurant eat buffet instead. nt bad. just that it's so expensive. i feel a lil xin tong for my mum. shud have just ate sth simple. daddy gave me hundred bucks as my prez. and i gladly took it. hahas.

bro wan to buy a laptop. wan me to contribute 40 bucks every month for installment. still considering his idea. hahas.

heard there's gg to be a 4Grace chalet somewhere in d middle of nov.. and then another chalet by our class on dec 15, 16, 17.. looking forward to both of d chalets!~

gt pestered by dj and weejia to go kbox with dem.. i really wan eh. but i just culd nt muster up d courage to sing in frnt of u guys.. wonder why fumin can.. thought she's more timid than me de.. perhaps its because it's my first time.. ya.. so tt's why i felt nth but just paiseh. maybe if it's just me weejia fumin and duojie gg kbox.. then i will agree to go lo. hahas. weejia, heard that?!~

2005-10-26T20:55:00.000-07:00

NE day today. which basically means, a lame day. Initially, i thought today would be a very lame day.. but after today.. i thought it was quite fun. hahas.

Went out on an excursion today.. first stop at the museum.. just a short walk. then next stop was the labrador's park.. where we went there to see the greenary and oil refinary or reclaimed land thing.. then after that move on to padang.. took two class pics.. in the rain. woo, romantic huh. hahas. Then to this taoist temple and indian temple.. ok la.. quite a fruitful and fun day i must say. but one thing i must say is.. next time i dont want to sit with fumin le.. throughout the whole trip kept telling me how hungry she was. omg. cant stand it! and kept banging into matthew also. hahas.. i know u are embarrassed. dont deny that~

came back to sch.. ate lunch.. then slept at the reading room till time's up.. then headed for the racism talk by mr loh.. after that had a S cube talk in d audi.. quite fun. realise army is soooo fun. hahass.. if girls can go army then wouldnt it be so fun?!

tmr my bdae eh.. but still have OP presentation till 5!! im so scared. so scared i fumbled over my words.. and im worried i would nt be able to answer mr loh's Q&A qns. omg. i need some sedative pills. after OP im still having tennis training! AR. so shack..
initially gg to have dinner with bro n mum tmr de.. but in e end postphoned to fri.. fri alsont bad la. can eat till late late. and what's best is, mum is treating! hahahaha!~

suddenly feel like k-boxing now. but still, i cant get rid of the "paiseh-ness" in me. hahas.

2005-10-23T20:40:00.000-07:00

Long time since i ever blog le.. hahas.. anyway.. had a very very fun friday's night out with liting kexin chung ying fumin and weiling.. very fun.. i think they are the real true friends i have made so far.. we just click so well.. cant find any words to describe.

Fri we met at marina bay station.. very happy when we saw liting and weiling.. long time neva see them le.. went to eat steamboat at zhen fa huo hai xian.. wah the fumin really very crazy.. put so much oil.. then kept on sizzling.. at me somemore.. very painful eh. then cy suggested a very funny yet effective solution.. she use a "dao pok" so that it can suck the oil in. hahaz.. clever mans. saw my pri sch fren there also.

After that in d bus the whole group was crazy.. taking pics in the bus.. and i could see many of the passengers were looking at us. hahaz.. then liting suggested we went town to take neoprints.. and we all jumped at the idea. Then at town.. there was this poster of jacky chan.. making a very funny pose.. then me and fumin each stand by the side and make the same pose.. and asked kexin to snap our photo.. haha. Siao le la our whole clique. Took very funny neoprints with funny pose. docorate until like ghosts. haha.

Play till quite late.. because i had a bad stomachache.. so i said sth very funny to them and then bade them farewell. hhaz.. i heard what i said made cy lauged like mad rite. too bad la.

anyway on fri.. heard that there were 20 plus ppl retained for our batch.. one gt expelled if im nt wrong.. but too bad le.. kian gt expelled. cant see shuai ge anymore le.. hahas.

im gg to watch show now.. nt free!

so cya!

Oh man recently set my eyes on the crumbler bag. im going to buy it (if i can bring myself to buy it!) hahaz.

2005-10-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

ok i am blogging sth which i thought was funny now. Fumin kept bugging me to blog..

Main characters are: Fumin, Wee Ji, Matthew, Yuling.

Here is the story..

Fumin and Weejia are childhood friends and they have known each other since young. Weejia have always liked fumin, but fumin treat weejia as only a best friend..One day in class, there came this new boy called matthew.. after days of being together, they fell in love with each other..

On the eve of christmas eve, when matthew was supposed to meet up with fumin, matthew was involved in a car accident.. fumin was very sad that matthew did not turn up.

The next day in sch, fumin got to know that matthew had died in the car accident.. and she was very sad. Weejia came to console her.. However, fumin was still deep in love with matthew.

Yrs passed, and fumin and weejia became a couple.. then came the time where they are about to get married.. However, on the day of their engagement ceremony, fumin saw someone on the street that looked really like matthew.. and she was shocked.. so she began to follow the guy.. But just as she was following him, she lost sight of him.. so she returned back to the hotel where she was supposed to be engaged to weejia..

Weejia was very relieved when he saw fumin appearing at the hotel.. he had been very worried about her.. but, just as weejia was about to ask fumin, she fainted.

Unknowingly, fumin began working for "matthew".. she cried at the first sight of him.. because she had missed matthew so much. But matthew, oblivious to what is happening, did not care so much..

Fumin knows in her heart that "matthew" is not the real matthew.. because his character is completely different as matthew.. except for his looks..

"Matthew" is the boyfriend of yuling.. and yuling, knowing that fumin still loves matthew, kept thinking of ways to make fumin jealous..

"matthew" knows it.. and he broke up with yuling.. then got to have a better impression of fumin..

"matthew" began to fall in love with fumin.. and fumin, knowing that she does not love weejia at all, decided to break up with weejia.

weejia was very sad and he forced fumin to be with him..

Being very sad.. Fumin decided to be with weejia.. and she told "matthew" this, "You have already possessd sth which is very precious to me- my heart."

ok i havent watch finish this show.. will continue after i have finished watching! hahaz..

to be continued ar..

any.way.. i noe that "matthew" is the real matthew afterall.. cuz he lost his memory after the accident.. he did not die at all..

this is the show of winter sonata.. also known as dong ji lian ge.. ya.

2005-10-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

It seemed as if my muscles are cracking soon.. that my whole body had lost so much energy that i am gg to collapse at any moment. hahas.. all thanks to the badminton game today..

Farewell assembly for our principal Mr Tan.. sad to see him take his leave.. though the time together is short, but somehow just miss ba.. was quite shocked of the performance by the choir.. sang until real good. professional mans.. what to do? Gold with Honours leh.

After that had some lessons.. and i was suprised i managed to listen to the lessons without falling asleep.. hahaz..

Then after sch, me fumin sixuan weejia duojie and joe went to yck court play badminton.. shack. the guys played so rough.. smack here smack there.. and there were many incidences where evil joe tricked us.. luckily i got immuned to his trick soon after that. i must say our skills not bad le la.. quite good. my whole body is turning jelly now, all thanks to joe manz. i had to play with him singles and this crazy man says it's very fun to make me run around the court hitting the ball.. i must say he's good. best player i've ever seen b4. must learn some tricks from him next time(if there's a chance we are still playing badminton.) hahas..

tmr having tennis training from 5-7.. wah die le.. no energy to run anymore.. maybe i will just forego PT le.. try to cheat. hhaz.. But whatever it is, i think i will just do my best la. Hope i can get home well and alive! HaHaZ!!

Yea this fri after sch, the AJcians clique and some of the peeps from Acjc, cjc and rebecca(forgot is nyp or sp, hahaz) are meeting up for a birthday bash! hahz.. that is dinner at marina bay! steamboat! Think will be reaching home quite late.. cause Ajcians clique dismiss quite late. at about 5 on fri.

Sianz.. PW! i hate PW!

i think im having the same sentiments as fumin le la.. actually i have thought of it last time le.. that im taking up business course in Uni.. hahaz.. my reason for taking up business course is stupid la.. hahaz.. dont want to say.. leta ppl say im crazy. But i havent really thought of what course i will enrol in in Uni.. maybe i should start planning right now..

im quite sure im gg to give up Chi A.. since it's going to take up most of my time.. if i were to hang on to it.. i dont know how i am gg to survive this A level ordeal. While studying for promos.. ChiA is the subject that made me so stressed up that i even cried. Cuz i just cant memorise anything right in my head. And anyway, im sure that my GP cannot make it. So.. ya. i shall drop CLA le. Though i will really miss salt(im serious here..). haiz.

k la.. im gg for a rest now. too tired le.

byeeeee!!~

It doesnt always pays off.

2005-10-16T14:19:00.000-07:00

Im in school right now.. and as you can see- blogging. wasnt feeling good 1.5 hrs ago.. cuz sth unhappy happened. i actually scolded one of my clique members.. because i simply cant tolerate anymore. And i think things get awkward after that. But whatever it is, i dont think im in the wrong. It's the truth. Any reasonable person would agree to me.

Took back all our exam papers today.. in particular physics, maths and GP.. maths was rather ok baz.. din feel anything. just a lil sad that...........(ya some ppl might know..) then GP. ya it's exactly this paper that made me flare up at one of my clique members. It's just that this person dont know how to care about the feelings of others. Though i passed, but it was good at all. shucks. But anyway.. wasnt angry with her anymore.

i dont know why, but personally feel that ajc's exam score system might be corrupted. Dont really wish to elaborate. i think fumin might know what i am trying to say.

Now the thought of jiahui came crying to me after phy exam seemed ridiculous to me manz. she actually scored so well lo. cry cry cry. in the end leh? all these are unpredictable de laz.. u just have to leave it all to fate and god.

passed all subjects. including gp(for this promo only). but i wasnt happy at all. dont know why. just not happy. i used to think that i would have difficulty passing even one A level sub.. but now i managed to pass all.. however, i wasnt happy. wasnt. just neutral. sometimes even sad. why? deep down in my heart, i know the reason why. but i just keep it to myself. no one will know.

unjustice.

i dont know if i will want to keep 4A level subs if i WERE to pass GP. Chances are low. But, most prob, i will drop CLA, since most of em are dropping. I should nt be studying this right from the start anw.. i dont even have to study chi at all.

sianz. now waiting for 2.30 to come so that we can take back chi lit paper. wasting my time now.

feel like shouting out loud now.

screaming out all my pent up anger in me.

2005-10-14T18:40:00.000-07:00

I just managed to make my way home now.. i was dismissed at 12.45 but came back at only this time of the day. And i did sth contructive today, not shopping, but playing tennis. hahahas.. contructive ya?

Initially it was raining, but after some time the rain began to stop and so me weejia fumin weiting and hsienmeng made our way to yck tennis court to play tennis and also to brush up our skills.. and since i just bought my own tennis racket.. so might as well use it. Then weejia, being the "nice gentleman" lent our dear fumin his pe shirt.. 'cause is last minute decided to join us de.. and he had to play in his long pants and uniform.. poor thing. hahas.. his whole shirt was sooo wet after playing.. and while fumin was playing with weejia they all, i had to pick up the balls for them, was sooo tired.

played only about 1 plus hr before it began to rain again.. then me weejia and fumin decided to go to sengkang compass pt eat dinner. i seriously think fumin is interested in wee jia ar.. only when wee jia asked her to go sengkang then will she agree.. last time i kept on bugging her to go bishan she dont even want to go lor.. wee jia, be careful!

matthew!

matthew!

matthew! (fumin dun hurl vulgurities at me! hahas..)

slept my way on the bus. very tired.

man i've gt to do more C.I.P le.. if not next time dont even think of gg Uni.

tmr's AJ Open House.. initially gg to help our for tennis de.. then weiting told me it's nt included into CIP.. so intend not to go now. haix.

Think mr loh is angry with our pw group today.. first time i saw him gave attitude.. scare me. affected me also.

yea tmr weekend le.. happy. can slack.!!!

oh ya.. during PW lecture today.. there was this qn like this, "Why do you think ppl are not consuming bubble tea today?"

then while i was busy thinking of the answer, fumin told me this, "Because they have already consumed it yesterday."

sian diaoz immediatedly.. lame answer. but an intelligent one. hahas.. i woulnt have thought of that!~

I hate somebody so much i feel like bashing him/her up.

2005-10-12T23:00:00.000-07:00

im obviously not in a very good mood today.. esp after chi period.. to the extent i feel like punching and kicking ppl up now. this has never happened to me before.. the feeling is so strong inside. and i thought i could explode in any moment.

the first half of the day was quite normal.. our pw group managed to work so efficiently today.. it's the first time that we are so hardworking. but joe was using all the time to play his computer game instead of helping us..

then came the time we had to take back our chi language papers.. i thought i could do well for that paper.. but who knows i din do well. it was bad. i feel like dying at the pt of time.. cuz i had neva scored such bad results for chi before.. and mind you, this is chinese.. which has always been the best subject for me since young. That shocked me the most.

the after the chi "period", a big group of us went to find chen lao shi.. to give us our overall grade. luckily i managed to get a result which im satisfied with.. ok it was quite good.. but when i heard that "someone" got better than me, i really want to just shout out some "words". That person dont deserve it at all. really dont deserve AT ALL! that person just put in effort only last minute.. it's all last minute work, but yet unjustice is done.. and whats more.. this person hogs around and kept saying stupid things like "aiya.. why chem want to moderate".. pls lor, moderate moderate la.. whats the problem with you? there are ppl who dont do well and they dont mind at all, yet you are saying all these "feng liang hua". then before knowing his/her chi overall results.. this person was like saying, "wah lao if my chi dont get B blah bla bla..." then i was like saying, "now pass can liao la..salt already say u very good le ma..", then this person replied me in this way, "good as in what? C ar? D ar?" wah at that time i really want to burst le, i feel like hurling all those things around me unto this person's face. and i really feel like scolding "words" to her. but because i still treat her as a friend, i tolerate. tolerate.

justice will come one day. you wont always get so lucky.

ppl who put in effort will pay off.

just feel like beating ppl up now.

really very not happy.

really very bu fi qi.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-11T15:10:00.000-07:00

Shant be formal today.. cuz im in a good mood today! not really very good, but at least feeling a little better..

there are two birthday girls in our class today! that's jiahan and jiahui.. same day same month.. just not same year only.. jiahui seemed shocked when i present her the present representing my clique. happy birthday ppl! Sweet seventeen.. 17 more days before i turned seventeen!~ Yea!

was having nightmares yesterday.. dreamt of me taking back chem paper.. and i din really saw how much i scored.. but know i din do well.. then dreamt of salt again.. dont know why dreamt of her.. very scary..

somehow.. i had this feeling that i will not do well for chem yesterday.. and today.. a very bad feeling.. that cant be explained.. and my heart just cant stop beating at the thought of it.. was feeling troubled throughout the day today.. just because of chem.. so u can imagine how mcuh trauma studies and exams have brought unto me..

finally 11.30 came.. and we got back our papers.. chem. i was really really very scared i would fail.. then when i saw my results.. i heaved a sigh of relief.. cuz i passed! nt just borderline pass! though i passed.. but i dont really seem very happy abt it.. cuz there are others who did better.. hsienmeng was the only one who scored A.. but whatever it is.. i should be thankful to god that he blessed me through.. i prayed to him 3 times in just two days.. and he saw me through. :)

then we asked mdm ng abt our maths results.. luckily she told me i passed.. hahaz.. now that i've got at least 2As pass.. i will nt have to worry so much anymore.. and i can happily be promoted.. that's one of my biggest wish..

was having character development programme today.. got to know i am the perfectionist type.. i thought this was not true of me.. but when i asked fumin.. she agreed with the result that i am a perfectionist.. hahas.. how come i dont know it myself? perhaps that explains why "pang guan zhe qing" baz.. she also agreed im an economical person.. hahas.. ok la.. sometimes only k.. not always.

tmr taking back chi paper.. heard our class din do really well? im nt too sure.. but i hope this is not true..

whatever it is.. i've done my best. and i should be contented with what i have..

my blog's song is very nice right? it's the song in the korean drama serial "tian guo de jie ti".. there's still another song which is very nice.. am listening to it now.. very touching.. and soothing..

shall end my blog here.. and continue listening to the song!

i love quan xiang yu!!~

Different Frequency- Something obstructive?

2005-10-10T14:40:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it really makes me wonder how two person clicks. Is it the chemistry between them or the same frequency that makes the two click so well? i think both play an equal important role in this, but somehow i feel that having different frequency is somthing that obstructs two people from being close friends with each other. It is not that the person do not want to be close to another person, but it's just the wrong frequency that is widening the gap between them. No matter how hard the latter tried to be nice and compromising to the person, he/she just can't seem to communicate well him/her. Sad, isn't it? That two people could be separated or do not have the chance to be best pals with each other just because something called frequency is obstructing their way.

Perhaps it is the way somebody carries him/herself that determines the type of frequency between the two person. Perhaps it is the different character of the two person that results in the wrong type of frequency.

One could be a seemingly quiet and studious girl, while the other could be a direct and outgoing girl. So no matter how the outgoing girl tries communicate nicely to the quiet girl, they just cant click well. Not hatred, not chemistry, but frequency that pulls them apart.

It all seems to tell us that frequency determines the difference between two people. That only those with the right frequency clicks well. That there is a bridge between those with the right frequencies and those with the wrong frequencies. Both belong to two different worlds.

Frequency pulls two person together, but at the same time pulls them apart. Ironic, isn't it?

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ok. so lets come back to reality now. yea have a new blog now.. a nicer one.. (i hope?!) weejia's clique went kbox.. din went with dem cuz i dont sing at kbox de.. hahas. and fumin kept brooding abt gg to kbox with them in d train after rejecting their invitation..
saw matthew on d way to yck mrt.. fumin gt a shock. but i know deep down inside her heart she must be jumping like mad! right! suo wei, "OUR PATHS ARE IN PARALLEL, WILL IT INTERSECT ONE DAY??!" hahas! dun spit vulgarities at me ar fumin.. hahs..

and fumin, we have bought a shirt for u le.. dun kept saying u've gt no shirt to wear OK!

today's basically a very slack day.. most slackest day in my whole life.. morning 8am till 12.15 we just slack around in the IT room with no teachers.. cuz teachers have got to mark our scripts.. left everybody alone in their respectives venues to do self directed pw programme.. where we were supposed to work on our pw thing.. and i think basically it's only our group and ghim gin's group that seems to be working on pw.. the others are just lazing around..

then after the 9.15 break, me weiting peirong jiahui jiahan and joe were playing "zhong ji mi ma", and the punishment is truth or dare.. but to add fun to this game.. we eliminate truth.. so only left dare.. scary.

i was d first to tio the punishment. then came the second time where i had to hold weiqiang's face and told him right into the face that he is cute.. omg. made me so paiseh at tt point of time really.. but i think my punishment is nth as compared to peirong's and weiting's one actually.. ahas.. peirong really very bold.. she hug duojie and told him she loved him, and touch hsienmeng's face also.. hahas. weiting's part also very funny.. as weiting and hsien meng are a couple.. so she had to hug hsienmeng and tell him i love u.. that part was really interesting. esp when her face was soooo red. joe's one also very funny.. very erxin also.. imagine he had to hold weejia's hand, blow gently into his ear and tell him i love u.. wah that was really funny. fancy two guys doing all these.. hahas.

that should be about all for today's happenings le ba.. and btw.. salt is returning us our chi papers this thurs.. im so scared. why does she have to mark so fast?? i havent really gt a chance to rest yet!~

im broke. drained. no more money left. there are just too many october babies in our class.. far too many! there's gg to be a class gathering on d 22nd of oct sat to the zoo.. and it costs abt more than 12-14 bucks.. then on the 23rd still gt a birthday bash for min me n cy by liting's clique.. cham le.. gotta save up.

i actually prefer gg to escape than zoo eh.. though gg to zoo is fun.. but zoo can only see animals.. then escape can play and scream non-stop.. but up to them la. im fine with anything dex. :)

Happy- the best medicine of all illnesses.

A Whole New Blog!~

2005-10-10T02:56:00.000-07:00

Hey ladies and gentlemen! i've created a new blog, but am still new to it. Visit my blog here!

Heaven

hahaha

LoLz. :)

Netball is my life!

Netball is my life!

Netball is my life!

想你 天国的阶梯

The best gift on earth..

It doesnt always pays off.

I hate somebody so much i feel like bashing him/her up.

Different Frequency- Something obstructive?

A Whole New Blog!~

想你天国的阶梯